Hesitant Heartbeats

Would it be too much If I told you I missed you? What if I said it While Lying in your shirt? Would your heart Be fluttering The same way mine has been? Like it has since The moment I knew I was going to get attached Where happiness Was my soft sighs Falling deeper into your arms And rhythmically Swaying My foot As I had your heart beat In my ear And my leg Resting Across your stomach Like a boat Dancing on the waves Of your breathing And I didn’t want to Stop feeling the motion Of those waves I wanted to be selfish Quietly whispering To the sun To go back To sleep For a few hours So I could omit Responsibilities And keep your arms around me While daydreaming About where This will go A summer montage Blending into Our birthdays From playful arguments Teaching me to drive stick In your car Getting drunk And showing All sides of our soul to each other Like admitting I’ve had conversations With your parents in heaven Showing them my scars My past mistakes with love But how willing I am To risk everything To keep Your heart safe How I would turn your demons Into distant friends Showing how your insecurities Hold no weight In my eyes Watching you Do fun yet foolish things With your friends To forget The world Exists for a moment Reading all the poetry I wrote about you While we lay on my couch With your head in my lap Running my fingers Through your hair And as the months pass by I steal your hoodies To keep warm While you smoke A cigarette outside When you first wake up And your ashes fall Onto the faces of Autumn leaves They all appear On your ceiling like a movie As you snore lightly next to me I smile nervously to myself At the thought Of sharing it with you Would you feel the same way? Or am I in over my head?