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Weeping

I feel like I’m on the verge of awake Yet I’m sure I’m still sleeping Inside my mind all these thoughts continually keep creeping Within the mortar of my bricked mind I feel the darkness seeping The pain of this secret I’m keeping You need me to stay strong for us But I can barely hold back my own weeping All my memories are left unsaid I float through each day Fog filling my mind from morning till bed This pain inside me begs to be fed The colour of my heart is black now instead of red Why I ask why is our child dead? I want to reach out to something someone it’s way too hard here inside my head With pain I am now wed too much hurt remains unsaid I know you can hear the silence It screams out consistently loud Remembering him every day all those things that made us proud In my chest I feel my heart burn and pound Empty has its own sickening sound What we are looking for can’t be found Thoughts in loops going round and round Not even in a bottle can these thoughts be drowned I know you don’t want others to know You bury your feelings not wanting them to show But inside of you I watch the pain grow You pretend to be steady but it is eating you slow Every inch of you consumed from head to toe Like a boat tossed to and fro I want to help but you won’t let me row. Dedicated to a friend who knows an unimaginable pain.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2018




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Date: 6/18/2020 5:01:00 AM
I can't even begin to explore these feelings because my heart breaks into pieces. What a write...what an experience to go through. This world has little to offer in way of joy. Blessings, dear.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 6/18/2020 9:29:00 AM
Thanks and a big hug.
Date: 8/18/2018 11:06:00 AM
Hi Richard, your heart on the page. The tears come so easily as i read this emotional piece. The pain is so easy to feel. You must have felt deep pain to write this piece. Your pen drips with emotion as my eyes drip with tears. This write has to be a fave my friend. Have a wonderful Saturday. Your friend always....Mike.
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Date: 5/21/2018 2:32:00 PM
Hello Richard, I found this poem to be sad. Losing a child is very sad for a woman that has a child. Because it is part of her and her mate. Have a nice day my friend.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 7/13/2018 7:29:00 AM
Thanks Darlene.
Date: 5/14/2018 9:16:00 AM
The emotional turmoil is beautifully described. Beautiful imagery.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/14/2018 9:19:00 AM
Thanks Wendy. :0)
Date: 5/9/2018 1:28:00 PM
Hi Richard, I feel the sadness in this poem and it brought tears to my eyes. I can't even bear to think about such pain. My heart goes out to your friend - Alexis
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/10/2018 8:20:00 AM
Hi Alexis, your response is touching. Much appreciated.
Date: 5/9/2018 9:55:00 AM
When you read this last week, it just about slayed me. It had me weeping, quietly at the table. Last night, my wife and I were watching an old episode of Grey's Anatomy; a couple was going to be told their unborn child had already died. My wife had to fast forward. This grief we feel will trickle underground unnoticed for a while but builds and gathers and suddenly releases. And drains. And our eyes clear and look around at the blessings still here. And a future still to live.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/9/2018 10:23:00 AM
Hi Ralph, so cool that you joined the site. Thanks for this emotional response.
Date: 5/7/2018 9:30:00 PM
I wake unable to breath from just dreams of losing one of my girls. So I know it would kill me in reality. This might bring your friend to his knees Rick. But then perhaps he can begin to heal. My heart aches for the parents.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/8/2018 12:29:00 AM
Yes it is unfathonable pain. It seems without meaning yet I trust all things will be revealed at some future time. Thanks for a sensitive and thoughtful response
Date: 5/4/2018 9:22:00 AM
Emotive is an understatement. I am rocked to my core with this excellent write of feeling depth. I imagine this poem growing inside you in reaction to your feelings. It is an excellent sharing that I pray touches as it need touch and matter as it need matter - I'm sure it will in the perfect way, at the perfect time. Beautifully given life, Richard. Poetry hugs ... CayCay
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/4/2018 9:31:00 AM
CayCay, what a touching response. I am honoured by your words. Thanks and a big hug.
Date: 5/3/2018 10:26:00 AM
My heart aches for your friend. I can't even begin to understand... my daughter is away studying and still my heart aches for her. This.... is beyond understanding. You've captured it so well. Your insight into the human psyche has always amazed me.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/4/2018 8:16:00 AM
Thanks Eileen, I hope you are well. Hugs Rick.
Date: 5/3/2018 9:32:00 AM
It s such a lovely and heartbreaking poem, there s no grief bigger than losing your child, it appears as if a part of you is dead, at that time the couple need to understand each other and others should also try their best to help that person, because the pain he s suffering from has no end, you remember him in your every step, a nice poem for your friend, may God give him the patience and heal him, Ameen ( Amen)
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/3/2018 9:42:00 AM
Thanks Faraz, your words are touching.
Date: 5/3/2018 8:36:00 AM
There is nothing more heartbreaking then to watch parents bury their children Rick. I feel this poem as if its written for some special and very dear people that I know. I watched them bury three children, all babes. They have been so brave, but I know inside they are broken. A heartbreaking write, be strong for your friend.....Maria Hugs
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/3/2018 8:59:00 AM
It happened 5 years ago but for them it is like yesterday.
Date: 5/3/2018 8:21:00 AM
- It's hard to be strong for friends who are having a tough time, Richard - Deep heartbreaking writing - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/3/2018 8:59:00 AM
Thanks for the hug and comment.
Date: 5/2/2018 8:39:00 PM
Very moving, Richard, and I can't begin to imagine the pain of such loss. And those last two lines are superb. Regards, Viv
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/3/2018 7:50:00 AM
Thanks Viv, I appreciate your kind comment and visit.
Date: 5/1/2018 6:02:00 PM
Great poem, Richard...I especially like the way you ended it. Elaine
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/2/2018 7:18:00 AM
Thanks Elaine.:0)
Date: 5/1/2018 4:49:00 AM
This is very well written. It captures all the emotions of a person who has loved and lost a child. Signs of a true empath, well done poet.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 5/2/2018 7:22:00 AM
Thanks for visiting Pixie, i’m Pleased you connected with this piece.
Date: 4/30/2018 9:59:00 PM
Wow, what a powerful and emotional poem, Richard. The sorrow expressed is palpable and heartfelt. So sorry for your friend’s unimaginable loss.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 4/30/2018 11:33:00 PM
Thanks Laura, it happened a long time ago but for him it is like yesterday.
Date: 4/30/2018 6:24:00 PM
Deep turmoil well expressed, Richard. My heart goes out to everyone suffering such anguish.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 4/30/2018 11:32:00 PM
It’s beyond any pain I could ever imagine. Thanks for your visit.
Date: 4/30/2018 4:00:00 PM
Add me to your dedication line, Richard. i sympathise with your friend,,anyhow the poem is amazing, Rhyme and rhythm, and you don't miss a beat..love this...
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 4/30/2018 11:30:00 PM
Thanks for your kind words Harry.
Date: 4/30/2018 12:41:00 PM
Emotional turmoil you depict in your poem touches the heart. Loss of a child can be a lifelong pain..it's even more so when one suffers silently..friends like you can be the support they need..well articulated, Richard.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 4/30/2018 11:29:00 PM
Thanks Vijay. Sometimes just listening can be a help.
Date: 4/30/2018 10:33:00 AM
I could never fathom the pain that must eat through the heart of one who's lost a child. I hope the pain your friend endures may soon ease, Rick. Your poetry encases it so very well.
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Richard Lamoureux
Date: 4/30/2018 11:46:00 AM
Thanks Lin, I appreciate your soup mail and thoughtful comment.

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