Long Manic depression Poems

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FROM:  Mother Earth

In case you, or anyone you know, is possibly listening,
wanted to mention,

Climate change is a catastrophic NATIONAL,
even international, DISASTER;
a poly-psychopathic source of extreme dissonance.

Anyone who knows our butts
from a BlackHole...

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Musicianship 
(3 May 2014;  For my son Steven, an ACCOMPLISHED guitarist)

Real musicianship can truly drive you nuts—
There really are no “ifs”, “ands”, or “buts”.
Practice, study, memorize, then more practice--
Is this just an obsession or...

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I have no intuition, I hope you don’t either.
I mark down the strength of these rings

On my weak fingers
to make me stronger.

The glowing blue gem 
Makes me powerful again

And again, I want to die. 
It’s...

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The gentle giant
Towered above his friends
Six foot four, mammoth
His size lost on the truth
Of his kindness
He was mild and tender
Like the elephant 
His spirit whispered
Instead of screaming
He was mellow
Like serenity, soothing

Michael, named for an angel
He...

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When Patty was in the manic phase, she'd ignore dangers:
She'd hold parties in her motel room for hordes of strangers.
One of them she married after knowing him half a day -
Did it occur that something...

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Feeling everything at once,
And nothing at all.
Numb?
Maybe.
Just may be the medications,
My therapist says,
Meditation.
The answer,
The problem?
Is manic depression.
Some say disorder,
I scream.
Obsession.
The doctor’s dose me, 
I obliged,
Just because I don’t want to die.
Addiction killed my soul,
Reprive,
Or spiritually...

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In a day when mental illness 
was hidden behind a closed door,
A young girl lived but wished to die;
 she couldn't take it anymore.

No one knew the pain she suffered;
always wondering how it would end.
Would...

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You think you know me?
You have no idea.
Some days I don’t leave my room,
Trapped by sadness.
In pitch black darkness.
Wondering when the pain will cease,
Depression plagues me,
Takes over my body,
Takes over my mind,
Am I going crazy?
Or...

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Screams of doubt, sorrow
Clouds of unrest, anxiety, darkness
Torturing my soul, my dreams
Gone to a place, unknown
In the center of this horror

There were hallucinations
Illusions within the nightmare
Of this shadowed room
In the center of my feelings
War was...

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There are days I don’t want to feel,
There are days I want to destroy all I’ve healed.
There are days that I sail,
Through the skies without fail
On a manic high,
I feel amazing without having to try.
There...

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A triggered intention to delay the sobriety. This has become her daily intention. Suicidal note helps her cope. Manic depression and a drug seeking obsession filled with no hope. The new malicious promoter is now...

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I’m in love with him,
He see’s right through me.
He loves me for who I am and not who he wants me to be,
Manic depression is family,
It doesn’t leave me alone,
But he’s always here for me,
His...

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Tonight is ending. As my breath slows. My final demise. The final low blow.
 Learn from the broken. See all that's real. Tonight is your heart ache. Tomorrow to feel.
 My time to prove what...

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Brutal honesty I dared myself to write, so without hesitation writing brutally honest I begin. Demons control the facade of angels that surround me, I'm loved, though demented. Webs of deceit control the strands of...

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EatWutUKill, real name's Tevin 
I have something called panic disorder and manic depression
Nothing could cope me, not even the medications and therapy sessions
Only made the situation worst, as these prescriptions became my addiction
In bed tossing...

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“Fear whispers worry into your ear, anxiety into your hopes and doubt into your faith… Love whispers hope and peace” – by poet

With a brain washed pale
By voices thundering
Silent screams echoing through me
Clearing away the...

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Life with Depression

Life can be confusing
Sometimes good, never amusing
it can turn you upside down
but never let it keep you down

Sometimes life is but a test
as God won't put too much on your chest
sometimes fail, other...

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Sleep escaped,
Without a farewell,
She had not the grace
To aspire my light,
She proved to be darker
Than her gaze,
Glaring, glowering,
Glowing with madness,
Bipolar’s destroyer – two sides of the coin
Despair, dread, doubt – depression
Delight, elation, wired – manic
Stages...

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In my bubble
I feel safe and warm
No one to hurt me
Or bring me harm

A knock on the door
And I am filled with fear
I look through the peephole
To see who is here

I hide inside
I dare not...

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I'm not invincible, I zoned out and I began over thinking,
Unlike a dilated pupil shrinking, I was untamed between blinking
Thinking dark thoughts, trying to build a fence but my chain wasn't linking,
So I found a...

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The word bipolar can put fear in your heart
Because you’ll never know when it will start.
Also known as manic depression and it can become
A lifelong obsession.
Wondering when the next bout of fear will enter you
And...

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Manic Depression is all she can say,
              Manic Depression her moods swing
          ...

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Angered by the smallest things
Bipolar disorder is my king
Conveying thoughts, hard to do
Distratctions overwhelm; I'm subdued
Energy level at an all time low
Frustration beyond reason is my foe
Going places; standing idle fast
Hanging onto, "normal" visions of...

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~“SECRET”, to be or not to be is my life long concession,
    essence of sacred heart or of the mind’s crooked obsession...
    having sacred purpose or a Neanderthal digression......

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Memories, like ghosts, haunt my mind in the dark until I’m searching for light, just a glimpse of a spark.

I can hide this disease with a nod or smile but to explain the damage it...

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