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Written for " chaos in my heart" sponsored by Sara Jama

Malignant Memories

I trace bitter trials of
        another Helios spark~
as a collapsed marionette,
barely seeing colors of clarity,
between onyx-glazed flames, 
tangled in the hollow temple
carved in medieval calligraphies,
bleeding seething scars,
incensed with coiled confusion~
reverberating macabre voices
that thrum distant decays,
clouding inner dusk
      with disoriented dandelions.

Yet heaven waits above 
the impregnated wilderness,
its unlocked gates eager
to wrap me in cryptic clusters
of withered, cold oleanders,
     poisoning my poetic pulse
with ceaseless critique~
as if
    I am a sacrilegious sin~ 
          no longer your muse,
but a blistering burden,
          unmoved by the warmth
                    of frozen asteroids,
          a gossamer blasphemy,
suffocating the spectral sighs
singing star-spun psalms
to the swan-soft skin
           of the mythologized moon, 
still plagued by malignant memories
of truth I once wore~ 
a frangipani on the fervent frills
of your milky-quartz dreamscape,
now a festering flicker
of bewitched demons,
      a phantom ember
breathing elegies
       for a dark romance
                             long deceased...

You'll remain my immortal camellia
soaked in the crimson 
wet rush of raining silence, 
oblivious to the ominous 
odes etched to the cosmos, 
mirroring chaos in my heart,
as every chamber within
homes glacial grief~
      frost-clawed rivers
                 ferrying forlorn phrases,
stirring the air
             that emanates triggers,
casting tiger-snake spells
     from the slithering angst
            of Medusa’s mourning mane,
turning midnight runes of my soul
      into stone-rinsed sorrow,
cradled in the dust
                        of distress, forevermore…
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Jama Avatar
April 24, 2025 at 12:36 PM
Congratulations on placing in my contest. Your writing always draws me in. " I am a sacrilegious sin~ no longer your muse, but a blistering burden, unmoved by the warmth of frozen asteroids, a gossamer blasphemy, suffocating the spectral sighs singing star-spun psalms to the swan-soft skin" is one of my favourite stanzas you have written. Gorgeous gothic imagery. Delicately dark and fantastic use of metaphors.
Guptar Avatar
April 23, 2025 at 12:40 AM
Heartiest congratulations dear poetess on your top placement in this poetry contest with a superb poem littered with exotic imagery and alliterations expressing the chaos in your heart. I feel so humble to comment on your poems as you bring them to such a high pitch. Wish the light of divine blessings ever rest with you.
Lane Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 1:34 PM
Now we have double trophies, Ink. Congratulations on yours, too. Hugs, sweet friend.
Hind Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 9:47 PM
"homes glacial grief~ frost-clawed rivers"..."stirring the air" this is so powerful, those lines..
George Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 5:40 AM
Each time I feel embarrassed to say that your poetry goes above all expected marks. Expressions like- 'collapsed marionette, coiled confusion, sacrilegious sin,, spectral sighs, blistering burden, slithering angst'....all add to the snake imagery of Medusa. I feel you struggle to free yourself from the coiling satanic memories. This poem is indeed a reflection of the chaos in one's heart. All the Best.
Empress Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 7:56 AM
Thank you so much sweet valsa you are such a humble kind and generous soul! So precious! Appreciate your kindness and how you lift me up always! Sending you light
Jama Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 12:41 AM
Absolutely breathtaking sis. Your imagery is spellbinding “a gossamer blasphemy, suffocating the spectral sighs singing star-spun psalms to the swan-soft skin of the mythologized moon” gave me goosebumps. And “tiger-snake spells from the slithering angst of Medusa’s mourning mane”—pure magic. Your words bleed emotion, haunting and beautiful all at once. This is poetry that lingers in the mind and is felt deeply. It was good to see a touch of the old ink throughout this piece. A fav of mine
Empress Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 7:57 AM
Sis yea i almost thought of old times! When i wrote dark always. Now i have to tone down a bit. What an honour it is to receive your comment and compliments and fave and detailed thoughts on my poem! Im truly so grateful! Sending you light today and alway.
Dietrich Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 7:44 PM
Loved so many lines in here. Like the part of the poem your title is based on and the words like frangipani. I can't even remember what it means but it sounds so cool. Your alliteration is off the charts and always you emote so well. Have a blessed Sunday, Ink
Empress Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 7:58 AM
Ah dear sweet andrea! Thank you always for being so kind
Anaya Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 10:50 AM
This Ink Empress is the reason for gothic or dark poetry, It allows the poet to express profound emotional state, reflecting the poet’s ability to encapsulate her pain and sorrow within, imagery and symbolism convey ‘coiled confusion’ and ‘a dark romance’ What? “with ceaseless critique~ as if I am a sacrilegious sin~ no longer your muse, but a blistering burden” Never, who would do such a thing? With your magnanimous demeaner and tenacious attribute you have changed bitter into better, and nice into sweeter and I thank you for that~ Great entry!
Empress Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 9:33 AM
Thank you yes i used to write dark rants more, but somethings in life made me go lighter, i appreciate your detailed thoughtful and appreciative comment and what youv said also about my presence here is very kind: altho i never think of it that way: i always hope to give what i think is best. I am always grateful for your kindness!
Singh Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 7:19 AM
Exploring themes of inner conflict,loss,and the quest for meaning amid suffering.Deep and profound..Wish the best.
Empress Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 10:31 AM
Thank you so much for understanding the essence of this poem. Grateful truly
DiMino Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 7:07 AM
We are, in our human form, a conglomerate of dark and light expression -- for my often contrary views on the subject of spirituality, I fear I would have been burned at the stake in the not so distant past. Certain some loving Christians here would like to take me back in time. This is a great and honest exploration of feelings and soulful being. Just my immediate reaction to your musing, probably different from yours and others. "a phantom ember breathing elegies for a dark romance long deceased..." God loves us...and forgives us, after our realization and then refocused love, no matter how far away we have drifted. This is just speaking for myself. What I have discovered in my life. Probably inferring wrongly and too much as I usually do.
Empress Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 10:30 AM
What a profound comment dear joe, this poem is about heartache, and sometimes dark romance can be for “ toxic relationships” not a sinful one. And your comments are always so detailed and thoughtful! I appreciate them always!
Cunningham Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 6:57 AM
Stunning forboding imagery IE, malignant memories best forgotten, not an easy thing to do though. Best of luck in the contest and enjoy your weekend. Tom
Empress Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 10:29 AM
Thank you so much dear tom for always being so supportive
Richards Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 6:40 AM
I love the way you have used the extended metaphor of plants and other natural phenomena to anchor the poem. This is a feast for the senses and a (disturbing) delight to read and be savoured.
Empress Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 10:28 AM
Thank you dear suzette, haha disturbing delight love the word pairing there! Always grateful for your visits
Lane Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 6:27 AM
An unrepentant "sacrilegious sinner~..." would never be allowed inside heaven's gates. This kind of dark writing goes so against the grain of what I know of you, Ink. We all suffer chaos in our hearts from time to time. No one is exempt, but if it's dark Sara wants, you've gifted her with it in this one.
Empress Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 10:28 AM
Awwn thank you dear linnersz, yes sara the queen of darkness as you might know by now, wants dark i assumed, so i gave her dark, hopefully she appreciates this take. Always grateful for your comments
Trestrail Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 5:00 AM
Would it be too much of a cliché to say what amazing imagery? You have a gift. Oops, did it again!
Empress Avatar
April 21, 2025 at 10:26 AM
Thank you so much hah, your comments are fun! Appreciate your support dear keith
Trestrail Avatar
April 20, 2025 at 9:20 PM
Yikes! I had to Google that.
Rhymes Avatar
April 19, 2025 at 4:20 AM
Loved reading this as always
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