On days such as this
When all lessons seem lost
I wander the forgotten labyrinth of my mind
Unable to recollect a single detail of it's construct
So many secrets lost I may never regain
The resulting numbness keeps the pain at bay
Beauty also is kept just out of sight
An adverse effect of the Universe's need for balance
The agony I felt that night was beyond my capabilities to bear
I sit alone in this cold hell
My strength became my weakness
How I hate a cliché
The belief that no obstacle exists that I cannot overcome
Causes the strength and comfort I need
From those I hold most dear
Heartbreakingly, absent
I am not in the least overly self-critical
But I have only recently acquired knowledge
Known to so few
Self-awareness brings pain
Equally, it comforts
Unfortunately
My human nature
Without acknowledging the benefit
Frequently allows the hurt to overshadow any peaceful haven
Doomed to remain hidden
I seek stillness yet allow chaos to reign
My fears have turned phobic
Paralyzed
I choke on the essence of tomorrow
As my spirit rages
Demanding a freedom only remembered in
Whispers of forgotten dreams
02/2021
Categories:
heartbreakingly, anger, betrayal, dark, endurance,
Form: Free verse
no one saw it,no one heard it
abyss of loneliness
the life ebbs - no doubt, bit by bit
no one should have to die alone
"please, see me dear sister"
in a bed at the nursing home
no one can hear her quiet voice
"can I borrow your hand"
heartbreakingly sad, but no choice
* * *
17.10.2020
Sun :) - A-L Andresen :)
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Writing Challenge - Tercets - Poetry Contest
Sponsored by: Constance La France
2nd place in the contest
Categories:
heartbreakingly, angst, death, emotions,
Form: Rhyme
Imagine
Imagine a planet where race wasn't a factor we're social status and sexuality preference did not define who we really are.
If we could all get into this mindset and put love first our future generations could prevail and reach the stars.
Imagine a planet with no evil, rape, murder ,lust and greed. Yet it started so long ago when Eve chose to taste that seed.
Imagine if fathers didn't harm their daughters or touch them out of impurity or out of lust.
Imagine not wanting to kill said father and watching him turn into nothing but dust.
Imagine mothers who love their children and who didn't reject them like common trash or an inconvenience to the heart.
Yet so many mothers played this lot in life and sadly play thier part.
We could imagine all day long but what would that really do? It doesn't change how things really are a sad reality but heartbreakingly true.
Imagine
Categories:
heartbreakingly, betrayal, child abuse, corruption,
Form: Free verse
They had two children
a boy and a girl
They'd done their bit
for a crowded world
Billions then living in poverty
Conditions heartbreakingly unsanitary
The 'moral' thing for parents to do
If having kids, stop at two
So dad had a vasectomy
Quickly and quite easily
His tubes were tied
Hs conscience satisfied...
Yet just eight months later
He wished he'd had
an appendectomy
or tonsillectomy --
anything but a vasectomy
,
For his baby daughter had died of SIDS
and now he could father no more kids
Just as painful, down the road
his son came out as gay
~ No grandchildren for him; no way
"Be fruitful and multiply"
Was commanded not just to the fruit fly
But to Adam and Eve, now mocked with mirth --
Though my poor friend with a vasectomy
Knows only pain on this Earth
He wants you to have as many children as you can
Not to think that you're privy to the Divine plan
Categories:
heartbreakingly, children, faith, future, god,
Form: Narrative
Rereading the
Love stories
Of teenage youth
Not so long ago
Weird
To realize how
Those stories
Molded mine
Into the now
The infinities
You believed in
The twilight moon
You wished of seeing
They never are yours
Yours is yours alone
And
Beautiful the way it is
They're never found
They find you
And
Will leave you
Breathless
Numb
In heartbreakingly
Lovely pain
But you'll love it
And when the right one
Comes along
It
Will
Never
Leave
You
So
Hold it tight
And
Don't
Let it go
Categories:
heartbreakingly, desire, destiny, heartbreak, identity,
Form: Free verse
I gave all my love, heartbreakingly, it was not returned
Putting all of that behind me, after a long gut wrenching year
Moving on to find a true love, from someone I can trust
05/26/2018- Sijo Poetry Contest - Sponsor: Heidi Sands
Categories:
heartbreakingly, heartbreak, hurt, love, romantic
Form: Sijo
So Close Yet Far Apart`
So close...so very close
and yet so heartbreakingly
Far away
So near...so very, very near
That I can hear...my dear
Each whispered word you say
So slim...so very slim
The chance you’d ever deign
To dance with me
So shy...so very shy am I
Perhaps twas ne’er
meant to be
So painful… so very painful tis
To hold you so very close
To my heart
So lonely...and only...
but only...in my dreams
it seems
So near...so very near
We seem
So close yet
...far apart...
Categories:
heartbreakingly, conflict, confusion, desire, lost
Form: Romanticism
the hardest thing in this life
has to be the loss of a child
there is no way to explain
the pain the loss hands out
the void it leaves behind
where the heart did once reside
even the thought is heartbreakingly cruel
in what the loss to a soul can do
the darkness that greets each new day
the sadness you continually have to brave
the hardest part of losing a child you've raised
is the emptiness that never goes away
I have several friends that are going through this tragedy (it really never ends does it) my prayers are with you all.
Categories:
heartbreakingly, child, death, loss, lost
Form: Rhyme
Goodbyes are always heartbreakingly sad
They're the end of the good times
you both thought would always last
But the least painful goodbye
is the goodbye sigh
It's when a relationship ends
without a reason why
None was given,
none was required
Perhaps freedom was simply
what you both desired
Maybe you're both glad it didn't work out;
when it comes to true love,
there never really should be any doubt
Oh well,
give a shoulder shrug and a good short cry ---
no words need to be said
The perfect parting gift that says it all,
is a brief hug and a goodbye sigh
Categories:
heartbreakingly, perspective, relationship,
Form: Rhyme
I miss you,
You threw me away,
Away without a second thought,
A thought about how I'll hurt,
Hurt like the five other girls you played with,
Without a goodbye you left,
You left with cruel words upon your lips,
Your lips I've always wanted to kiss,
To kiss so tenderly and heartbreakingly,
And heartbreaking is all I feel,
I feel your eyes upon me as I pass,
I pass like we had no past,
Our past was one big lie,
A lie you gratefully tell,
Tell to anyone who will listen,
Listen with open ears,
With open ears I hear,
Hear all the tall tales,
Tales about you and I,
I being the less fortunate,
Fortunate is an antonym for you and I.
Categories:
heartbreakingly, angst, girlfriend-boyfriend, life, loss,
Form: I do not know?
piously held at brink of eye
paused for while before it fell
and it was heartbreakingly slow
unlike deliberate tears flow
a falling tear did felt
as if love in heart melt
thousand draggers heart could held
but a word of apathy hard to dealt
life engulf in an elfin tear
shy colossal sky the earth’s mirror
just one solitary tear
bypass galaxy of thoughts treasure
like a dewdrop plain
a tear that silently fell
what’s it worth hard to tell
inevitably conveyed a sad tale
…rAHUL
Categories:
heartbreakingly, passionheart, heart,
Form: I do not know?
From our very first moments
Everything was bliss
I thought, this could never happen to me
Until our first kiss
Perfect days we spent together till night,
You never let me go
And I held on so tight
Was it because I knew
Those feelings would fade away?
Things sizzled then fizzled
So heartbreakingly fast
A whirlwind romance I never believed existed
My heart so up then down
Suffered an attack
My insides feel broken
Everything's turned upside down
Will I ever recover from this sudden change of heart?
Categories:
heartbreakingly, girlfriend-boyfriend, lost love, love,
Form: Dramatic Verse