As I Lay In the Meadow

As I lay in the meadow of flowers blue sky and peace. I slowly drift to sleep Looked up at the sky Yelling asking why Took a bullet to the head Screamed good damn it I was dead. Layed down in the grass This is death it will last Felt the blood rushing from my head Thank god I am dead My soul is now in heaven And my body is in the ground My heart is down in hell And I don’t make a sound Suicide was the answer The gun was the key Put the key in the door Im as dead as dead can be Down there my life had no meaning But up here im like a queen Living life with no regrets Living life were its not mean Waking up every day is a joy Down there it was fire and smoke As the smoke would burn my eyes And all hell would break loos Dad would always hit me Mum would always be high They never got over my sisters passing But just made me want to die Took their anger out on me And never really spoke Just kept that bottle of jack And the pack of smokes My mother and father never worked It was I who had to support So I wonder how they will do now….. I’ve never felt freer Never felt more alive Never felt this happy Never wish to die…. As I lay in the meadow of flowers blue sky and peace. I slowly drift to sleep…. And suddenly wake up to speak.