As I Lay In the Meadow
As I lay in the meadow of flowers blue sky and peace. I slowly drift to sleep
Looked up at the sky
Yelling asking why
Took a bullet to the head
Screamed good damn it
I was dead.
Layed down in the grass
This is death it will last
Felt the blood rushing from my head
Thank god I am dead
My soul is now in heaven
And my body is in the ground
My heart is down in hell
And I don’t make a sound
Suicide was the answer
The gun was the key
Put the key in the door
Im as dead as dead can be
Down there my life had no meaning
But up here im like a queen
Living life with no regrets
Living life were its not mean
Waking up every day is a joy
Down there it was fire and smoke
As the smoke would burn my eyes
And all hell would break loos
Dad would always hit me
Mum would always be high
They never got over my sisters passing
But just made me want to die
Took their anger out on me
And never really spoke
Just kept that bottle of jack
And the pack of smokes
My mother and father never worked
It was I who had to support
So I wonder how they will do now…..
I’ve never felt freer
Never felt more alive
Never felt this happy
Never wish to die….
As I lay in the meadow of flowers blue sky and peace. I slowly drift to sleep…. And suddenly wake up to speak.
Copyright © Tracey Lawrence | Year Posted 2014
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