Best I Dont Even Know Poems
Never said yes
And no chance to say no
Both inebriated
So you thought that was the chance for you to go
No violence from what I remember
I woke up in the midst
Too messed up to say a word
Or know the order of events
I dont even know the face
I only thought it was you
And you say it was him, too
My self feels so displaced
Should've paid attention to the signs
But was too naive
Invite me somewhere unfamiliar
And use the tricks up your sleeve
Just to get off
You shatter the outlook of a young girl
Just to get off
You put a curtain over my world
Due to your ill wishes and your sickness
I was too dumb to speak
Too embarrassed, too ashamed
I thought it was defeat
After one realization came another
Eventually, nothing is at it seems
While growing up you're given lessons
With age wisdom gets more keen
I can forgive but won't forget
I've also gained through your deception
I've learned not to lose all hope through this
Uninvited infection
Well im thinkin that ive always been a romantic
Ive just always been concerned with all girls
To live in a world without them would be tragic
They love to run their fingers through my curls
And just when i think im in love with all
I find myself fallen for one in particular
As we hold hands walking down the hall
I try to catch a glimpse of her sexy figure
I just hope we dont end up like our parents
Well maybe yours wouldnt be so bad
Just know that i live only for your prescence
And without you id be beyond sad
But i dont even want to think of that
I dont even know where my mind will take me
Only with you do i like to chat
I would be a wandering fish if your were the sea
Now as i come to this close
I wonder about the future
I chose not to write this in prose
Because for you to read is torture (hahaha)
To wait another night, at least this time i know your alive...
Darling, why do you insist on hurting yourself?
You say it hurts like hell to know your never gonna be enough for me...
If you would only stop this nonsence, you would be.
To miss another night of you, i dont even know where you are...
you say you love me, but i fear it isnt true.
you say it hurts like hell, not being able to see me anytime soon...
why cant you realize, baby it hurts me too.
To not be able to kiss your lips, this is so tough, yet are we still willing to risk it?
you say you asked your dad if i can come over....
thats so cute, but baby, your so drunk....
i know this is hurting both of us, but how could i stop?
Im falling in love so hard, im saving the life of another...
This is so hard, we're risking it all,
do we believe in our love enough?
do we have enough hope to work?
because i know i cant stop, i cant stop loving you, and i cant stop this hurt.
Form:
I am a poet
And I dont even know it
Or do I.....
Form:
oh! my beutifull nation,
i cant end-list your potentials,
and your lovely peace provision.
my sweet adorable Tanzania,
my love for you is not just an affair,
my staying here makes my life easier.
Ngorongoro, mikumi even serengeti
The national parks,that are the most amazing,
i dont even know where to start explaining their beuty.
God bless Tanzania,God bless Africa,
Is the prayer antherm I will forever alter,
For I believe my nation is a blessed one!!!
God is great. God is strong, watching over us with love keeping us safe in the shadow of his wings where we belong, the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, but no matter how sad things are i will thank the Lord every single day, some people come into our life and some people go, but God never leaves us this I do know, so no matter how much
llife tries to make you give in, stay close to Jesus... for with him the battle he always will win. Amen he goes before us to guide our way, he stands behind us to catch us if we fall and stand beside us in everything that we do, nothing can ever seperate us from the Love of God, we grow in his love every day and we sing his praises regardless of how much life hurts us, just keep singing and praying and standing with God, first in our hearts king forevr. price of peace Amen
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you,” says the Lord. “I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes.
The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
I will advise you and watch over you. Amen
i recenty tried to help a friend who I prayed for some time ago for too i tried to do something nice and inspirational and now they are not talking to me at all, I dont get it, the kinder you are the more people just wana hurt you for no reason, I dont even know what i did wrong how sad is that but God still stands strong Amen
Breaking me down , With every word they say .
Breaking me down , Til i start to hate my self for being different .
Tell my self either i have to be nice or be a hoe , So this group of girls can like me or this boy but i am not being my self though ,
Following the crowd because i don't know who i am yet , Following the crowd soon i will for get ...Me .
The person i see everyday in the mirror aint me thought , She is just some basic girl trying to fit in and the only way she dose that is by pretending .
Like this is a movie and she just trying to play he part .
On the out side she looks cool , But this world is picking her apart .
She trying not to explode , But everyone thinks they know who she is but they don't .
Telling all these fake story , but when the time to confront comes they become a ghost .
They are no where to be found , But they don't know that these words are breaking her down making her hate her self .
And she's seeking for help but there is no one to help her , So she scream at the top of her lungs Help ! Help !Help , She is becoming some one else ! Help ! Help ! Help !
And she wait and she wait , But no one comes , No one because she ran the all off .
But all she can think about is what her mother told her , baby girl that mouth going to get you in to some big trouble ... !
But she never listen , This young girl caught up in the world , Not knowing what she want . Really knowing nothing at all . Realized something , That is she if started to think it might just save her life.
And she argues with her self i do think and her self answer why don't you think twice .
And when you do think why don't you think about what is going to happen tomorrow no just at that second .
Why don't you think about you future , You claim you got one but at this rate i see you not having one , I dont even know if i see you alive . Unless you can change for the better , Unless you can change .
Its not always the people AROUND you sometime the problem can be your self .
And she knew that , and after she ask for forgiveness and ask for gods help .
She stated on the journey to finding HER SELF !
-April Jones
2.28.13
Form:
Day and night,
I think about the truth,
Behind those hidden curtains,
Trying hard to understand,
How He thinks and do things,
Why is that that our mind so small,
Its hard for us to think beyond?
Why did He made everything complicated for us?
I sat down my dad called,
To make me face the reality,
My heart started beating fast,
And tears run down my cheeks,
As if there was hail,
I didn't know what to say,
He told me he might not last long,
How am I going to see him?
He is on the other-side of the world?
I am worried about him,
I wish I could die with the people who I love,
I am scared to loose them
And the hard part is I dont know my dad,
I miss him!
I feel like time is close by,
And I didn't live my life as if I wish to,
I can't because things are not the same,
When I see an apple on the tree,
It feels like blood dropping beside my eyes,
I feel strange in this world,
I don't think or see the things I used to,
I stand amongst people who are changed,
In a bad way and yet the worst hasn't begun!
I can't even write my poems the same,
I can't make it rhyme anymore,
I feel like I am all alone in this,
I feel like this is a big challenge,
And I am lost in middle of no where,
I feel like nobody understands,
When the words come out my mouth,
All they hear is bluh! bluh! bluh!
I am disparate to find someone who I can talk to,
Yet I am scared to trust anybody,
I been hurt so many times,
I dont even know how to end this poem if you called it,
I have so much anger that is in me,
That no matter what I say there is still more,
That will never end,
One thing I know is I hate to be here,
And live in a place full of strangers, selfish liars, and untrusted people!
Form:
I dont know where to start
I dont even know what to say
I even dont know how to put these words in a phrase
Yet one thins is for sure, our friendship is made not by accidents but by choice we made and faith.
Cheers to the night that we are one and for mornings what we are not in bind
Holy ghost filled our holes and understanding for each one is made from time to time.
Respect we have for each one cannot be answered nor questioned by anyone
Coz we find ourselves before we bind and share happiness, sorrows and everyhing under the sun.
Backhanded compliment always surrounds us from time to time
Yet we care not for we admit that sometimes, somehow, our friends knows us more even before time.
So thank you from me and for everybody, for sharing joy and pain to where we stand.
I think ill make something new!
Something somewhat different with the words i spew!
Something about lost love to be found.
That will end up driven right into the ground.
Or in a box called lost but not found.
Or make something about death so hollow and sad.
So sad it will move the hardest prison grad.
Graduet.
Get it?
But anyways maybe not.
Maybe ill write a story of a baller getting shot.
But yeah ill probly not.
Whats on your mind though?
Have you got the time to find the time then let it go.
Just grab a notebook and let it flow.
Its like riding on a breeze nice and slow.
Like flying a kind real low.
Its easy unless its not simple.
Like when you use big words to sound obedient.
Which only rymes with words like expedient.
I dont even know what that means, i just threw it into the ingredients.
Sounds like a word thats rather deviant.
I like to build my poems like a subservient structure.
Im loosing it so bad my brains about to rupture.
This write sucks it doesnt make any sense.
Hence.
The reason im on the damn fence.
Becuase nothing i seem to do.
Seems to make sense.
Everyday I listen to songs that remind me of you,
I miss you so much I feel lost I dont even know what to do
This is the hardest thing I ever had to go threw.
I would give anything just to have you back,
But I know thats not gonna ever happen so I dont know how to act.
Now your miles & miles away,
If I had one wish it would be for you to stay.
I just hope your happy and okay.
Since I cant tell you I love you to your face
I'm writing you this poem to let you know
our memories noone can erase and in my life
noone will ever take your place.
Here we are, there we go
here i am, there you are
how can we be the cause of each others pain still
"Everytime i think about you i dont know its either im happy or sad
hoping not just to play you, but hey you try to do the same thing
im sorry if i seem weak or if i try too hard
my heart hurts to see an old friend when she looks at me with her head down
oh i dont know tomorrow i might go to jail
all in one night i jeapordized my freedom
cause im so hotheaded, hotblooded passion that pulls up, with your hair pulled back
then you let it fall down and then i get out this mess im in, you know i will, u know i will
i know with me everyday its something else,
im always trying to be good but i always end up doin bad things i know im mean to you in a bad way. i guess im not right in the head becuz all i see is a vision of a man when i lay down, except last night when i talked to you , you looked so worn out stressed out, why would you be with him when you could be with the man that u love still, its okay whatever you want its your choice, just please consider how much hangs in the balance, i dont even know if its talent, if im talented, or just sick of these lame conversations that people have with me, talking about all their troubles,but i have so many i cant even think straight
but i concentrate on the solution and i usually dont treat you with the love i feel becuz i dont love you if you dont love me, im sorry im a playa, im a crook, convict con-artist, tryin to find a way in your heart just so i can hurt him, i flip and turn words twist and bend the truth, make up *****just to send to u, becuz im trying to break down the fortress of your heart, count my attempts add em up, cross another day out on my calender, there goes another month, cross another month off my calender, and we collide so different then what we use to be, use this use them but dont try to use me or put me in their group girl, no enemy can stop me, even when men set the net, let their own foot be caught, slip and slide away, not trying to be slick with, or run game on you, so dont try to run game on me,
I try but i fail
this is not right
I'm a solider from hell
when i cant have a girl
my usual reaction is oh well
i think you can tell
but what am i trying to say
i dont even know
either you're to high
or i'm to low
i've never felt like this
this feeling is comming from my soul
but we are opposite each other
like love and joy
is to hatred and anger
you're the beautiful kind girl
i'm the ugly cruel outsider
and all my stupid mistakes
turned me into a fighter
I'm the dumbass with the lighter
ready to unleash the fire
you are all i think about
like a hungry bear thinks of a trout
like a reciever thinks of his touchdown route
i want you
there is no doubt
you soothe my hatred
like water you put the fire out
i just wanna be with you
but i dont think there's away
i'm so confused
i dont know what to do or what to say
i wanna be with you
i used to love being alone
but when i'm with you
you reveal a world i've never known
i wish i could be with you
Im lost in my thoughts..but i dont even know what to think anymore..
Too fast! It hurts!
It travels at lightspeed!
Ruins calm. More than I need!
Help me please!
This monster brings me to my knees!
Wild eyed. Animal's panic.
No reason. Life is just Titanic.
Too much to see, need, read.
Copious substance.
Im a glutton when I feed.
I would give anything to be basic!
I would give anything to erase it!
This twisted mind is my gift.
Still it warps my heart.
Tears it bit by bit.
I feel it as physical pain.
Shakey hand searching in vain.
Sanity sand in cerebral hourglass.
Answer me! How long will this last?!
Broken record of my life.
Deathmarch tune of it's fife.
Calls me from slumber often.
Hoping in time it will soften.
Harsh assault on my senses.
God hated me enough to give this sentence.
I'll see him someday.
I have a few things to say.
Why was this spell cast upon me!?
Too much for any brain to see!
My central motor runs too fast!
How long can the hardrive last?!
Sometimes I think of my creator.
A hand deserving a slap!
Made a creature crave love and calm.
You loaded him with a confusing psalm.
Pulled from the inside out.
To many directions to account.
Sleeplesly I suffer at night!
I weep!...enduring the blight.
Panic stricken I'm too full!
Why can't my life be more dull?!
Why can't the thoughts be culled?!
Everything is overly mulled!
I just want to rest and find respite.
I'm too tired to put up a fight.
Give me slumber, its not fair!
Show me, god, that you even care!
I feel wind scattered.
Its never really mattered.
I sullenly sit completely shattered.
This is my life's chatter.
Often this feeling makes me feel crazy!
Respect me the truth!
Why and for what did you design me!?
Answer me!
Where is the key!
You gave me this foreign map.
I can't read it!
My mind slips darkly,
And I dont even know how to bereave it.
So I stumble on.
Sanity taking hit after hit.
Either you're dead or you don't see.
Pretty lame product,
For such an exorbitant fee.
I guess it will run it's course.
My manic mind tortures
with extraordinary force.
You left me again, on my own!
...........Maybe you're not there.
............You never answer the phone!
Maybe, I speak to the air.
I guess we all live and die...
having existed...
.......quite alone.
-Angel Fatale-