Relapse

I loved you from the start; nothin' ever mattered but no one could tell me. I just needed you badly. So we made our mistakes and moved on, to a scary place; Where all I did was bleed and cry; wish that I would die. I needed you, cried for you almost even died for you. You hurt me, burned me turned away from me. I loved you so much, too much, but hate next. You understand? You played me, made me. Make or break me. Broken, focused on all the little things. Waking up to empty space. Pain so strong it was easier to hate. Too late! Breathe, take a break, try to heal; get real, you don't deal... Escape, run away its all I do anyway. Duck and hide. Remember what it felt to die inside? Move on, move out forget what its about. He's new, he's real a better distraction than guilt. Still not enough but the bloods dried up. New habits start while the others die hard... Love and Lust are not the same then you realize there's no one to blame. You've lost, yet another one down the drain. You're lost, forget it. You'll never change. A new way to replace the old Crystal dragons blowin' smoke make ya feel bold. A way out, a new you; doesn't even matter. Every time you look around you grow a little sadder. Look out, you're all alone in a world so cold. Relax, relapse to a love you've already known....