A Hesitant Friendship

As I wander this earth in total darkness I wonder if your really here. Theres a feeling of emptiness and fear that guides me towards total loneliness. I’ve allowed you to see my thoughts. Yet I’m still hesitant to believe in you. Are you really there for me completely? Or have I allowed you in so inadvertently. Oh help me, help me if I’ve been caught With my heart left open so innocently, For it was not my intent to be had so easily. I do believe in the words you say yet your sincerity at times frightens me. I am hesitant to release myself completely. Cause of the unknowings of your loyalty. Hopefully there will be a day That I can trust you and your authenticity. I‘m left to decide if I want you in my life Cause your search for my heart has struck a chord. Yet my mind has to deal with my daily strife and I still worried based on my recent accords. Please allow me the time to understand you for it is me that refuses total familiarity. Not you my friend, not you without a clue that deserves my honesty and harmony. Will you permit me some time to accept you? For this would allow us to live in perfect unity.