Ungrateful Vortex
don’t know if I was raised better because I was taught worse or was I taught better because I was raised worse
Kept clean, fed and together and safe but the only thing taught was how to hide the pain and fake a smile. Spent my whole life building this wall. The only thing I was taught for survival is the gate to my downfall. Never dealt with anything so to feel everything is like our lungs breathing in pure oxygen. First deep breath I take everything becomes slow motion. Before I can even finish my inhale this force starts growing in my chest. I can feel my heart beating faster and faster. 3 seconds go by and I feel my lungs expand beyond their limits
before I can release the pressure
Before I can exhale
My lungs explode
I can’t breath
My heart is still beating but I can’t breathe
I feel everything
My hearts going crazy
Not use to this much purity all at once
My mind told me to take small breaths at a time
Can’t take it in all at once
but when everything is connected when does the inhale end?
What does my exhale elucidate??
When do I breathe again?
My mind can’t focus it’s too much going on,
My anxiety steps in with the answers to everything
Take a deep breath and don’t deal with anything
Copyright © Kiera Wright | Year Posted 2023
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