A Friend of Desire

And so, I am back where it all began, lost and confused Left with a heart cracked through, damaged and abused Tables that turn in an astonishing way, how foolish I am To keep hoping for a change, but it's just another scam Here I am again, clinging to a pain that is not new to me A bright world I seek, one with not a debt of endless fee Many times these cards are dealt, but I never could fold With thoughts of a time of where the truth will be told Mistakes that infect my being, those not to be forgiven Even though this heart breaks so easily, I remain driven Thinking that I will be missed when I am lastly departed A day of longing, no longer dreary to a happiness parted Just when I thought everything will shine in the coming I am left to fend alone, memorized by aguish humming A risk I willed to take, but a risk that's far past my worth A curse bestowed upon me, one branded on me at birth Just like everyone else, I was not good enough for you It angers me, but what can I say? It isn't anything new I am the friend everyone desires, never anything more I hurt you, now you hurt me, you have evened the score