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Tracey Lawrence Poem
Sleepless nights
Held myself tight
All alone
I’m on my own
Tell me you love me
Tears down my face
Throwing myself all over the place
Filled with anger filled with hate
Why did I leave my heart to break?
You knew what you were doing
You never ever cared
I’m stone cold sober
Disaster in the air
No more love
No more tears
No more phone calls
No more fears
No more kisses
No more hugs
Because my heart no longer bleeds for you
It will never bleed for anyone else *sigh*
Heart breaks happen to everyone but remember there is always light at the tunnel
Copyright © Tracey Lawrence | Year Posted 2014
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
As I lay in the meadow of flowers blue sky and peace. I slowly drift to sleep
Looked up at the sky
Yelling asking why
Took a bullet to the head
Screamed good damn it
I was dead.
Layed down in the grass
This is death it will last
Felt the blood rushing from my head
Thank god I am dead
My soul is now in heaven
And my body is in the ground
My heart is down in hell
And I don’t make a sound
Suicide was the answer
The gun was the key
Put the key in the door
Im as dead as dead can be
Down there my life had no meaning
But up here im like a queen
Living life with no regrets
Living life were its not mean
Waking up every day is a joy
Down there it was fire and smoke
As the smoke would burn my eyes
And all hell would break loos
Dad would always hit me
Mum would always be high
They never got over my sisters passing
But just made me want to die
Took their anger out on me
And never really spoke
Just kept that bottle of jack
And the pack of smokes
My mother and father never worked
It was I who had to support
So I wonder how they will do now…..
I’ve never felt freer
Never felt more alive
Never felt this happy
Never wish to die….
As I lay in the meadow of flowers blue sky and peace. I slowly drift to sleep…. And suddenly wake up to speak.
Copyright © Tracey Lawrence | Year Posted 2014
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
Sister why don’t you love me?
I want to mean the world to you
To be that open hand
To stand by you forever
Sister why don’t you understand
We’ve been together forever
But still you push me back
I hate it when we fight my world goes under attack
You never ever listen to me
It’s like I’m never there
But I have loved you always dear
And I will always be right here.
I want you to read this
To cry into me
To tell me that you love me
And how much you’re proud of me
I wont to spend a day with you
If that’s all I can get
Because just that little day
Will be the day I won’t forget
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
I wish I had a new family
That loved me all the way
That asked me how my day was
And tells me it ok
To feel strong and beautiful
To let nothing pull me down
But im small and helpless
And dad leaves me on the ground
Shattered ribs
And bleeding lips
Never did me good
For when I go to school
I never feel to good
I want to tell the teacher
I want to tell them now
I want to be safe forever
But forever is not long enough.
He will always try to find me
To drag me by the hair
To find a way to torture me
And strap me to the chair
But I will soon be big and strong
And he will never touch me again
And I will make shore
He never lives again
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
Gentle night
Hold me tight
Feelings grow
I’m all alone.
Starless skies
Meet my cries
In the dark
We lost our spark
let me go
I want to know.
How you feel
. What went wrong?
It’s like reality put into a song.
Why don’t you look at me?
Why don’t you care?
Why do I see my heart broken lying there
Why didn't you pick it up
Why didn't you see
Through all your troubles good or bad there was always me.
Berry me under the roses mum that looks over the sea. I want to be at peace mum and at peace you will let me be. Visit me every day mum lay your flowers down. Tell me all your troubles mum. Troubles from day to dawn. Tell my sister how much I love her and give her everything. For I will be up there mum were the roses look over the sea.
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
As I walk along the corridor
My hands at my sides
Looking at the bully
His hands big and wide
He makes a massive fist
And punches me in the face
I hit the ground harshly with a solid punch
For my words they did no good
Tried to walk away
But I never really could
His arm is stretched out wide
Ready to go again
I close my eyes tight and then I count to 10
1…2…3…4…5…6…7…8…9…10….BOOM
The taste of red filled my mouth
As it leaked all over the floor
I had lost a couple of teeth and of this yes im shore
The pain was like fire that torched you if you touch
Now im lying on the floor bleeding out my guts
Kicking and punching my stomach
He showed no remorse
As the hits just kept on coming I slowly lost some tears
I was like a dog crying for mercy
But none was ever showed
Chocking on my blood finally there came the blow
He punched me right in the temple
And the pain just went away as my soul left my body
I slowly drifted away
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WARNING: PLEASE NOTE THAT WHAT I WRITE ABOUT IS ALL TRUE.... I WRITE ABOUT WHAT LIFE IS LIKE FOR ME AND WHAT LIFE IS LIKE FOR OTHERS. AND WHAT I HAVE SEEN AND FELT. I DO NOT MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE.
Hidden in the corner
You will never find me here
Hidden under shelter
A place without fear
A place where I can cry
And sell my soul away
To lay alone in darkness
Each and everyday
To ditch all of my classes
To avoid depression and pain
I don’t know how much longer I can take it
How much i will gain
For my heart can barely take it
There is clearly something wrong
Why am i hated?
Why am I feared?
Why am I avoided?
Now it is all clear
It’s the way I look
The way I am
The way I see things
The way I feel
The way I love
The way I hate
Well now I will close the gate
You will never ever look at me
Never get close
Never get near
Never know my pain
Never know my fear
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
the problem to my life
is that i live a lonely life
i speak to no one
im all alone
all my problems are big and grown
cant trust anyone
they all have betrayed
i have never asked for help
for i thought i didn't deserve
for the treatment that i get
is one i wont forget
to breath the air in peace
and to be able to get to sleep
is what i dream to do
even when i feel so blue
time is not a friend
as i find it hard to pretend
that my life is good and great
being alive is a big mistake
thought everything would be alright
got so bad
held myself tight
crying on the bed
with my head in my hands
listening to them screaming out demands
i scream at there feet
"leave me alone
"let me do my thing
"i do everything you want
" just let me do one thing
" let me please rest
" its truly for the best
" i need to rest my head
" feeling drained
"feeling dead.
get up off the floor
and do what we ask you now
you selfish little cow
we ask you to help out
and now you scream and shout
its not like you to say
leave me alone....
i have to say you surprised me good
but im not one to do you good
do as i say now or you will get hurt
dont live by my rules
sleep in the dirt
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if i gave you money you would ask for more
if i died to save you
you would ask what for
its because i love you god dam
but its you who does not see
that through all your dark times
there was always me
lied for you yesterday
told them it was me
now im sitting in detention
sad as sad can be
you say thanks for the chocolate
and you walk away from me
it hurts my heart so much
that you barley notice me
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Tracey Lawrence Poem
Im pushed
Im punched
And beaten
Im helpless and im weak
I need someone to love me
To help me go to sleep
To tell me that’s its over
And not to cry no more
For all that violence is over
And to tell me that hes shore
We used to be so happy
We used to be in love
Now he just comes home angry
and this home has lost our love
I could never give him children
I could never give him sons
I could never be that mother
I could never be the one
So he hurts me out of anger
And I cant do anything now
For I am waiting for a savior
to help me out for now
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