I Wish

I wish I can talk to you again. But I can't since where no longer friends. It kills me, but that's life, I guess. If only you understood more than just sex. Love is what we had printed on my brain. Feelings can evolve, but some don't change. I wish you had understood that I tried my best. Gave ya the space demons in my head. If only you were me, maybe you would know. I never intend to destroy what was built and grown. I wish you had heard your voice from our last phone call. It can kill a good soul, especially with a heart. If words can get physical, then that was it. You healed a man to then murdered a mothers gift. Hits me hard like a bone outta place.. Or a hit to the gut like what Hudini faced. I wish you heard me out. Never had the chance. It was all about you never the romance. If only you cared or at least listen. Maybe things would be great and not in this position. I wish I never met you maybe I would smile. Bottled up emotions with you on speed dial. You gave me the best day ever if only you knew. Yet the same person did the opposite and scarred me too. I never loved myself some don't understand. How can you love without an ego at hand? Well although you froze my passion like server frostbite. I loved you to a point where I forgot what hating myself felt like. I wish you knew how it feels to lose a friend. The one you ran to for comfort now no longer present. I was there for you when you needed it guess I was like a tissue. Used then was thrown away like some left over food... I wish I didn't put effort into keeping us alive. I was protecting myself plus heart and mind. You kept me up at night regret is what you is. I thought if bliss was around love would exist. Guess I was wrong it was all a lie. Memories is all that's left even when it died. I wish I can forget you or everything we did. The cuddles kisses and chats can't be dismissed. Hungry for attention full of desire. Stuck in a fantasy when it's actually barbed wire. I wish we never settled on a friendship. You took me through hell emotions all hidden. I tried to vurbulize get you to the help. You're emotionally fractured no lie I also was myself. Took me to a place no going back to what we had. It was done and set like a devorce went our seperate paths. I wish you'll learn one day of who you lost. Not what you saw in me but the damage that was caused. Now go enjoy your life you must wanna leave. Onto the next like Paul Andersons dream. I see you with a dude I hope he hears this. Or maybe not since I was replaced with dat *****. I wish you can finally see why I cut it off. I tried to fix something that broke by wiping a piece of cloth. Glue doesn't work I ran out of that. It was for my heart so many parts to put back. I'm messed up now imma go for a drive. Don't know where to just out of my mind. Tried to maintain love that went dry. Faith that evaporated that's no longer with Sky. As much as it hurts to say Im done goodbye. Devotion is the key to acceptance that's manipulated in life.