Mixed Emotions

i am happy i am sad i get angry i get mad i abuse my skin i abuse everything every touch is always pain will i ever love again when i feel joy i sing to the skys cry in happiness with a twinkle in my eyes but when im sad i go down to the dark doing bad things that will always leave a mark tears will never end needing a best friend asking out to the world why do this im just a girl ill raise my fist and shout to the sky make it rain with all the tears i cry ill take one last step and make it to my death sink deep within the ground and i wont make a sound ill finally be at peace can finally go to sleep never having to go home my problems over flown