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They Punish Me When I Stand Up For Myself

the problem to my life 
is that i live a lonely life 
i speak to no one 
im all alone 
all my problems are big and grown 
cant trust anyone 
they all have betrayed 

i have never asked for help 
for i thought i didn't deserve 
for the treatment that i get 
is one i wont forget 
to breath the air in peace
and to be able to get to sleep 
is what i dream to do 
even when i feel so blue 

time is not a friend 
as i find it hard to pretend 
that my life is good and great 
being alive is a big mistake 
thought everything would be alright 
got so bad 
held myself tight 


crying on the bed 
with my head in my hands 
listening to them screaming out demands 
i scream at there feet

"leave me alone 
"let me do my thing 
"i do everything you want 
" just let me do one thing 
" let me please rest 
" its truly for the best 
" i need to rest my head 
" feeling drained 
"feeling dead.

get up off the floor 
and do what we ask you now 
you selfish little cow 
we ask you to help out 
and now you scream and shout 
its not like you to say 
leave me alone....
i have to say you surprised me good 
but im not one to do you good 
do as i say now or you will get hurt 
dont live by my rules 
sleep in the dirt

Copyright © Tracey Lawrence | Year Posted 2014

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Vera Duggan Date: 9/7/2014 7:10:00 PM Actually Chelsea I can understand what you are going through or went through, my childhood was wonderful but I have always felt like a loner for everyone to shit on, even to this day I have no friends except for my PS friends, but I have a husband and children and that is all I need, so pucker up my dear and look on the bright side, we are all there with you...take care...........Vera.......... Login to Reply Tracey Lawrence Date: 9/7/2014 9:56:00 PM im from nsw autralia Vera Duggan Date: 9/7/2014 7:18:00 PM Sorry Tracy where I got the name Chelsea from I don't Know. Vera Duggan Date: 9/7/2014 7:11:00 PM By the way where in Australia are you, I am in Perth.

Keith Merritt Date: 9/7/2014 6:32:00 PM My dad would say, "Do as I say, not as I do !" I grok the feeling of isolation; been there, done that. You are not alone. Welcome to the common denomination. ;) Login to Reply

Jan Allison Date: 8/28/2014 6:34:00 PM It is such a shame when no one understands exactly how you feel- this is a heartbreaking write a cry to be left alone but people are obviously trying to show they care although the way they go about it may not be exactly what you need:-) hugs Jan xx Login to Reply Jan Allison Date: 8/28/2014 6:45:00 PM My heart goes out to you Tracey. it is brilliant you can get your thoughts down on paper. Hugs Jan xxx Tracey Lawrence Date: 8/28/2014 6:40:00 PM thanks xxx and i feel completely how it sounds in this poem