The Lost Girl

Breaking me down , With every word they say . Breaking me down , Til i start to hate my self for being different . Tell my self either i have to be nice or be a hoe , So this group of girls can like me or this boy but i am not being my self though , Following the crowd because i don't know who i am yet , Following the crowd soon i will for get ...Me . The person i see everyday in the mirror aint me thought , She is just some basic girl trying to fit in and the only way she dose that is by pretending . Like this is a movie and she just trying to play he part . On the out side she looks cool , But this world is picking her apart . She trying not to explode , But everyone thinks they know who she is but they don't . Telling all these fake story , but when the time to confront comes they become a ghost . They are no where to be found , But they don't know that these words are breaking her down making her hate her self . And she's seeking for help but there is no one to help her , So she scream at the top of her lungs Help ! Help !Help , She is becoming some one else ! Help ! Help ! Help ! And she wait and she wait , But no one comes , No one because she ran the all off . But all she can think about is what her mother told her , baby girl that mouth going to get you in to some big trouble ... ! But she never listen , This young girl caught up in the world , Not knowing what she want . Really knowing nothing at all . Realized something , That is she if started to think it might just save her life. And she argues with her self i do think and her self answer why don't you think twice . And when you do think why don't you think about what is going to happen tomorrow no just at that second . Why don't you think about you future , You claim you got one but at this rate i see you not having one , I dont even know if i see you alive . Unless you can change for the better , Unless you can change . Its not always the people AROUND you sometime the problem can be your self . And she knew that , and after she ask for forgiveness and ask for gods help . She stated on the journey to finding HER SELF ! -April Jones 2.28.13