Best Relapse Poems

I held a blade to my arm last night,
Like I have many times before. 
But this time ended differently,
Because this time the skin tore.

To others this might look bad,
Like I tossed 4 years down the drain.
Four years of being “sometimes” happy, 
Was clearly driving me...

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Tiptoe into my room
and hide behind the curtain;
You wait to slither onto me
and be my demon.

You lurk in the shadows
waiting to pounce upon me;
You seek to capture my soul,
and you do so through my body.

Hallucination or reality,
you make it hard to comprehend;
you show me a...

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My radar goes up when you don’t come home
You’ve left me sitting here all alone
I want to cry but the tears don’t come
The wheels in my mind are turning
I shout down the doubt that I have in my head
I should be asleep but I sit...

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She paints everything purple when she's high
Violet clocks and lavender shelves get her by
He smiles, wishing the clock could rewind
He hates the drugs, at least he's color blind
She hates being like this
She covers her room in amethyst
She knows he sees her addiction is back
It's evident...

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A quake took place
between my shoulder blades
teeth ground to dust behind my face
the scraping of tectonic plates
scared me to my hiding place
bottles and blankets, a child’s space
it cannot withstand the shakes
that are now all too commonplace....

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Aided by autumn
Spring relapses to winter.
How strange are His ways!...

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Broken promises
Dagger through the heart
Silent heaving sobs
Why did it start?

Healing wounds
Comforting words
Relapsing Pain as
Photos return.

Haunting love
Tainting its name
Dagger through the heart
Overwhelming shame....

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I loved you from the start;
nothin' ever mattered 
but no one could tell me.
I just needed you badly. 
So we made our mistakes 
and moved on, to a scary place;
Where all I did was bleed
and cry; wish that I would die. 
I needed you, cried...

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Disappointment coats my dreams, 
like blight destroys a bloom.
Good intentions grow obscene
do push me to my doom.

Everyone has demons,
some shackled, some are caged;
but I've been cursed with free ones 
that would burn me with their rage.

The demon canc'rous grown in me
digs deep his torturous claws...

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I look into your eyes and I fall into you.
Wonder if I'm dreaming, is this really true?
Pleasure at it's finest, you're my addiction.
Perfection in its finest depiction.
Constriction, you leave me without breath.
Everything fades far out of existence, I go deaf.
You're my drug, my one and...

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The break comes slow; a funeral’s pace for the brain’s unraveling.

You stop swallowing the pills, and the shadows surround you again with their familiar comforts and unbreakable grip.

Death seems so beautiful; an epic climax to the moving picture that is your insufferable life. 

Stop, go,...

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Damn, I thought I was past this,
At least on the surface.
Mangled misshapen life.
Back to drag me down.

Drives everyone away,
This ... sickness,
It poisons the corners of my mind.
I retreat into the darkest corner,
To find it waiting.

It grins like a Cheshire cat,
Stalks my movements.
Anticipates,
Lies in wait.
Always waiting...

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No one understand the things in my head
I need a release
I need a release
and once again I'm between a pencil and pen

I see the progression
It gets worse every day
I need to catch it
before it's the end

Flooded with emotions
I can't control
Destroy relationships
I long to keep

It's happening...

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I wasn’t cheating or mistreating you
I just wanted to be with you
Said we grew apart but I didn’t see your point of view
You left me in the dark
Now you like baby can we just talk
But I don’t think it’s gone work out
 Thought we was...

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I'm not sure what she's using 
though I have an idea
her body she's abusing
and her mind has anaemia
as the excuses drip off her tongue
as to why she can't call
not the first to be sung
not the last bar room brawl
helpless I wait
til she tells me these...

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