Smothering gaze staring back from the stars
late in the night, long after the sun sunk into the seas,
woke me in its dreams;
on a dewy meadow,
near a mourning crowd
on a Sunday morning,
on this forgotten battlefield,
flowers feeding on the blood
of the hundreds,
who died over empty prides,
As the dirt now covering me,
I gaze smotheringly one last time,
into the loving eyes that came to bury me.
I had a dream
where….
I tried to catch the rainbows
When I saw that twinkle in your eyes
I tried to decipher the meaning
In that one lone half tear
That shimmered just beneath you lashes
When we said our goodbyes
I tried to hang on to the moments
When we had reached the vast skies
I try to rationalize my feelings
But it’s a dream I know
And hence I let go
And I dream further….
on and on
I hold on to you, so fast
And so desperately
And I never let go…….
And then, I see
The twinkle turn into a glare
The shimmer mocks me there
And I fall thro’ the skies, hard and bare…
And its time again for sad goodbyes!
Tell me….
Was I really so smotheringly close
Did I really adopt a clinging pose
What went wrong, I often wonder
Yet again, I try to decipher
So foolishly indeed
-the meaning….
In that one lone half tear that shimmered
Just beneath your lashes
When we said our goodbyes…..
Or is it just a dream, an illusion……
Dreams come in small thoughts
rummaging around the old attic
dust bunny's territory
soon becomes an Avery
dive bombing puffy birdies,
smotheringly float
they get right in my face
as if to gloat,
determining the mood of the moment
determining the time table of my resistance
luggage here and there
weighing down the process,
lying awake thinking til the pounding starts
dreams come and blossoms
into micro bursts causing pain
Tylenol comes to the rescue
we are wanters,
human nature is the nature of wanting
what decision to make has an effect
affect the total of my morning
troubling me over my moaning
there lies the thoughts
that lay upon the pillow
beside me
so lies the evaluations
so lies the eliminations.