every day my life will be
full of pain and misery
not knowing where I belong
every minute I ping-pong
through the hours of each day
this deadly hurt is here to stay
making fun of me so you
can feel big--now I'm just blue
there is no reason to be mean
your acting foolish and obscene
leaving me in tears of sorrow
knowing that my next tomorrow
will not be a happy one
your words and actions have begun
to take a toll upon my mind
I just hope one day I find
a sense of peace from all your gruffness
because you think all the toughness
you display will let you be
full of popularity
but it just makes you a fool
what made you start being cruel
leaving many paths of tears
I'm just hoping all my prayers
will come true that some day
you'll be treated the same way
feeling what you have done
realizing its not fun
being picked on and made fun of
no longer cared for or loved
Categories:
youll, bullying, change, fear, sorrow,
Form: Rhyme
("Nonbinary", 2023, original encaustic)
You’ll Never Come Back…
Thrown into an ocean
Deeper and vaster than thought
Carried on waves of sound
Waves of light
Propelled on waves of bliss
Through a portal
That has no name
No place
No time
But here and now
Washed up on a shore
After the storm
Bathed in warmth
Exhausted of all content
Left alone
At the heart of it all
Connected to it all
Without a doubt
Someone whispers
Somewhere
Just beyond sight
“You’ll never come back”
And in an instant
I am thrown into doubt
Back to what!?
To this timeless place
Or what I left behind?
And then in the next
Caught up in those waves
Propelled
Life goes on
Same as it ever was
Forever changed
Forever fresh
Forever
(9/27/23)
Categories:
youll, spiritual, visionary,
Form: Free verse
Banjo strings ringing
Mandolin singing
Bass beating out time
Harmonic guitar
Fiddle sighing notes.
Playing so fast
The strings will snap
Bows will lose hair
Players don’t care.
Playing’s fun
Many runs
Filling air.
No cares
Bluegrass
Rules!
Categories:
youll, appreciation, celebration, fun, music,
Form: Diminished Hexaverse
There was a time you'd take him back,
back when you could take his lying.
Lying there, he'd swear to your face.
Face it, he'll get in this time, too.
Categories:
youll, boyfriend, break up, devotion,
Form: Free verse
Far from the love forbidden from our dream
Looking out the window it was something I'd seen,
A star up above that dropped its twinkle
I knew it was love when my stomach tingled,
Thinking of you as my mind drifts away
Only love can take you to the greatest place,
Shadowy eyes in the nights that glister
Whoever she is I sure do miss her,
Hopes and dreams that don't exist
Love is something you wouldn't want to miss,
Day after night I would see the moonlight
Together forever but not in my sight,
Fell from the darkness into the light
Will I fall in love, I think I just might,
Frightened for the days that could never last
Don't say you love me, don't even ask,
Cause the true feeling awaits deep in my thought
My final dream as finally popped,
And together the happiness and joy we'll share
A moment won't be a memory, not unless you'll be there.
Categories:
youll, love, dream, dream, love,
Form: Chastushka
lately, i cant help but feel that we're slipping away, oh, so slowly slipping away
our nightly conversations, once took up till day, they no longer wait till the day
and im starting again, to sleep beneath the starrs, yet your the only starr within my heart
patiently waiting, so scared to breath, afraid that if i sip this air, youll finally leave
you say i love you, i repeat the words, perhaps it is that your just becomming my world
im just becomming more scared by the day, because i never planned this and it wont change
Categories:
youll,
Form: I do not know?
Responding to the lightest touch of an
angel, she sings words of praise to her friends
calling their names in desperation to be
heard. Falling more with each night spent alone and
empty: her wings have forgotten how to fly...
Living a life full of deception and need.
Keeping secrets hidden from the prying eyes of
adults and foes of all ages; she's spent
years alone. Calling, wishing, wanting...
Learning after each mistake how to let go and live on,
even though life can be harder than death...
Early she learned to hide her feelings and try to:
never fall for those around her...
Still this butterfly waits to be free:
untied and unfettered for the chance at being more than a
living doll. More than just one night after another of pills and needles...
Living one more day in search of her reason to live,
inch by inch she grows and learns to be herself:
varying by degrees and looking for her path...
Another lost soul looking for her reason for existing;
never forgotten...
Categories:
youll, for her, night, for
Form: Acrostic