Best Hesitant Poems
A big conclusion by tomorrow I must hurry up and reach.
It's about what I am to ‘do’ with my doggy “boy, Billy ‘Blue’.”
Half-wittingly I just keep vacillating between two notions.
My mind is ‘churning’; my thoughts ‘turning’ like a tsunami.
A bouncy cute but "crazy critter" is making me feel so daft.
'He' may ‘BE’ in control of ‘ME’, a “bungling fur baby’s” Mama.
Do I give him back this Monday? Oh, I need to decide by then.
No ‘napping' for all his ‘yapping,’ but “his eyes” are "so sweet!"
Sept. 25, 2022
for Joseph May's The A's Have It Poetry Contest
(I sure hope I did this right!)
As I wander this earth in total darkness
I wonder if your really here.
Theres a feeling of emptiness and fear
that guides me towards total loneliness.
I’ve allowed you to see my thoughts.
Yet I’m still hesitant to believe in you.
Are you really there for me completely?
Or have I allowed you in so inadvertently.
Oh help me, help me if I’ve been caught
With my heart left open so innocently,
For it was not my intent to be had so easily.
I do believe in the words you say
yet your sincerity at times frightens me.
I am hesitant to release myself completely.
Cause of the unknowings of your loyalty.
Hopefully there will be a day
That I can trust you and your authenticity.
I‘m left to decide if I want you in my life
Cause your search for my heart has struck a chord.
Yet my mind has to deal with my daily strife
and I still worried based on my recent accords.
Please allow me the time to understand you
for it is me that refuses total familiarity.
Not you my friend, not you without a clue
that deserves my honesty and harmony.
Will you permit me some time to accept you?
For this would allow us to live in perfect unity.
An unusual brand of happiness,
The release of lettting go.
A rush of realization,
Maybe finally you know.
A glimpse of something better,
Came shining through his eyes.
Accepting this fresh exhilaration,
Whilest praying against lies.
Distinguishing between sincerity
and that familiar self-destruction
Gets harder with every heart-break
and each eventual obstruction.
HESITANT DREAMS
The impatient gates of
Expectations,
Opened wide before the
Hesitant dreams,
And
Begged them, forward to rush,
For to
Cross the threshold of
The awaiting reality!
© Demetrios Trifiatis
14 APRIL 2013
Love's flirty wink.
Healing heart, cautious.
Give in to temptation?
Date written: 02/23/23
Would it be too much
If I told you
I missed you?
What if I said it
While
Lying in your shirt?
Would your heart
Be fluttering
The same way mine has been?
Like it has since
The moment I knew
I was going to get attached
Where happiness
Was my soft sighs
Falling deeper into your arms
And rhythmically
Swaying
My foot
As I had
your heart beat
In my ear
And my leg
Resting
Across your stomach
Like a boat
Dancing on the waves
Of your breathing
And I didn’t want to
Stop feeling the motion
Of those waves
I wanted to be selfish
Quietly whispering
To the sun
To go back
To sleep
For a few hours
So I could omit
Responsibilities
And keep your arms around me
While daydreaming
About where
This will go
A summer montage
Blending into
Our birthdays
From playful arguments
Teaching me to drive stick
In your car
Getting drunk
And showing
All sides of our soul to each other
Like admitting
I’ve had conversations
With your parents in heaven
Showing them my scars
My past mistakes with love
But how willing I am
To risk everything
To keep
Your heart safe
How I would turn
your demons
Into distant friends
Showing how your insecurities
Hold no weight
In my eyes
Watching you
Do fun yet foolish things
With your friends
To forget
The world
Exists for a moment
Reading all the poetry
I wrote about you
While we lay on my couch
With your head in my lap
Running my fingers
Through your hair
And as the months pass by
I steal your hoodies
To keep warm
While you smoke
A cigarette outside
When you first wake up
And your ashes fall
Onto the faces of
Autumn leaves
They all appear
On your ceiling like a movie
As you snore lightly next to me
I smile nervously to myself
At the thought
Of sharing it with you
Would you feel the same way?
Or am I in over my head?
Hesitant feet on uncertain ground.
A hesitant heart making no sound.
Daring to beat too hard and too fast.
Daring to dream and pray love will last.
Butterfly tingles, senses reel:
Dare I tell him how I feel?
Eyes veiled with longing;
An empty hand grasps ~
For a chance at tomorrow
And his love to last.
Slowly, treading softly
I must guard my hesitant heart
Taking forward moves with caution
If any rebuilding is to start
I'm still wading wounded waters
Tidal waves of fear and doubt
Self-restraint and trust, a struggle
The gash was deep, still trickling out
Like a surfer prepares to meet the challenge
I still have roughened edges to smooth
And sturdy boundaries to set in place
For risk of further pain still looms
The waves of healing will ebb and flow
And unpredictable these endeavours may be
So too, I must master the skill to 'ride the ripple'
And find the blessing in the balance indeed
November 21, 2020
For this contest I’m asked to abide by the rules
and thus I sit and pen my thoughts obediently
but cannot check the renegade’s sweet rebellion
Limit cussing and cursing:
however I am told that people who swear are profound not profane
No erotic poetry:
but once Eros is tamed Thanatos prevails says a slippery Freudian
New poem:
yet life is a cycle and true stories have no beginning
Date name and sponsor:
A fig leaf instead to hide sensual muse
Cursory token when flipping salvation
Blame the prompter for devious words
Is imprecation blasphemous?
Is romance risqué is erogenous lewd?
Concession for praise where it belongs!
Conclusions:
I vow to wash my mouth with lubricant . . .
Copulation extrapolates couplets and rhymes . . .
I’m grateful for rulers because they help with the lines . . .
30th May 2019
Contest: What makes you flinch
Sponsor Julie Leigh Rodeheaver
It’s as familiar as the beat of your heart—
the echoing claps of heels on the floor,
a swift rapture when the doors open.
I almost feel like the clouds give way
and I look the sun in her eye.
The euphoric feeling the ocean embodies
when night meets day.
The glow multiplies with each step,
as does the weight on my chest.
So many words and feelings
compressed to a nod
and a casual smile in return.
Pictures of a different world
develop in my mind.
One in which I tell her
how beautiful she is, but
that’s not half of her weight in gold
and I’d like to see it all.
Then the treacherous ping
of the elevator and I realize—
it’s time to get off.
Aye
and to sigh,
yet never goodbye...
our reluctance to say..
to close..to leave..
to part..to kiss
farewell;
weider-sehn ,perhaps
au-revoir..later..
see you..wave..then watch
'til
we turn away
and cannot see
no more...
Aye
and to sigh.
Sometimes, i wonder what i'm doing here
Far away from my friends old and dear
Hesitant and reluctant to let go of my past
Which i can feel behind me fading fast.
As i sit here, fully lost in thoughts
I can feel my heart turn into knots
When i think of the girl who i once was,
Bubbling with joy and in a jolly waltz.
Swallowed by the usual crowd,
I struggle to make myself loud
But even amidst this buzzing lot
I find myself feel distant and distraught.
But even in this grave situation,
I see a glimmer of hope and satisfaction
Assuring me somewhere deep within
That i wont just yet give in.
There’s a bend on the end of the rainbow
Reflecting refractions of light
Promises written on water
Holiday nights of delight
Words shadow boxing on speakers
Rebounding resounding in rhyme
Spider webs sailing on sunsets
Floating on shadows of time
Alone on the edge of tomorrow
Hands holding tight to today
Sunlight as stardust exploding
In passion to just get away
Measured in decades of moments
Fear is reluctant to pay
h ~e~s~i~t~a~n~t
heart introvert
sober shy silent
a-b-a-s-h-e-d
Her soul feelings for him are all balled up inside
She cannot get out the words
She does not run
Yet she can hide
Here he comes again
The man she thought she had fantasized
Yet here he is in the flesh, the man of her dreams
That man
His soul feelings for her are all twisted in a knot
He dares not speak for he might be rebuffed
He passes her gently
Keeping his feelings inside
They pass each other every day for years
Neither speaking
For they both have such fears
When a "hello" is said at last,
Eyes are rapidly averted away
Neither staying to talk
Neither staying to play
That hello which could have been the start
Was simply another barb
To each of their hearts
One finally could not tolerate it
And moved away
Without explanation
They did not pass the next day.