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Elana Cross Poem
Don't sing me songs of what you think I wanna hear
Don't make love last if you know it was meant to disappear
Too often us women mistake mr tonight for mr right
Let me explain for those who don't quite understand
I know I'm not the only one quilty of making permanent decisions off of a temporary
man
I can already feel the headache coming along, thinking of all the time I wasted
loving mr wrong
Just thinking of every "I love you" that once made my heart complete
Now the thought of those three words feels like the sting of a bee
So bitter sweet
I can laugh &reminisce thinking about how we were so happy
But deep inside ill always know that WE was only ME
He might have been right by my side, but all I wanted was his heart &his heart
wasn't mine.
No part of him ever really belonged to me, only thing in my possession is what's left
in memories
I try to block out the pain of mr wrong, but sometimes the tears just flow, maybe
waiting to be wiped off by mr right whenever he comes along
Next time will be different, ill no longer be searching
No longer desperate for love, because I found my happiness after all that hurt me
After all the pain he caused me & all the scars he left,
I found love within myself,
Not needing a man's help
I've kissed a bunch of frogs only trying to find my prince
Never realizing what I was searching for could be found within
I wish it didn't hurt so bad knowing all my love was wasted
He had my whole heart in the palm of his hand, he just didn't appreciate it.
Alls fair in love & war
My heart fought one hell of a battle, the outcome just wasn't what I was hoping for
I guess I just wanted that "Happily Ever After", dreaming of a lifetime with him
sharing love, smiles &laughter
Again comes what I never realized, I had all I was dreaming for right in front of my
eyes
My love, smiles &laughter were there all along, but unknowingly I let myself get lost
in mr wrong!
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she never thought she was pretty enough
always walked with her head held down,
not wanting anyone to notice the blemishes she tried to cover up
she was never made aware of how beautiful she really was
inside and out
she just wanted to fit in
so then came the little bitty shirts with cleavage overflowing
and the itty bitty skirts she could barely fit in
she just wanted attention
from those guys
the guys every girl wanted on their arm
she got attention alright..
that friday night
never thinking inviting him over would cause any harm
her parents were outta town
house all to herself
she was rare..virgin at the age of 16
but that was about to change with his help
he knocked on the door,
she let him right in
the night started out perfect
watching a movie, all snuggled up on the couch
in her mind thats how its going to end
if she only knew his plans were far from hers
just asked him to get her some more coke,
but after that her night became a blur
because not only did he fill her cup with coke,
he slipped in a little something on the side
and on that couch,
while the movie was still playing
he stole her innocence and her heart just died
not able to move, but aware of everything that was going on
he was hurting her
scarring her mentally and physically
and all she could do was lay there
even after he was long gone
she just wanted to feel pretty
just wanted to fit in
now she felt disgusting
just soaked in the tub,
scrubbing and scrubbing trying to cleanse her skin
never really spoke a word of this til years down the road
she was young.
didnt wanna get into trouble
thats why she never told
now she can speak on it
just wanting to help young girls that remind her of herself
trying to make them understand that beauty is only skin deep
and to feel pretty, you dont need a man's help
it took her years to feel pretty again
to allow herself to trust another man
but she got to a place where she felt safe in life
and that is walking with him
hand in hand
by him i mean God,
she gave her life to him
she trusted him to keep her safe
to let her life begin
she never felt prettier
she found it deep within
letting herself finally exhale
and breathe in a life lived thru him
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Ringlet curls bouncing around
As she runs here and there
Chocolate covers most of her face
Even the clothes she wears
My little womans getting so big
Growing way too fast
Time flies when you're having fun
And boy has this time passed
Year after year passes by
This will make year three
Even when she was in the womb
I knew she completed me
She's the reason I wake each morning
Without her, who would I be?
I love her from the depths of my soul
To my heart, she is the key
Hard times tend to come and go
Good out weighs the bad
Her smile can brighten the darkest day
To not love her you'd have to be mad
A mother's love is one of a kind
Never does it stray
Til the day that I stop breathing
She will light my way
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November 6th, 2005
Pulled up to my house
Couldn't believe my eyes
Everyone sobbing
Couldn't control their tears
What's going on??
Time to face my fears
With no idea
I just ran and asked
To hear the news
My big brother had passed
Empty & broken
I ran to my room
Not talking to anyone
I was so damn confused
Retracing my weekend
Thinking to myself
What's the last thing I said to him,
The night that I left?
Beating myself up
Trying to dig in deep
Did I tell him I loved him?
Such a painful memory
Find myself writing
With nowhere to go
My heart takes me to him
For what reason I don't know
Guess there is a lot supressed
Pent way up inside
Forcing its way out
Through the pain that I hide
It eats me up
Not knowing that night,
I was walking out the door
Saying my last Goodbye
Tear after tear
Ache after ache
That November night
That ultimate heartbreak
Finally releasing my heart
From the prison that its in
Letting go of the unknown
Now the hurt can end
November 6th, 2005
The day he left
And a piece of my heart died
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Good music playing in my ear,
Its got me in a mood to write
Nights like this I just lay here and think
Often about those summer nights
I remember every little thing
Just young girls trying to be grown
Thought every guy was 'the one' for us
Sat waiting by the phone
Little bitty bikinis, sitting by the pool
Just wishing a guy would sit right beside us
Because getting the hottie made us 'cool'
Sneaking out way past curfew
There wasn't a rule we didn't break
"Omg, he told me he loved me!!"
Our hearts were so easy to take
Looking back, reminiscing
Smiling at every thought
We never gave up on chasing the fun
Even if we did get caught
A lot has changed throughout the years
From girls we now are women
The bond we have will never be broken
Even tho our lives are completely different
There might be miles between us,
Maybe even right next door
Telling each other painful truths
But that's what friends are for
Tears have dropped on shoulder after shoulder
Wiped away by the same ol' hands
After every heartbreak and all the pain
Together well always stand
There came a time when I had to wake up,
Reality hit me so hard
I knew I could no longer be the kid
I could no longer play that part
Being mommy is my life now
Being a friend falls in right behind it
Ill never regret a moment spent with my girls
They're all memories ill never forget
I know God purposely intertwined our lives
I believe everything happens for a reason
Ill never let go of the sisters He gave me
Til the day that I stop breathing
We've grown into adults now
We'll eventually go our seperate ways
Always going to have each other
Thru all the happiness and the pain
I often go back to those summer nights
Thinking "how stupid could we be?"
But we were just kids out breaking the rules
When life was easy and care free!
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the way hes looking into my eyes
its like he can read my mind
he knows what i desire
he's like my drug
everytime he just gets me higher &higher
slowly but surely my skin is touching his
&our desires interwine
the cold air hits my hot skin, sending chills down my spine
but the cold breeze of the fan
doesnt even start to cool down the heat raging inside
he kisses my lips and for a moment i just melt,
the way he touches me is like nothing i've ever felt
but its not just with his hands,
the way he looks at me thru those brown eyes touches me inside
gives me butterflies and tingles
and chills that run down my spine
from my lips to my neck
he continues to make his way down
like a kid at recess, my body is his playground
the smallest touch brings the biggest sensation
left up to him
no part of my body is left to the imagination
he touches every part of me...
mind,body &soul
new to my life, yet dear to my heart
this is a man i dont wanna let go
hes swimming in my ocean
and the current is taking us out too far
overwhelmed by the waves of pleasure
with no lifeguard
he takes me to this place ive never been,
&never even thought to go
i drift into ecstasy the deeper he dives in
&into my own little heaven with each stroke
with him its that pain that hurts sooo good,
the feelings you cant deny
the gazes into each others mind
the ultimate high
every sound we make drives my body insane
hes got me dripping wet, all over his bed
his moans covered by my moans
and screams of his name
were in mutual ecstasy,
deep inside each other's desires
i whisper into his ear
"cum with me baby"
and together we take each other higher
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Staring out into nothing
Wondering where did I go wrong
Could I have loved him better
Could I have prevented this pain I feel
The answer is and always will be NO
I couldn't have given him anymore of me
He already had my all
I couldn't have prevented this pain
It was him from the start
This runs deep in him
Someone broke his heart
Now its every other girls fault
I do wish him well
Nothing but the best
Its time to move on with my life
Need to get through all this mess
The tear drops stain my pillow
The pain stains my heart
Time heals all wounds
This is just the hardest part
Trying to put it all behind me
But behind me it won't go
He's still in my heart
Inside my heart and my soul
I wish he could feel this
The pain I'm living in
But it takes a heart to feel compassion
Just so happens a heart is what he's lacking
If there is a heart in there
Its hidden deep within
Somewhere hidden in the pain of his own past
Hiding behind a ghost
A ghost of a love that didn't last
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