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I understand that my values have changed. In ways to frame a point we can't help complain. Distract a conscience with tasks to entertain. As well as moments uncaptured to drive insane.
Now sorry I know I am not as open as I should be. Listen but choose a sentence that goes indefinitely. Add a pause to close a thought so complete. To then cry or get enraged to speak.
Situations we vow to not reenact. Learn a partner in order to adapt. No-one is perfect, the concept is wrapped. To then start a day with the idea of subtract.
I love you like a teen who breathes for their phone. Showing is impossible but saying makes it known. Actions can force an emotion inert like dough. But my feelings are legit in case you didn't know.
I'm a sensitive guy, it's quite hard to admit. Watch the words because then I'm unfit. Contemplate life often at times I'm convinced. That ending things is the way to finish the script.
Arguments are common and I understand. But emotional abuse is not a way of romance. Maybe it's the idea to stiffen up or enhance. But it screws with my head more than some plants.
Rock bottom is a phase we wish to never reach. The fact that most of us do is sad indeed. Been there but not out of it it seems. Can't help thinking about the criticism received.
As couples we fight, laugh, love and help. There is no SOS. We do things ourselves. When in pain we say our farewells. Think about it for days because love repels.
Time doesn't stop since it continues to grow. Affection is required but the process is slow. Fly over the negativity like a drone. Yet the love remains in case you didn't know.
I have my reasons for why I still hold on. In the depths of my heart I know that I belong. Not easy to visualize but it's rarely wrong. Set aside the hate and let bygones be bygones.
Your heart is pure with love above your sleeve. Strong personality who doesn't like to repeat. Inside her head at times still processing grief. Tough with words but respectful at least.
Short temper and pretty unpredictable. Hurtful with wordplay it's impressive though. Drags an emotion to damage a radius. Explosions released at a partner are ridiculous.
Regardless of all I fell for your purity. You do enough and It's clear to see. I've done my wrongs but at least I never cheat. Appreciate your efforts no one will disagree.
Pleasure within deception she's throwing stones. Works hard enough to pay for everything she owns. I respect those values. It honestly hits home. Love within us is ideal in case you didn't know.
Years pass and life happens. Obsessed with an image that rains fashion. Doing without thinking there's a reaction. An emotional murder killed by an assassin.
Comfort brings down a tungsten wall. Opens the demons within us we never wanted to recall. Putting flames in hope we lose by default. Taking in loathe with a grain of salt.
Love is an abstraction we will never fully understand. Unless you take a tab of acid by the hand. Freeing the mind in ways a conscience expands. Yet again do research or else you'll be damned.
Confessions to stress sorry but I try. At times I'm exhausted I won't deny. Born with errors with faith being applied. I admit my doings I'm that kind of guy.
Hey my love. This world won't get any easier. Although we do our parts before we're buried below. Don't hold things in like a cargo. Just let it all out as if you're some ammo.
We'll overcome struggles and success will be shown. Have plenty of stories like trips to the metro. Keeping a focus straighter than an arrow. You're forever etched in my soul in case you didn't know.
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Once, there was a love grown from fear and sadness.
A sheld of hope built on a shim of confidence.
Delicate but brave. It doesn't seem fragile.
A house caved in from the atmosphere it unraveled.
Once, there was a love that bliss defined.
A perfect duo in which God designed.
Attention was drawn affection, too.
Can't forget the memories between me and you
Once, there was a love usually only told in stories.
Life so pure makes it hard to believe.
A love so rich started to obtain greed.
Sadly, time passed faster than a Sneeze.
Once, there was a love one can't ever forget.
It was way back when before I counted the minutes.
Such devotion it inflamed the sex.
Sparked a bliss cupid would confess.
Once, there was a love with time subside.
Validate intimacy with sheets at night.
Fought about it all, but I didn't care.
Our love isn't perfect, but a foundation was prepared.
Once, there was a love I'd wish to rewind.
God blinds our path, so we choose with our minds.
Plan a future while he laughs from behind.
Enjoy the silence with a glass of wine.
Once there was a love, I won't explain the pain.
Alter the story by changing the frame.
Love was expired or changed for a later date.
There once was a love that couldn't dare to be erased.
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Words of a mother melting your spirit despite it being cold. Her loving you no matter what chasing that heart of gold.
"You don't need to be an honor roll student but I love you for trying. I'm glad you're doing great but I don't demand to see an A plus for passing.”
Thanks mom Knowing you'll love me regardless. School ain't the easiest thing to progress in. Thanks for everything including this gift of life in which we're seeking to pursue happiness. Apologies to those moments I avoid those arms of forgiveness. Sorry for the times I chose not to listen. Oblivious although it's easily predicted. If I had the chance to change our relationship for the better I would. I closed you to a point where isolation advances towards my adulthood. Shutting those eyes of mine so your shadow can't feel. Dragging me in as it crawls towards my emotions discovering if what's said is real. That I am good. Being crystal clear of the need for some help. Fading away into consciousness while maintaining the problems by myself.
Sorry that it took so long to speak. Sorry I didn't do my part if support during false delivery. Pessimistic views yet holding it down like Kimbo. Weak in the bones throwing words as in strength to borrow. Sorry for not expressing yet vomiting an unwanted effort. Buckle down doing what you can, an imaginable love of a shepherd. Having a flock of children Jesus would adore. Broke and paperless success isn't something we're looking for. Just the bliss of being a family member we love. Surprisingly happy yet struggling fits like a latex glove.
Hunting for girls which sucks when they're playing with my life like a joker's card. Giving up because like in the wild even a determined hunter quits when he feels it's too hard. So single and sensitive life progresses. Savagely living like John Carpenter knowing breathing is something I'm blessed with. Sorry mom for the things you've been through. Sorry for dealing with suicidal depression through most Of my education and not telling you. Overthinking things with answers faster than Arthur Benjamin. Desperate yet not enough to rent a friend cuz true bonds being bought don't exist.
Sorry mom for you to be experiencing betrayal first hand. Witnessing you crying pushes us further yet it doesn't work when we're glued by the ends of a rubber band. Not knowing what to say and so silence takes place. As regretful as Akon from giving you too much space. Sorry for the wrong things that I have done. Sorry for alternating your view on watcha think is fun. Making your choice my choice so you can have none. Sorry I'm not doing what I should be doing as a son. Sorry for having faith in love unraveling my sadness for Elizabeth. Screwing with my head for two years to then always pleading the fifth. Lighting up my face not knowing ignorance outweighs the love within bliss. Abandon our ambition to some random place not bothering to rejoice back to it. As much as it hurts to let go it's hurting more to hold on. My bad I've forgotten family is the best most truthful love out there sorry that it took so long. Like in prison the loudest one in the room is the weakest. Loud in my head weak from the Surface which explains why my kindness is limited yet decent. As humorous as Ron Swanson although I'm unintentionally funny. Not as bad as Amy, no one can be so annoying for such money. Sorry for you to be struggling with life as bad as Patrice O'Neal attempting to by-pass diabetes. Not being able to exist the way we should got you weak in the knees.
All up in the mix like a ship in the Rhine. We don't get much luck running out of faith losing our grind. You're doing fine though we got a roof above our heads. Water to drink, food to consume that should be enough said. Sorry you're supporting us by cleaning for others getting pennies for a bit of bread. A jug of milk if lucky under the umbrella of hope placed below our self-esteem yet above the feeling of dread. Sorry life proceeds the same way changing nothing but our view of the world. Thinking a bit too much of how the government takes from us leaves us nearly horrified and scared to unfold. Sorry I can't do anything. Sorry for your sickness. You can't do much at times yet you always let me know you’re sticking with us. Apologies to all things I can't shape into words. Organic lives played by a bunch of marionettes taking turns passing our delicate chords. Things hard to mention not all could be said in color. I love you for being such a great hearted mother. Hopefully I don't come face to face with the notorious banshee. Thanks for everything thanks to the one and only.
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Give me a moment before you judge harshly. Given the facts, don't get manipulated by honesty. I know that help is required but never spoken of. Can't deny the need but respect the love. Struggle shapes success and throws us in directions. Leads us in tunnels in which our sanity gets affected. Blinded by comfort neglect the confessions. Moments within minutes plus thoughts every second.
Some things are better learned the hard way. Can't portray a lesson unless forced to convey. Eaten by guilt swallowed by pride. A dissolved ego doesn't change the inside. The demons within us with time will subside. Destroyed emotionally but act like it's fine.
Money solves the problem but is also part of it. No matter how hard we work, the proof doesn't exist. Long hours putting sleep at risk. A father's motivation a son doesn't notice. But I do, and I love you for it. Living is hard. We all wish it wasn't. Chasing a dream because of life's abundance. I'm not spending much but still caught with the issue. Somehow manage to save enough for rent, insurance, gas, and food. The system doesn't let, but god damn I try. Putting all of my effort just to provide. Chaos within every step makes it tough to decide. Thoughts within my head get amplified.
Just because I don't ask for help doesn't mean I don't want it. I got myself into this situation. It's my responsibility to get myself out of it. The cycle will break its inevitable. Just gotta put the effort and be respectful. Can't risk an enemy. The damage that would cause is one I can't bear to see. I wanna be a writer and live through my words. Throw my thoughts for profit, although that sounds absurd. Have people drool in a book they can relate to. It doesn't have to rhyme, I know. But the concept is cool. Just imagine a life it can bring. Being paid to do what I already do occasionally. Still in the beginning stages. Being rejected but still throwing pages. Entering contests and speaking with people. Yeah, I do Uber, and some places can be evil. I understand your worries but I have to. It doesn't pay enough but enough to continue. Drive hours away just to pay for the commute. Or do a couple of short ones and hope the traffic approves. I hope you respect my effort it's all I ask. I am trying with my soul god knows how long that will last. Working like I'm born to, I know you respect that. Emotionally fighting with my other half. It's one of the reasons why I write to begin with. It's easier to cope with pain when it's written. I'm in a battle emotionally on paper, a musician. But losing the fight with more poems just listen.
Optimistic at times, still pushing through. God's holding my hand. That's not an excuse. Chasing my tail within the devils roots. Holding my heart since there is so much to lose. Thank you for everything words never said. Our relationship was held up by a thread. You were too busy chasing money for a loaf of bread. I forgot about the effort and hated you instead. Not at home but with us nevertheless. Confused in the struggle mother distracted to forget. Sorry about before. My understanding was stretched. Forgive my mistakes. I was a bit direct. My intentions were pure but filled with sadness. Maybe it's rage that I didn't want to happen. You taught me so much besides the love. This world is dangerous but doesn't adjust. It beats you up physically and mentally. Makes you think about love, hate, and everything in between. We get stuck living in a vivid routine. Flipping back and forth like a magazine.
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Speechless dreams are in denial. A word has arisen go grab that rifle.
Shoot pain with lust as all humans do. Let faith drag sorrow making time feel abused.
Simplify regret, fight a storm with silence. Bring a rose to a grave, shine a light on what's lifeless.
Yet understanding is a game of awareness. With no intention of caring it multiplies the stress.
Too much for comfort and break that Levee. Flood an emotion then here comes envy.
Drown her compliments but sadly too many, and people get surprised asking “why is love deadly?”
As ironic as death itself. Playing a role in life just to get overwhelmed.
Fighting ourselves instead of fetching for help, but we ignore signs thinking we're safer than a seat belt.
Although we can be if we focus, but no denial is glued to feeling hopeless.
Fake a smile to have sex. As if life can't be fun without it.
Not leaving something toxic cuz it's strange to rejoice. Although you can dip anytime, being traumatized leaves you without a choice.
To suffer on being used due to the fear of trust upon another soul. Just because of a ship we let god control.
Waves of agony just to avoid being alone. Being depressed because of an empty phone.
On the ocean of despair. It's all in the mind although we're unaware.
Being with someone makes you oblivious. Are you happy now out of being serious?
Love pokes us with venom till we are all confused. Affection is a need no soul would refuse.
A punch to the gut enough to be labeled abuse. Write until you cry double the pain triples the views.
Poems from tears of an angel but written by ink of raw satisfaction. Moving effortlessly shoving aside faith, Clipping the wings of devotion.
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I wish I can talk to you again. But I can't since where no longer friends. It kills me, but that's life, I guess. If only you understood more than just sex. Love is what we had printed on my brain. Feelings can evolve, but some don't change.
I wish you had understood that I tried my best. Gave ya the space demons in my head. If only you were me, maybe you would know. I never intend to destroy what was built and grown. I wish you had heard your voice from our last phone call. It can kill a good soul, especially with a heart. If words can get physical, then that was it. You healed a man to then murdered a mothers gift. Hits me hard like a bone outta place.. Or a hit to the gut like what Hudini faced.
I wish you heard me out. Never had the chance. It was all about you never the romance. If only you cared or at least listen. Maybe things would be great and not in this position.
I wish I never met you maybe I would smile. Bottled up emotions with you on speed dial. You gave me the best day ever if only you knew. Yet the same person did the opposite and scarred me too. I never loved myself some don't understand. How can you love without an ego at hand? Well although you froze my passion like server frostbite. I loved you to a point where I forgot what hating myself felt like.
I wish you knew how it feels to lose a friend. The one you ran to for comfort now no longer present. I was there for you when you needed it guess I was like a tissue. Used then was thrown away like some left over food...
I wish I didn't put effort into keeping us alive. I was protecting myself plus heart and mind. You kept me up at night regret is what you is. I thought if bliss was around love would exist. Guess I was wrong it was all a lie. Memories is all that's left even when it died.
I wish I can forget you or everything we did. The cuddles kisses and chats can't be dismissed. Hungry for attention full of desire. Stuck in a fantasy when it's actually barbed wire.
I wish we never settled on a friendship. You took me through hell emotions all hidden. I tried to vurbulize get you to the help. You're emotionally fractured no lie I also was myself. Took me to a place no going back to what we had. It was done and set like a devorce went our seperate paths.
I wish you'll learn one day of who you lost. Not what you saw in me but the damage that was caused. Now go enjoy your life you must wanna leave. Onto the next like Paul Andersons dream. I see you with a dude I hope he hears this. Or maybe not since I was replaced with dat *****.
I wish you can finally see why I cut it off. I tried to fix something that broke by wiping a piece of cloth. Glue doesn't work I ran out of that. It was for my heart so many parts to put back. I'm messed up now imma go for a drive. Don't know where to just out of my mind. Tried to maintain love that went dry. Faith that evaporated that's no longer with Sky. As much as it hurts to say Im done goodbye. Devotion is the key to acceptance that's manipulated in life.
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