Dear, You

Dear, You I don't know if I'm meant to be anything other then broken I'm like shattered glass, you can put it back together but it will never look nor function the same I know I'm not perfect nor am I made of perfection but, my mistakes are mines to make not for me to be judged for I'm sorry I couldn't make your list of needs or even your list of wants I rather be increasing my positive vibes instead of letting the devil in I just needed a distraction from the pain and you became that but after a while you became what I needed a distraction from The rays of what I thought I needed blinded me and I couldn't see the obvious pain you were causing me So now I'm back to where I was before instead this time my walls built up are tougher now No more letting in fake smiles I know what I deserve and what I deserve isn't you, but in all reality what you deserve isn't me With your pulling eyes of fake emotions you caused me to not know the difference between love and hate happiness and pain real and fake ... I used to think of you often barely slept when I couldn't talk to you You messed with my mind and interfered with something that was not to be tampered with My heart... An addict without its drug, your absence use to bother me I use to think it was me but now I know it is never the recievers fault its the one giving out the blows Thinking it was love when it wasn't was my fault Handing out false beliefs was yours Its not Halloween so your sweet talks wont concave me I'm no longer easily fooled, I'm stronger now and that is because of you So instead of hating you, I thank you Sincerely, The not so broken one....