What It Is

That moment when alone meets loneliness 
From my mind to my heart it goes
Churning in me a deep hopelessness
Something larger than a feeling 
But smaller than what I’m worth to you 
There’s a break in your love 
Maybe it’s gone all together
But what about your promise for us forever 
Guess vows don’t mean anything anymore 
Fainting I fall to the floor 
You’re done with me 
Trash to discard
Like a cigarette bud to the ground 
Stepped on to stop the spark 
But I’m not that lucky 
Your spark is out, but mine has started a fire 
And it rages a war against the world we’ve created together 
No more happiness 
Joy to go up in flames 
The urge to run kicks in 
As you kick me again 
“Just know what this is,” you say 
And another fear stacks on top of another tear
Just give up 
Like that’s the thought you wish I’d chase 
You’re pushing me away 
But do I stay? 
To be walked all over?
Yes, I’ll stay 
Because this love is more than the hurt you give 
How generous you are
And you just keep giving
And I’ll just keep taking 
How selfish a transaction
That will not end 
Until you’re strong enough to say 
“It’s over.”
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Bangalee Avatar
December 31, 2019 at 4:16 AM
Because this love is more than the hurt you give / How generous you are/ And you just keep giving/ And I’ll just keep taking ../// love is generous feelings of our earthly character; superb and beautiful writings
La France Avatar
December 30, 2019 at 4:18 PM
Jessica, let me first say congratulations on having your write selected as a Featured Poem of the week on the home page. I was touched deeply by your words for I was once in a relationship exactly like you describe in your poem until I got the courage to walk away -Constance
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