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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
Don't light your arm on fire
In an effort just to feel
The scar will last forever
But the pain you have will heal
Don't get so lost in your own mind
That you ignore all of your friends
Feeling lonely sometimes is normal
But you'll feel worse when those friendships end
Don't allow yourself to fall so hard
That climbing up again feels too far
It's okay that you are sad
But sad isn't who you are
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I smile
Sometimes I hide
In the bathroom for a while
The ketchup bottles are empty
The ice buckets must be full
Children scream for chicken tenders
Food is fried in peanut oil
Make sure to write on the ticket
If someone has an allergy
Or they might break out in hives
And their meal will be free
Which means
No money for me
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
I choked on a breakfast burrito today
While walking down a narrow hallway
For three minutes I was not okay
I thought that my life was slipping away
My face turned fifty shades of blue, not gray
I thought I might die, but I got to stay
Thank you, baby Jesus, is all I can say
I think from now on I am going to pray
Because I was so afraid my life might go away
When I choked on that breakfast burrito today
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
Some pages in my story
Are too painful for me to write
So I skip over certain chapters
And edit parts of my own life
I justify my actions
By pretending to forget
I can lie to a piece of paper
But I'm still burdened with regret
It's impossible to change things
No matter how hard I pray
Memories tied to emotions
Don't just go away
I can't forget how I felt
Both broken and complete
Hurting and healing
My puzzle deserves every piece
But the detachment I feel
From periods of my life
Makes my character hard to read
And true stories hard to write
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
He spent his nights drinking
Instead of
Helping his children with their homework
Attending their sporting events
Driving them to school
And to their friend's houses
He spent his nights drinking
Staying out all night at a poker game
Where he gambled away all of the money in his pockets
He took money from his daughter's piggy bank
Leaving an I owe you note that he wouldn't pay back
Leaving all of the responsibility to
The mother of his children
Because
He spent his nights drinking
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
Every time I die
I lose a little more inside
Forget how to live
And function right
But in this body I still reside
My muscles remember
More than my mind
The scars of my past
Are easy to find
But how they got there
Escapes my mind
I lose so much life
Every time I die
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
She couldn't have been worse at her job
She clumsily flung her hoop earring into my husband's coke
While getting out her pen to take our food order
The coke was diet, when he ordered a regular
She was clearly trying to make a statement
About my husband being fat
Which was rude of her
She had 4 other tables
And the other 3 seemed to dislike her just as much as we did
I flagged her down at 06:27 pm
To tell her that the orange in my blue moon had a booger on it
She told me she had 2020 vision
And insisted the booger on my orange was only pulp
I demanded a new blue moon without a booger on the orange
And she said she would have to charge me
I grabbed my fat husband and stormed out of the restaurant
Because I don't want anything that isn't free
What a terrible waitress
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
I was untouched
Beautiful glass
Fragile, but pure
Until something happened to me
And I shattered
I no longer knew anything
Except for how to break
How to fall apart
People tried their best to help me
Some believed
That they could fix me
And I could be the same as I was before
They fit the various pieces together
Even glued a few that seemed to fit well
But eventually
All grew tired and frustrated
With the tedious process of piecing glass back together
It was too much work for them
I
Wasn't worth the effort
When they gave up
The pieces they had tried to put back in place
Fell out of their hands
And broke
Into smaller pieces
I once thought that you could only break something once
I was wrong
Glass can break
Over and over
Again, and again
Until you can no longer recognize
What it used to look like
What it used to be
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
I wish you knew that you aren't unique
You're not alone in the secrets that you keep
Other people have skeletons in their closets too
But you don't hate those people and they don't hate you
It may be hard for you to relive your mistakes
But life is a running river and not a perfectly still lake
The past can be painful, but it's not who you are
If you live in your failures, you can't get very far
Forgive yourself so that you can grow
Acknowledge you have a past, and then let it go
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Ciara Mcmahon Poem
For others, spring means life
Flowers bloom
And babies are born
The air smells fresh
Perfect for new beginnings
For me
Spring triggers memories
Scenes in my mind that make me cringe
Trauma
Depression
Fear
And
Obsession
For me
Spring
Will forever symbolize the opposite of life
Spring cuts into me
Deeper than the sharpest knife
Slow and steady
It drags down my heart
Cutting out my innocence
Spring is forever tearing me apart
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