blood red stains the floor
under a sky of grey
my dear is constant
and will not go away
i talked of feeling empty
these words were always true
now i find myself in question
guilty by association
i wanna runaway never say goodbye
i wanna lose this fear i will not die
i wanna find the answers deep inside
let me close the door and free my mind
fighting and constant war
under a sky of red
this fear is never ending
it will stay until im dead
i'll never leave without you
so im here to stay
now i find myself in question
guilty by association
i wanna runaway never say goodbye
i wanna lose this fear i will not die
i wanna find the answers deep inside
let me close the door and free my mind
The past is there,
But I try to ignore,
The feelings that I had before.
But all in vain,
I slowly slip,
Back into your loving grip.
Indecisive,
I can't explain,
The reasons that I feel this way.
Inquiring now,
I ask the truth:
Do you still feel the same way too?
Nervously,
I pass you by,
And still keep in my mind of why.
I can't approach,
I fear the worst.
But most of all, I fear the word:
"No."
Oh dear heaven,
What have I done,
" This is not you, anymore"
She says with a wryly voice,
Oh dear god, Help,
I can't recall myself,
from all those exotic thoughts and dos,
Evil, Evil where are you taking me
I'm damaging myself, in many ways
Letting go of what I have been strongly holding to,
Sorry was not just for you,
Now,my body aches of guilt and regret,
Sooner, they will eat me alive,
I'm sorry, you had to watch me
Chocking during sleep,
I'm sorry, you had to see me,
Hiding behind walls,
I'm sorry, you had to listen,
The fear within me,
I try to wash out the fear and pain,
But nothing goes away,
" This is not you, anymore"
She says with a wryly voice,
Oh dear heaven,
Had this place just overcame my innocence,
I do belong, true,
Pray for me, mother,
That What I've done,
Won't come running after me,
Chasing me because I got no strength left to run,
I'm a good man, mother,
Ain't I ?
Fear of the unknown.
Fear of what I may lose.
Please take this fear away.
Fear I have never felt before.
Fear I wish never to feel again.
Please take this fear away.
Fear of the future.
Fear of the past.
Please take this fear away.
Fear of my daughter growing up.
Fear of losing my wife.
Please take this fear away.
Fear of this strife
Fear of losing my life.
Please take this fear away.
broken inside this is why i try to hide fear or crying no fear of dying
not being good enough for the broken soul beside me
i wear a tinted mask i cannot let them see me
i cannot let them see how much i've crumbled this is why i tumble
i wear a smile i hide with my laugh my laugh is my tears and my shield
inside i feel as if i must completly combust
fade away dissappear into non-existence
I fear these feelings I feel inside
How deep they are
Why wont they hide
I am afraid the feeling is not the same
Why cant they leave befor I go insane
I can not hide my fear inside
It shows right straight through my eyes
You ask whats wrong but I still
Try to deny
The facts that are hideing deep inside
I hold them back as long as I can
I have not yet said what I can
Im confused scared afraid and all
what do I do before I fall
Deeper in these feelings inside.
Of the world I know not
And do I want to know?
Not because of fear extroverted
But of fear of my own self
What awaits my call
When need calls to courage
An answer I have not
I must be the prisoner,
the servant, of time
I fear I shall be ashamed
And find I was never
The person I am
and have not the soul
To ever be
Would I live as I do
If I comprehended
As I should?
Could I even bear it?
I am terrified I am weak
And don't see it clearly
Or that I am strong
And I left duties undone