Best Aguish Poems
Every day I awake,
Ready for my heart to quake.
Ready to throw my life away,
For sure I wished not to stay
They pulled at my hair,
Tugged at my chair
They called me a freak,
This made me feel weak.
Wishing not to care,
For none of this was fair
I pushed the blade against my wrist,
Willing for it to slide and pull away the tide…
Wait…
But inside,
I could feel the change of the tide
With bruises and damage,
I could not manage
As I fear their hunting me,
I’m afraid of what I’ll turn to be
I know what I am capable of…
With the fire burning inside,
I could feel myself slipping to the dark side
No one could hear my aguish or despair,
Forever I will not care.
Cutting myself off from the world…
I was careless, until I saw you,
I thought you were true.
Then you used me,
It felt like you were abusing me.
I now would never care,
For no one would dare.
What you did to me,
No one could see
With firing rage…
I fell and slipped to the dark side,
And now I stay there
With no despair,
For no one had any care
And now you all are here,
You shall scream in fear
You all pulled at my hair,
You all kicked at my chair
I will be the hunter,
And you all can be the deer,
I’ll make you all scream and run in fear.
With the fire burning inside,
I ruled the dark side…
Every person dreams of being in heaven
As for where is much closer to the sun
Being there you will feel warm and bright
And bloodstreams run happily Day and Night
Nothing will aguish your soft hearts
Songs automatically flow to everywhere
Black hearts
Hearts decaying in plain sight, I know that you would never notice that I stopped breathing. Internally screaming just waiting to find a way out of this pain, while I sit in the Conner waiting on happiness to present itself to me.
I don’t know who I am; I truly wish that I did as blood tears fall.
Where does this battle end? It just hurts so damn much, just to keep fighting, knowing I am just going to loose myself.
I am sick of crying, tired of trying to make things work, especially when I keep failing to breathe, as my smile keeps putting me into the shadows, while in the end I find myself dying in agony each day as I take step just to find a way to feel alive.
Does anyone hear my screams? I feel others just ignore me over and over as they just walk away already knowing I can’t save myself in the end. My black decaying heart is beating to the moonlight, as I breathe in as the chill air embraces my caramel skin, as I look down off this bridge wondering what it’s like to fly.
Yet, I know that I’ve lost my wings, as I’ve waited for so long to find real purpose to be free of the daemons inside me, while feeling sorrow take hold of my whole heart, as I feel helpless, worthless while agony falls into the creases onto my chiseled jigsaw chest.
My black heart is decaying, beating just waiting for me to feel whole. I wonder how I can fix my broken heart; the pain is too much to bear, as I lean further out reaching out for hope.
I am ready to fly, as the fogy clouds cover my scared hands, while the chill takes my lifeless embrace to rid my daemons.
I’m flying in a beautiful line of happiness, I’m finally free with the rest of the angels.
Let me fall, but my black heart is still intact, as I wake up crying with the same demons holding my hand, letting me know that they will never let me go of the aguish.
My black heart is beating, as I cry once more, I am not alive, I don’t know who I am.
I’m still here waiting for happiness, and purpose as my black heart is decaying.
And so, I am back where it all began, lost and confused
Left with a heart cracked through, damaged and abused
Tables that turn in an astonishing way, how foolish I am
To keep hoping for a change, but it's just another scam
Here I am again, clinging to a pain that is not new to me
A bright world I seek, one with not a debt of endless fee
Many times these cards are dealt, but I never could fold
With thoughts of a time of where the truth will be told
Mistakes that infect my being, those not to be forgiven
Even though this heart breaks so easily, I remain driven
Thinking that I will be missed when I am lastly departed
A day of longing, no longer dreary to a happiness parted
Just when I thought everything will shine in the coming
I am left to fend alone, memorized by aguish humming
A risk I willed to take, but a risk that's far past my worth
A curse bestowed upon me, one branded on me at birth
Just like everyone else, I was not good enough for you
It angers me, but what can I say? It isn't anything new
I am the friend everyone desires, never anything more
I hurt you, now you hurt me, you have evened the score
Wither into dismay my morose friend
Sullen intent filters to the masses befriending the inner abyss
A beacon, that beckons ferociously through this scattered mind
Slither beneath the skin a thick black mist
Feel the eternal torture as the torment wheel spins
Whosoever denies me suffers malicious hands
Blistering solitude engulfs you in a world so cold
Salvation rocks the cradle as against sinful demands
Relinquish all harbored disease buried deep within the soul
Bequeath that you do not desire to devote and embrace me
I am the remedy of such anguish and pain
Stand up and come forth to claim your right beneath me
Misery barricaded for no witness to bare
Such a shameful and sad heart that reeks of havoc
Mindful gestures turned to herded habitual nature
Look away, discard, and burn this chaotic world
Praise be the bounty brought forth to wash away the memories
Contract, devote, relinquish and there shall be no more
Amidst at the aguish laden road it ends in darkness
Close your eyes my old friend, slip away forever more
For you have no more cross to bare!
Earlier I would think the time
To be a powerful,
A faithful rhyme
That can give so much
To be said to mine
But now
I have realized
That time is the most
Cruel and unfaithful thing
That keeps on stealing
Our every lovely feeling
I imagine with deep aguish
How many friends
I have lost
How many loving moments
I have missed
How its cruel hands
Scratched all my youth
And it’s still working on
Its mischievous teeth
Leaving us every day
More wrinkled
More tortured
Never has it let me
Step back to once more
Feel my lovely memories
It is the most powerful
And worst enemy
For, it is threatening
To snatch away
My loving ones
That are an essential part
Of my life’s cart
Or take me away
From my loving world
It is an unpredictable famine
Neither yours nor mine
It is a deep dark mysterious cave
Into which
We can enter like a brave
But we have no way back
To escape
None can predict
When its unending journey
Will suddenly end
Just for all
Helpless watch and stand
Joyous Anguish
My heart cracks open with joyous anguish again and again
Feeling cheated for never being given the chance to see
If we could grow, evolve into something more.
You had us in a box, like a flower in a pot, we never had a chance
To grow wild and free, unrestricted by your hearts restrictions.
I stand with my heart in my hands, bleeding aguish and pain.
Yet to see you happy with your love, I feel true joy.
For in this, I don’t matter. You are happy, that is what matters.
Life ain't no bed of roses
We're not destined to
drown in a pit of despair
Aguish is unknown until flesh
grazes a blade of barbed brair
A prickle that pricks
A nettle that nicks and
stings my gaping gore
A scab I scratch and pick
My heart...a naked sore
The pain of a plant's pike
Poison seeping through my pores
Miss Ivy takes her effect
Toxins causing lock jaw
Severed sinew plastered with rags
A slash sutured with cotton and thorns
Suffering through my misery
The tears begin to fall
Hard crust clogging my chest
Covering a fresh wound
that once formed
Blood caked over a cut
Creating a congealed blood cork
Fighting my inner demons
The tiger bears it's claws
Messing with the bulls emotions
I am the matador
Dismembered dreams it seems
that every memory is now torn
Present and future vines intertwine
The past pondered and warped
Mouths spew false truths
Profanity strewn on the floor
Ears sewn shut while lips sip
on a glass of gossips gall
The wizard chants
and casts a spell
A corpse is reborn
Here I sit on the edge of a cliff
While thoughts pace and
linger outside death's door
My brain is linched,
hung by a hurricane of thoughts
Head decapitated by a
sickle my mind is now
brutally butchered brawn
A bayonet thrusts into my side
An assassin attacks me with saws
Penetrating my beating benevolence
I'm punctured by grape-stained swords
I am nothing but a ragged ragdoll
A cast-away with an aching core
A strolling soldier
A wandering warrior
An outcast that was scorned