Richard Lamoureux Poet Free verse

Weeping

I feel like I’m on the verge of awake
Yet  I’m sure I’m still sleeping
Inside my mind all these thoughts
continually keep creeping
Within the mortar of my bricked mind
I feel the darkness seeping
The pain of this secret I’m keeping
You need me to stay strong for us
But I can barely hold back my own weeping

All my memories are left unsaid
I float through each day
Fog filling my mind from morning till bed
This pain inside me begs to be fed
The colour of my heart is black now instead of red
Why I ask why is our child dead?
I want to reach out to something someone
it’s way too hard here inside my head
With pain I am now wed
too much hurt remains unsaid

I know you can hear the silence 
It screams out consistently loud
Remembering him every day
all those things that made us proud
In my chest I feel my heart burn and pound
Empty has its own sickening sound
What we are looking for can’t be found
Thoughts in  loops going round and round
Not even in a bottle can these thoughts be drowned

I know you don’t want others to know
You bury your feelings
not wanting them to show
But inside of you I watch the pain grow
You pretend to be steady 
but it is eating you slow
Every inch of you consumed
from head to toe
Like a boat tossed to and fro
I want to help but you won’t let me row.

Dedicated to a friend who knows an unimaginable pain.

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Eileen Manassian June 18, 2020 at 5:01 AM I can't even begin to explore these feelings because my heart breaks into pieces. What a write...what an experience to go through. This world has little to offer in way of joy. Blessings, dear. Richard Lamoureux June 18, 2020 at 9:29 AM Thanks and a big hug.

Vladislav Raven August 18, 2018 at 11:06 AM Hi Richard, your heart on the page. The tears come so easily as i read this emotional piece. The pain is so easy to feel. You must have felt deep pain to write this piece. Your pen drips with emotion as my eyes drip with tears. This write has to be a fave my friend. Have a wonderful Saturday. Your friend always....Mike.

Darlene De Beaulieu May 21, 2018 at 2:32 PM Hello Richard, I found this poem to be sad. Losing a child is very sad for a woman that has a child. Because it is part of her and her mate. Have a nice day my friend. Richard Lamoureux July 13, 2018 at 7:29 AM Thanks Darlene.

Wendy Nipas May 14, 2018 at 9:16 AM The emotional turmoil is beautifully described. Beautiful imagery. Richard Lamoureux May 14, 2018 at 9:19 AM Thanks Wendy. :0)

Alexis Y. May 9, 2018 at 1:28 PM Hi Richard, I feel the sadness in this poem and it brought tears to my eyes. I can't even bear to think about such pain. My heart goes out to your friend - Alexis Richard Lamoureux May 10, 2018 at 8:20 AM Hi Alexis, your response is touching. Much appreciated.

Ralph Plant May 9, 2018 at 9:55 AM When you read this last week, it just about slayed me. It had me weeping, quietly at the table. Last night, my wife and I were watching an old episode of Grey's Anatomy; a couple was going to be told their unborn child had already died. My wife had to fast forward. This grief we feel will trickle underground unnoticed for a while but builds and gathers and suddenly releases. And drains. And our eyes clear and look around at the blessings still here. And a future still to live. Richard Lamoureux May 9, 2018 at 10:23 AM Hi Ralph, so cool that you joined the site. Thanks for this emotional response.

FJ Thomas May 7, 2018 at 9:30 PM I wake unable to breath from just dreams of losing one of my girls. So I know it would kill me in reality. This might bring your friend to his knees Rick. But then perhaps he can begin to heal. My heart aches for the parents. Richard Lamoureux May 8, 2018 at 12:29 AM Yes it is unfathonable pain. It seems without meaning yet I trust all things will be revealed at some future time. Thanks for a sensitive and thoughtful response

CayCay Godwin May 4, 2018 at 9:22 AM Emotive is an understatement. I am rocked to my core with this excellent write of feeling depth. I imagine this poem growing inside you in reaction to your feelings. It is an excellent sharing that I pray touches as it need touch and matter as it need matter - I'm sure it will in the perfect way, at the perfect time. Beautifully given life, Richard. Poetry hugs ... CayCay Richard Lamoureux May 4, 2018 at 9:31 AM CayCay, what a touching response. I am honoured by your words. Thanks and a big hug.

Eileen Manassian May 3, 2018 at 10:26 AM My heart aches for your friend. I can't even begin to understand... my daughter is away studying and still my heart aches for her. This.... is beyond understanding. You've captured it so well. Your insight into the human psyche has always amazed me. Richard Lamoureux May 4, 2018 at 8:16 AM Thanks Eileen, I hope you are well. Hugs Rick.

Faraz Ajmal May 3, 2018 at 9:32 AM It s such a lovely and heartbreaking poem, there s no grief bigger than losing your child, it appears as if a part of you is dead, at that time the couple need to understand each other and others should also try their best to help that person, because the pain he s suffering from has no end, you remember him in your every step, a nice poem for your friend, may God give him the patience and heal him, Ameen ( Amen) Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2018 at 9:42 AM Thanks Faraz, your words are touching.

Maria Williams May 3, 2018 at 8:36 AM There is nothing more heartbreaking then to watch parents bury their children Rick. I feel this poem as if its written for some special and very dear people that I know. I watched them bury three children, all babes. They have been so brave, but I know inside they are broken. A heartbreaking write, be strong for your friend.....Maria Hugs Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2018 at 8:59 AM It happened 5 years ago but for them it is like yesterday.

Anne-Lise Andresen May 3, 2018 at 8:21 AM - It's hard to be strong for friends who are having a tough time, Richard - Deep heartbreaking writing - hugs // Anne-Lise :) Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2018 at 8:59 AM Thanks for the hug and comment.

Viv Wigley May 2, 2018 at 8:39 PM Very moving, Richard, and I can't begin to imagine the pain of such loss. And those last two lines are superb. Regards, Viv Richard Lamoureux May 3, 2018 at 7:50 AM Thanks Viv, I appreciate your kind comment and visit.

Elaine George May 1, 2018 at 6:02 PM Great poem, Richard...I especially like the way you ended it. Elaine Richard Lamoureux May 2, 2018 at 7:18 AM Thanks Elaine.:0)

Mystic Rose Rose May 1, 2018 at 4:49 AM This is very well written. It captures all the emotions of a person who has loved and lost a child. Signs of a true empath, well done poet. Richard Lamoureux May 2, 2018 at 7:22 AM Thanks for visiting Pixie, i’m Pleased you connected with this piece.

Laura Leiser April 30, 2018 at 9:59 PM Wow, what a powerful and emotional poem, Richard. The sorrow expressed is palpable and heartfelt. So sorry for your friend’s unimaginable loss. Richard Lamoureux April 30, 2018 at 11:33 PM Thanks Laura, it happened a long time ago but for him it is like yesterday.

Line Gauthier April 30, 2018 at 6:24 PM Deep turmoil well expressed, Richard. My heart goes out to everyone suffering such anguish. Richard Lamoureux April 30, 2018 at 11:32 PM It’s beyond any pain I could ever imagine. Thanks for your visit.

Harry Horsman April 30, 2018 at 4:00 PM Add me to your dedication line, Richard. i sympathise with your friend,,anyhow the poem is amazing, Rhyme and rhythm, and you don't miss a beat..love this... Richard Lamoureux April 30, 2018 at 11:30 PM Thanks for your kind words Harry.

Vijay Pandit April 30, 2018 at 12:41 PM Emotional turmoil you depict in your poem touches the heart. Loss of a child can be a lifelong pain..it's even more so when one suffers silently..friends like you can be the support they need..well articulated, Richard. Richard Lamoureux April 30, 2018 at 11:29 PM Thanks Vijay. Sometimes just listening can be a help.

Lin Lane April 30, 2018 at 10:33 AM I could never fathom the pain that must eat through the heart of one who's lost a child. I hope the pain your friend endures may soon ease, Rick. Your poetry encases it so very well. Richard Lamoureux April 30, 2018 at 11:46 AM Thanks Lin, I appreciate your soup mail and thoughtful comment.