Taking Care
Sometimes taking care
of yourself
me
is not easy to do, causes aches
Makes me cry in the night
Lift heavy heart to the day
Let the pieces start to mend
Sometimes taking care
of yourself
me
Causes grief beyond measure
Hurts more then myself
To be free of the poisonous grip
To get away
The hand reaching out to choke
Sometimes taking care
of yourself
feels not like taking care.
Though I feel,
Inside now, eventually all will be
Crookedly mended, glad spreading
throughout a tenuous thread of beginning
I know I shouldn't be here
But I couldn't stay away
I'm in this love dichotomy
It torments me every day
My heart tells me to stay with you
Keeps saying you're the one
But my mind says you're no good for me
Better cut my losses, run
I just can't seem to break the spell
The hold you have on me
You've broke my heart a thousand times
Yet I just can't set you free
This love is full of anguish
It's caused me so much pain
Every time I try to leave
You pull me back again
But the thought of never kissing you
To taste you, feel your touch
That heat when we are skin to skin
I just can't give you up
So for now I have to linger here
Though this love is killing me
Pray one day I'll find the strength
To end this love dichotomy
I looked up to the sunset,
I looked up with no regret.
I found myself in its color,
I stood there in the midst of summer.
It was a beautiful end to a horrible start,
I let go of you and a piece of my heart,
but at least I found myself while letting go,
at least now my true colors can show.
It was an end before it became a begging,
it ended with me killing,
killing the old me,
and setting the real one free.
I lost you,
but I found myself too.
i shriek with rage
you brought years of damage
imprisoned on me
The tears in my eyes
Are warm and clear
Crying of how things changed between you and I
It's a heartbroken moment for me
And now somehow I want to let you go for good so I can be free
You made me feel with sadness and guilt
As I though I thought our relationship was strong built
Have I ever been torn apart like this
And you think that all it takes to cheer me up is a hug and a kiss
That just isn't enough
When I have gone through rough times before
But now the question is
Can I be tough?
Then I wasn't sure if I was mature enough for you
But to see now the way you treat me
You show that you are a coward and not a man
To make you understand
I am more mature than you will ever be
I've grown up so much more
The things I felt for you was for love
The way you felt towards me was bitter hatred
All you do was hit and shove me down
All I got to do now is get out of town
I don't care if you make me look like a clown
All I know now is that I am safe being away from you