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Occasionally I Never Search In Vain

Occasionally I despair, an eternal uphill struggle, a hopeless walk to sanity: what else is there for me to do but scream? Occasionally my stomach rumbles as pain, hunger and strife make it grow distressingly tight. Occasionally I try to fight and seek that elusive light at the end of the tunnel only to find an inky blackness, ebony obscurity of darkness that smothers the soul. Occasionally I search for a twisted street or an endless channel only to discover a world devoid of any kindness, languishing in defilement, foul-smelling with pollution, tarnished with infamy and slander, and an ever-reigning lust. But often I stand up, for myself if for none other and look down towards the horizon and find what I require: hope and trust. PS Sorry I left Poetry in the lurch but was hospitalised for three days. I hope to read your poems soon. But please give me time.

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Shirley Hawkins

Date: 6/12/2023 8:55:00 PM

Oh! Dear Victor So sorry to hear you have been hospitalised, I can understand the urge to scream. Take things slowly until you feel better and keep writing your marvellous poetry. Take care, Old Duck

Bj Legros Kelley

Date: 6/12/2023 6:58:00 PM

Victor, you are kind, and it is such a better world to be in knowing there are still good people like you. You make a big difference in this world. I hope you feel more community and peace from your friends on poetrysoup. I have had a few rough days as well, people are often so unkind, but then with a few minutes to be on here, I feel uplifted. I hope you are well today. You're not alone, the angels, and your Lord are right there with you, it helps me to remember that fact. God bless you Victor.

Sally Eslinger

Date: 6/12/2023 5:41:00 PM

Oh, Victor, dear dear friend! i will send up prayers for your health. This poem is hard hitting. It made me think to comment, no wonder Christ asked for children to come sit with him, bedause the innocents of humanity still know joy, laughter, wonder, discovery, simplicity…as does nature, sparse, green, truth reaching always to the sky. All this I pray with love for you! sally

Sara Kendrick

Date: 6/12/2023 4:25:00 AM

Sorry to learn you have been sick. Sometimes illness snicks up on a person. I hope you are much better now. I enjoyed reading your emotive work. When we get sick, everything seems much worse than it is. Sara

Eve Roper

Date: 6/12/2023 2:28:00 AM

Life sometimes hard to bare, but we struggle on. Well written verse with lots of feelings. Get well my friend

Valsa George

Date: 6/11/2023 8:58:00 PM

Sorry to hear that you were hospitalized and glad to know you feel better now. What a wonderful poem. Though begun on a highly dismal note, it has ended in hope and light. May God give you light in your ensuing journey!

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 6/11/2023 10:13:00 AM

- This was a sad poem to read, Victor - I'm so sorry you're not feeling well - Sorry for the late comment, but I wasn't home this weekend - I wish you a speedy recovery ... and a lovely new week, my friend - P- Soup doesn't mean everything in this world...your health is more important - hugs

Joanna Daniel

Date: 6/11/2023 6:47:00 AM

Glad to know you are better now, Victor, great ending, sometimes the only thing that keeps us going is that hope and trust in the Lord:)

Kim Rodrigues

Date: 6/11/2023 5:31:00 AM

Oh my! Glad you are doing better! I always do think about you when there is an absence! Great emotive write. We are glad to have you on Poetry Soup, dear friend!

Mike Gentile

Date: 6/11/2023 4:17:00 AM

Victor, your words are captivating as they so poignantly express a part of your journey! I think that this is just fantastic writing and it definitely made me feel! I hope your are well now, sending positive thoughts your way! Happy Sunday !!

Lisa Ricci

Date: 6/11/2023 2:47:00 AM

Good Morning Victor. Take all the time you need. Your health and well being is important and poetrysoup will be here when you are ready to sit down with poetry. You are a treasure and such a beautiful and skilled writer with much admiration from us all. Thank you for sharing this particular entry with us. Love and Blessings now and always (smile smile smile)

Jan Allison

Date: 6/11/2023 1:55:00 AM

aww Victor so sorry to hear you have been unwell and welcome back to soup, great to see you posting again:-) hugs jan xx

Evelyn Judy Buehler

Date: 6/10/2023 7:17:00 PM

So sorry to discover that you've been ill, Victor. You are in my heartfelt prayers. So nice to have you and your amazing poetry back.

Mystic Rose Rose

Date: 6/10/2023 6:52:00 PM

SORRY TO HEAR VICTOR, BEEN AWAY FROM HERE FOR QUITE SOME TIME HOPE YOUR FEELING BETTER, PRAYERS SENT YOUR WAY XO

David Kavanagh

Date: 6/10/2023 2:46:00 PM

Occasionally they let us out of hospital Victor, which is always a good sign, I’m glad to see you’re still writing, and the light is winning out over the darkness, take it easy, wishing you well, cheers David

Speaks Volumes

Date: 6/10/2023 1:34:00 PM

Dont be distressed dear Victor. So many people admire and care about you, and you have so much to give, with your beautiful poetry. I too have just come home from being in hospital, we should have been communicating. Hope you are feeling better now. When feeling blue.. reach out, there are lots who care about you. I am one.

Sotto Poet

Date: 6/10/2023 12:53:00 PM

Victor, you're a truly remarkable writer and deserve much praise for continuing to produce such high-quality poetry even while hospitalized. Your talent is truly inspiring. I hope you feel better.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 6/10/2023 12:31:00 PM

So sorry you were in hospital but kudos for keeping up here with quality poems like this one

Lin Lane

Date: 6/10/2023 12:18:00 PM

Hoping all is better and you're on the fine road to recovering now, Victor. Take care of yourself. Always search for hope and trust, even when they seem to be in short supply.

Darlene De Beaulieu

Date: 6/10/2023 10:55:00 AM

Hello Victor, I hope that you recover soon. You are missed. So sorry you are in pain. You are in my prayers. Take time to heal. Your friend., Darlene

Darlene De Beaulieu
Date: 6/11/2023 10:39:00 AM

Hello Victor, I started to pray for you last night. You will always be in my prayers. Hugs. My friend. /Darlene\

Buhagiar Victor
Date: 6/10/2023 11:35:00 AM

Thanks for your prayers. I need them these days. My blessings to you.

Judy Ball

Date: 6/10/2023 10:46:00 AM

Hope you are all better now Victor. Even a rash can be very painful and can be hard to get rid of. Well done my friend. God Bless, JB

I Am Anaya

Date: 6/10/2023 10:41:00 AM

Glad to see you are back and hopefully feeling better, Victor. Sometimes the only thing left to do is to scream! Be well

Unseeking Seeker

Date: 6/10/2023 10:17:00 AM

Hope you are better now, Victor ~ back with a bang, you are, with a great, heartfelt poem, God bless

Vijay Pandit

Date: 6/10/2023 9:51:00 AM

Glad you are back again, Victor. Take your time. A poignant write this is--hope and trust will guide the way.

Tom Cunningham

Date: 6/10/2023 9:29:00 AM

We should never give searching Victor, sorry to hear that you were in hospital, I hope you make a good recovery. Tom