I was comfortable with our Verbal discourse, at first Reluctantly
Sapiosexual Being, Intellect your speech, I yearned for more
The version of you I placed in my mind, Foolishly
To accommodate my infatuation
I ultimately refused to see, Blindly
I walked to the edge of the cliff with blurred vision
Already emotionally strained, now wounded, Bitterly
And don't know how to feel or how to end the pain
that I inflicted, on myself, Inconsistently
I was wrong, but I will heal
Obligated to Self to be Strong, Mentally
Self Inflicted Torment
Wondering how to escape my Mind, Consciously
Blaming my Sensitivity
Prosecuting My emotions, Emotionally
Being Loved is minimal
I valued the version I created of you, Inaccurately
But now I see, Clearly!
Your Love lacked Support, I was not your Priority
Lesson Learnt! Bridges Burnt!
That Version of Me that Needed the Self Created Version of You
Has Evolved, Balanced on a Scale with a Feather, Peace Profound, Thankfully!
Categories:
inconsistently, emotions, love,
Form: Free verse
I loved you until
poetry turned into a jungle.
I loved you until
the words
cut my flesh inconsistently
if I could still lay an eye on it,
if you could hear me,
I would tell you
how I carved your name
on green arms of the
Ocean,
I carved it
with my last wish
on the floor of the
sea.
if I could still talk,
if you knew how to listen,
I would tell you
everything
what is love
but
today
it is nothing else
than a conception
of
your
dreams.
Categories:
inconsistently, care, faith, life, love,
Form: Free verse
Shut eye tired sun hidden, dark deals are bidden
Crept beneath deepening mystery
Seen by benevolent moon, blatant sins forgiven
White kindness laid table service savoury array
Ghost woven cloth spread mistily
Holds hottest options which daylight won't avail
Atop endless selections, ravenous diner imbibes
Most dishes devoured deliciously
Serene spotted moon smiled fat will never chastise
Night crumbles memory, black chocolate splinter
Kept quiet in ten hour slice of history
Melted by Summer sultry, frozen rose stem of Winter
Jovial diamond jives, moon lake ripple refraction
Dwells in water's waver inconsistently
Told lies transform to truth for short lived satisfaction
Lured by beguiling bounce, harlequin blanket swim
Brings ill considered next day ignominy
Impure intent in obscure of nuit secures sinful whim
8th December
- Wait for starlight surrender -
Categories:
inconsistently, extended metaphor, fantasy, imagery,
Form: Rhyme
On the car ride to chaos
I let the soft instrumental music
trace along the corners of my mind
easing the knot inside
my eyes shut, as the sun’s warmth fell;
Like an orphaned leaf subtly on a lulled lake.
The sun afresh;
playing hide and seek with the trees,
I rested exquisitely.
Slowly but inconsistently,
like honey in water,
the warmth lazily spread its way
through my pores making way to my unkempt heart,
Polishing away around each jagged edge and corner;
All the way down to the very roots, crumbling the crass.
Light shone on broken glass,
(once despicably destruct)
transitioned into my heart.
Once again christened and ready for war, I thought;
Perhaps in the moment between a swelling tide and a catastrophic wave,
The calm in the chaos- a catalyst before the next storm?
Categories:
inconsistently, beauty, growth, motivation, music,
Form: Free verse
Ride
On a
Turbulent
Rollercoaster
Plummet up and down
Pulled by a force driving
On track inconsistently
Trust always wavers in the wind
Hold on because it is not easy
On a ride, not knowing what to expect
Heidi Sands
10/31/17
Categories:
inconsistently, angst, change, emotions,
Form: Etheree
A dark light, in a sea of bright,
Uncertainty,
Certainly,
Inconsistently inclined against the norm,
Forcing light to the fringes of dark,
Making subtle advancement,
Into a land that was not.
Now feeling unstable to the point of no recognition,
To the point of discomposure,
Until thoughts employ emotion,
Until engaging one's self,
becomes equivalent to vexation,
into a world where affection is verboten,
and perception of ideology is stigmatized.
A dark light, in a sea of bright,
Certainty,
Certainly, the dark will burn out,
And light will shine bright,
As the nebulous depressive state,
Of which he stands,
Will be entirely cast over,
By a portrayal of faith,
By a true belief,
By the optimism of one,
As a euphoric ecstasy takes all control,
Leaving optimism to combat doubt,
And pessimism to absolve confidence.
Categories:
inconsistently, confusion, dark, depression, fear,
Form: Free verse
No cadence, no tempo lacking pace
Thoughts are unstable--I'm unable
Inconsistently arranged deranged estranged
Ink bleeds martyr for my scatter
Think needs order hits paper like splatter
Contained and restrained resisting conflict
Aching for rhythmic, predictable beat
Realizing the cymbal, scoffing defeat
Exclaiming simplicity in most complex terms
Proclaiming complacency with ferocious concern
Sun setting, forgetting, resetting start fresh
Go numb, go dumb, become flaccid flesh
No cadence, no tempo lacking face
Categories:
inconsistently, confusion
Form: Rhyme
Truth
Factual information,
Sincerely consumed.
Occasionally painful,
Will set you free.
Influences opinions,
Easily manipulated.
Often avoided,
Inconsistently spoken.
Strengthens the soul,
Indefinite dignity.
Viewed as outspoken,
Not always believed.
Categories:
inconsistently, life
Form: Free verse
I wake up each day
as this person
or that person
but never
as the same person.
A personality
bereft of individuality
or the luxury of tranquillity,
ignited by a past
which always denies me
sustenance or grace or
love
that my soul
so inconsistently desires.
Please accept the irony... if not then pass by
Categories:
inconsistently, imagination
Form: Free verse
I found Jesus in a cereal box,
flakes tumbled inconsistently,
pauses between each one,
and in one such pause fell
Jesus.
Shrink-wrapped, sermonising,
gape-mouthed,
prayer-clasped hands,
head-cocked
and bright haloed.
Sadly, I traded him
for he had less hit points
than Pikachu.
When all you receive
are scraps from the
table of life,
finding Jesus is no big deal,
when more hit points
are your real salvation…
Amen.
Categories:
inconsistently, allegory, funny, people, philosophy,
Form: Blank verse