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Jessica Stafford Poem
Hyperventilating on the bathroom floor
Nobody hears
Nobody cares
If I were to just stop breathing
He wouldn’t be there
I call for help
But not even a breathless me
Would make him come running
And that’s what being unlovable is like
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Follow me into the abyss
Lower me into the well
Drink of my hopelessness
Swim into my faultiness
Swallow your pride
Take another stride
You’ll never make it out alive
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Remembering the day
You took me out of the constant pain
Leading me into a constant place
Of contentment and joy
A place where even when it was hard
I still knew you were by my side
Which made me smile
And now my memory is fading
Trying to remember when that all disappeared
Now living back in that same place
Where you found me
A life of consistency is what you’ve given me
The pain is tenacious
Never giving up
Always ready for the next tear
You are my constant
You are my fear
You are my pain
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You’re a fault line
Ready to move away at any moment
A black hole
Ready to suck me in relentlessly
You’re a twister
Ready to destroy my home
A hurricane
Ready to drown me in my sleep
You’re a dust storm
Ready to dirty my hope
A blizzard
Ready to leave me in the cold
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My scorpion
Come near
Hold me dear
And sting again
Your poison is so sweet
It tastes of succulent fear
When you kiss me
Venom enters my veins
Leaving me in excruciating pain
Then you scurry away in the dark
And only return to bite again
Someone please hear my cry
Save me from his claws
That pull me close
The ones I desire
Yet the ones I dread
His sting I crave
His poison gives me life
And yet here I stand
With death in my heart
And nothing but fear
Of the one I love so dear
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Hating you is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do
Hating your smile, your eyes beaming into mine
Hating your kiss, your embrace
Yet hating you is worth everything you’ve put me through
Hating her for taking your lips from mine
Hating her perfect body, her gorgeous shape
Hating her for being perfect for you
Just make me hate you more
I’m worth more than this
I’m not second string
And you’ve made me nothing but second choice
Just the one you thought you had to settle for
So why am still in love with you?
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That moment when alone meets loneliness
From my mind to my heart it goes
Churning in me a deep hopelessness
Something larger than a feeling
But smaller than what I’m worth to you
There’s a break in your love
Maybe it’s gone all together
But what about your promise for us forever
Guess vows don’t mean anything anymore
Fainting I fall to the floor
You’re done with me
Trash to discard
Like a cigarette bud to the ground
Stepped on to stop the spark
But I’m not that lucky
Your spark is out, but mine has started a fire
And it rages a war against the world we’ve created together
No more happiness
Joy to go up in flames
The urge to run kicks in
As you kick me again
“Just know what this is,” you say
And another fear stacks on top of another tear
Just give up
Like that’s the thought you wish I’d chase
You’re pushing me away
But do I stay?
To be walked all over?
Yes, I’ll stay
Because this love is more than the hurt you give
How generous you are
And you just keep giving
And I’ll just keep taking
How selfish a transaction
That will not end
Until you’re strong enough to say
“It’s over.”
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Oh beauty, where have you gone?
I sing for you at night, with tear soaking melodies
Oh beauty, why did you leave me alone again?
I’ll change my ways, to be with you
Oh beauty, my heart is inflamed by the fire of your eyes
My hands tremble with fear of losing you
Oh beauty, the ashes are back
And you are no where to be found
Oh beauty, turn me back to your right hand
Make me the apple of your eye
Oh beauty, why turn your back on me once more
What have I done to deserve the heat of your spark?
Oh beauty, hear my cry
My soul is torn in two, because of this heartless act
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You’re my something happy when darkness rises
You’re my laughter when tears are all I see
You’re my strength when I’m so weak I can’t get out of bed
You’re my hope in this impossible situation
You’re my babies
Your smiles lift me from my knees to my feet
Your laughs pull me from hopeless to hopeful
Your hugs wrap around me giving me warmth
You’re my everything
My sweet baby boys
You pull Mama back to her senses
And I promise you to keep fighting for you
I won’t give up
I’ll always give you my everything
Because you’re my only true love
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The expectations held on tightly
Strong enough to suffocate your love for me
What if all I needed was to let go?
Leave my dreams aside
To keep you by my side
I would've done it
Anything to keep you mine, and not hers
What if all we needed was a little time?
But instead you chose, for all time
Hastily ending our unity
Your fault in this wasn't the break
It was the giving up
When you vowed forever and always
You lied, promises broken
Words thrown around meaninglessly
Now, I lie
Discarded beneath a mountain of "what could have been"
And I'll stay here
Waiting for someone who cares
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