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Ronnautica Dixon Poem
When you see me
Do you see beauty and brokenness?
Potential and shattered-ness?
Can you see past my flaws and mistakes?
Wanting perfection is as if holding onto hope lost
But still dance within the fault of our stars
When you say you love me
Is it because of my curves or my inner curiosities?
When you stare at me
Is it because you See hunger of lust Or are you
acting as a scientist researching and figuring me out?
When you see me
Do you see intellengence and Insecurities?
Mystery and madness?
Would you fill me with joy only to leave me?
When you see me
Can you see the empathy and emptiness?
Sophistication and sympathy?
Can you make my imperfection into something greater than the Great Depression?
When you see me
Do you see the leading urge I have or The loneliness I feel?
When you look in my eyes
Do you see the waving and ocean drive of depression
When you see me
Do you see my focus and disorder?
Not like the missing chromosome but the one where I always feel alone
When you see me
Do you see me or an invisible figure?
When you see me
See me for more than what my skin and curves is worth
When you see me
Do you see my inner beauty more than my outer
When you love me
Love me for me, cause when I Love I love Hard
Love me for my inner me and personality
Not what God has put on me or made of me
Because I am me
I will forever be me and I can not change for thee
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Spotless mind
“Your prettier when you don’t think cause that’s when you don’t try to be pretty”
Time to stop overthinking tryna break down pieces
Time to put em back to together, nothing is complete we all are unfinished
“You changed” nall I just opened my eyes now the world is bigger and the little things I used to overreact to became smaller
Falling apart isn’t my thing anymore let’s just say I’m speaking a piece of mind
Missing things that I won’t get back and reminiscing on the past is pointless let’s just focus on the future
Image me floating with the seas caused by the chill waves I’m starting to ride
Positive vibes only let’s clear this clouded mind of mines
No more holding onto irrelevant information
We all have this secret passage
Follow it and at the end...wait there is no end
Our imagination leads to eternity so why can’t we just live by it.
We live our lives in lies anyway
We all live to create, create to develop and develop to die therefore we make mistakes why not make millions of more
We’re perfectly imperfection and led in all directions but nothing is more beautiful or handsome to the eye
We are what & who we are
When the sun die we will still be who we were before the dramatic appearance of danger occurred
So why try to be someone else?
We wonder about everyone’s opinion and look for acceptance in people who can’t even accept themselves, yet find joy in making people feel not good enough
Those people, those people are infuriating but they are just hiding their pain by being the cause of others
We are all unique no title can define us
Emptying out my conscience and starting over with what I like to call a spotless mind!
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Building upon hurt while your feeding on my pain
Tumbling and tripping on boundaries that you
should’ve never stumbled upon
You’ve crossed the line
Using my pain as pleasure and mixing my thoughts
like flipping weeds
So I Give Up
I would give up everything there is to have the old me back
I would love to have new beginnings and say New Years
to all including myself
But so sad you want differ
You rather see tides calapse with the ground and raging waves in destruction
While I’d rather have no fading ends and sun setting
skies with calming winds
The two doesn’t Mix, But opposites attract and your My
magnet
Should I give up?
Chasing pavements isn’t my thing
You keep causing fallen stones and tumbling hills
Why can’t you just allow the storm to pass over before you cause the end of it all?
But you don’t care
The sunlight caught you eye and your judgement has been killing me but never oh so softly
So I give up
Why cloud over me and brag on your success of breaking me?
Could I have some credit of survival?
Stop putting blank spaces in this conversation and shoot you shot
Instead of shooting me down build me up I am not society
The Great Wall Of China is Up but your not understanding
Your scaring the wall and pushing buttons I didn’t even know existed
You played me
Life’s a checker board, you’ve played wisely
You shifted gears and knocked me down
I believed in you but in easier words
You lied to me
I should’ve gave up
You made me into something I am not
I am not a giver upper
But I’ve reached my stage and the audience is not enjoying the show
So I gave up
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Dear, You
I don't know if I'm meant to be anything other then broken
I'm like shattered glass, you can put it back together but it will never look nor function the same
I know I'm not perfect nor am I made of perfection but, my mistakes are mines to make not for me to be judged for
I'm sorry I couldn't make your list of needs or even your list of wants
I rather be increasing my positive vibes instead of letting the devil in
I just needed a distraction from the pain and you became that but after a while you became what I needed a distraction from
The rays of what I thought I needed blinded me and I couldn't see the obvious pain you were causing me
So now I'm back to where I was before instead this time my walls built up are tougher now
No more letting in fake smiles
I know what I deserve and what I deserve isn't you, but in all reality what you deserve isn't me
With your pulling eyes of fake emotions you caused me to not know the difference between
love and hate
happiness and pain
real and fake ...
I used to think of you often barely slept when I couldn't talk to you
You messed with my mind and interfered with something that was not to be tampered with
My heart...
An addict without its drug, your absence use to bother me
I use to think it was me but now I know it is never the recievers fault its the one giving out the blows
Thinking it was love when it wasn't was my fault
Handing out false beliefs was yours
Its not Halloween so your sweet talks wont concave me
I'm no longer easily fooled, I'm stronger now and that is because of you
So instead of hating you, I thank you
Sincerely,
The not so broken one....
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You were supposed to be there at the end of the rainbow but you left me waiting
You became my addiction and its my fault I can't blame you for my issues
You held my dependency
I looked to you to be my shoulder
Was waiting on you to be my high, when I was low, to be my teddy bear through the storm
I shouldn't have and I knew it but, once you love someone who became someone
else you cant help but look past that speck of flaw
Held my heart in your hand now I hold it shattered in the sweater that holds your
scent
Rain on a Monday morning
Pain that's ever growing
I'm in need of a recovery
Everything I thought I need I don't
I started a new life now and it does not include YOU
Broken walls built back up, I'm stronger
Open damps covered now, no more hard feelings I'm healing
Hole in my heart becoming patched up, you are non-existing
I don't need you to depend any more
I have became my healer and assigned my recovery.
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Hold me now, we can fight later
Gripping onto your embrace
Never missing a beat of your heart
crying out to be cared for
Cold summers, hot winters
Sunny days turning into rain storms
Everything equals the opposite now
Never showed you cared
But as I lay your heart races
Little do you know
My heart breaks every time the distance between us increases
Head To Heart, Hand In Hand, Skin To Skin
To feel you Close is the feeling of winning
Don’t let me slip away
But if I shall I shall slip into a dark place
When your gone I feel cold and empty
So hold me
Until the morning come Then you shall go
And I’ll give up a fight I knew I wouldn’t win
You make tides and rainfalls mix and flood
And my eyes give up its pride
But I always told you I would be along to ride
I can no longer fight though
I only crave your love and affection
Why can’t we just make amends?
I just want you to hold me!
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