Pretty
she never thought she was pretty enough
always walked with her head held down,
not wanting anyone to notice the blemishes she tried to cover up
she was never made aware of how beautiful she really was
inside and out
she just wanted to fit in
so then came the little bitty shirts with cleavage overflowing
and the itty bitty skirts she could barely fit in
she just wanted attention
from those guys
the guys every girl wanted on their arm
she got attention alright..
that friday night
never thinking inviting him over would cause any harm
her parents were outta town
house all to herself
she was rare..virgin at the age of 16
but that was about to change with his help
he knocked on the door,
she let him right in
the night started out perfect
watching a movie, all snuggled up on the couch
in her mind thats how its going to end
if she only knew his plans were far from hers
just asked him to get her some more coke,
but after that her night became a blur
because not only did he fill her cup with coke,
he slipped in a little something on the side
and on that couch,
while the movie was still playing
he stole her innocence and her heart just died
not able to move, but aware of everything that was going on
he was hurting her
scarring her mentally and physically
and all she could do was lay there
even after he was long gone
she just wanted to feel pretty
just wanted to fit in
now she felt disgusting
just soaked in the tub,
scrubbing and scrubbing trying to cleanse her skin
never really spoke a word of this til years down the road
she was young.
didnt wanna get into trouble
thats why she never told
now she can speak on it
just wanting to help young girls that remind her of herself
trying to make them understand that beauty is only skin deep
and to feel pretty, you dont need a man's help
it took her years to feel pretty again
to allow herself to trust another man
but she got to a place where she felt safe in life
and that is walking with him
hand in hand
by him i mean God,
she gave her life to him
she trusted him to keep her safe
to let her life begin
she never felt prettier
she found it deep within
letting herself finally exhale
and breathe in a life lived thru him
Copyright © Elana Cross | Year Posted 2011
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