When earth is dearly smiling
thee put doubtfulness to our joys
chattering humanity then and now
a memory of thee could have
visited moon tomorrow
it is possible to remember it, the wild
even when state hid her
despair, that is filling the world with sorrows
Oh! a false Polina! of unholiness
can earth forget thy injury?
forget that window to sink?
even science with her uproar
and enthusiasm to change the world?
shrink, fear and express jittery when informed?
or one expression
earth morns a scene
as if it can withstand shame
to hear and bear a story and tale of who
may have thought and acted so
dent is huge and humiliating
always there though
thee may have wished to swallow
and wanted to claim freedom to scatter in air
now I have no doubt thee is like a stormed
boat to no one country
let me not recall
despair of attention and deciept
surrounding its history since so
I fear tis rising sorrows
to overwhelm the blossoms?.
As I walk along my feet freely wander
as my mind seems to run and ponder
reflecting on my life’s unexpected gifts
affecting my whole reality to severely shift
As I walk along each day, I try to stay humble
But sometimes my words blurt out and fumble
Feeling grateful and contentment most days
But anxiety still destroys my psyche in ways
Feelings of fear, worry and doubtfulness
Slowly chips away my joy and happiness
Sometimes it’s ferocious fear and very fast
Luckily those dark days have mostly passed
Today as I walk along and smell the spring air
I reflect on my struggles and all I have had to bear
Feeling more fortunate but remaining humble
No longer allowing my anxiety to make me crumble
Bidding farewell to worldliness' festival
I turn to Jesus Christ, the Lamb of God*, Source of spiritual revival...
He graciously wrought great changes in my life by His grand arrival
Assuring me salvation from hell’s condemnation and sinful survival
Giving me glorious life eternal, enabling my divine blessed upheaval.
Saying goodbye to pride-caused blindness
I move on, thanking the Almighty for illumining by His loving kindness…
Healing my soul’s iniquity-afflictions with His wondrous forgiveness
Clearing my blurred vision through His wisdom’s counseling brightness
Upholding my biblical faith, subduing my skepticism and doubtfulness.
Lingering midst serene adieu-flight after parting from selfishness-blight
I praise the omnipotent Creator-Lord midst His holiness-might…
Smiting my vain arrogance to yield humbly to His supreme sovereign height
Reproving my grievous disobedience, leading me to His will, perfectly right
Bracing me upon His strength so I can serve Him with joyous delight.
*John 1:36 And looking upon Jesus as he walked, he saith, Behold the Lamb of God!
August 30, 2019
Edited on July 11, 2022
PRAYER FOR MY HEART
With evil motives provoking me
Hardening my will obstinately…
My God, I entrust my heart to Your control
For You indeed know that out of it are the issues of life.*
With negative reactions causing my faithlessness
Drowning my soul into doubtfulness’ depths...
My God, I submit my heart to Your grace
For You alone can thwart its deceitful schemes.
With foolish counsels pulling me down to frustration
Leading my spirit to wallow in despair...
My God, I yield my heart to Your authority
For You surely are my Master and Lord.
With haughtiness keeping me unyielding
Weakening my moral-spiritual fortitude…
My God, I subject my heart to Your discipline
For You can smite my stubbornness of arrogance-origin.
By faith in You, through Jesus Christ's name,
I entreat for Your answer, believing...
Thanking and praising You...
...Assured that You hearken to my silent prayer.
*Proverbs 4:23 “Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.”
February 2, 2019
Edited on February 26, 2019
10th place, "Pick A Title - Free Verse" Poetry Contest
Sponsored by Edward Ibeh; judged on 3/9/2019.
When but a child the world seems set in stone.
Too soon this cozy surety fades and dies;
And verities, like passing clouds, are flown,
Confusing right with wrong and truth with lies:
The ground’s no longer firm beneath our feet.
What once was bedrock now is shifting sand,
While warring interests jostle and compete
And nothing seems to turn out as we planned.
Yet know, my love, that even though all life
May be uncertain, nothing else be fixed,
Amidst confusion, doubtfulness, and strife
One thing is always pristine, pure, unmixed:
While much is inescapably unsure,
My love for you shall steadfastly endure.
silly me I can't stop smiling
doubtfulness no ones reminding
supposed to forget it all
can't hurt when already fallen
to you
o
the sun never dies
o
all us will fly
let me sink into your head
listen to your shyness fled
then again I just don't mind
will not feel the stir of time
with you
o
the sun never dies
o
all us will fly
o
forgot the words you said
o
those tears i never shed
shh..