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Twisted love
When I try to forget you
I just keep on remembering
Memories of my sadness
Everything in total blackness
You were grieving, I understand
But you left me alone, life i had to withstand
You didn't care enough for me
Now as an adult that is clear to see
Born under a black star some would say
The house on the street with so much dismay
It didn't have to be that way
If you had loved me enough to not betray
When she died life went black
I longed every day to have her back
I know you did too, I know that is true
But her death we couldn't undue
But what was to follow, was heartache and pain
You met him just before she passed away
He became your world, I was pushed aside
He always made me feel fear inside
Do you remember when you hid me in Ireland?
Locked in a room, your bastard child
Only allowed out if no one was looking
Had to stay quiet to keep him from leaving
Do you remember when he kicked a door in my face?
A massive black eye, i was only in year 6
I had to say I fell down the stairs
His feelings were for all you really cared
What about when I was 21
He beat the s**t out of me, you allowed it, your scum
You said you would blame me if he left
Couldn't tell the police, his career would be dead
You let that happen, you didn't care
You always forgived all his affairs
A great role model that your not
Don't ever think for a second I forgot
You choose love over your child
Now I'm an adult your behaviour seems wild
You never cooked me a meal before I was 7
You left mama to do that before she went to heaven
My mind is filled with sadness and rage
You a great mother? Oh please behave
You have 3 other kids with the love of your life
With what he did to me how do you sleep at night?
Mama died and my life ended
You bought him into the house, me he tormented
Living in fear everyday
But I always had to say sorry to make him stay
I hope your happy in your mundane life
I hope you can sleep at night
Maybe one day spare a thought for me
The pain you caused me is out for the world to see.
I will get better as time moves on
But I will never forgive what you've done
A phone call from a doctor was all it took
To realise my mum is a total crook
I will love you till the day I die
Maybe thats trauma, or maybe I'm too kind
If one day you reach out to me
Silence is all you will deserve from me
I cant say goodbye, I know that's not kind
But enough of my life you have undermined
I will love you forever, that's a fact
But for now I have to take MY life back
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Gogster Dw
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