Heart beats
I'm going to have a heart attack, the day is coming soon
It's a fact iv come to deal with, I know I'm not immune
One day I will fall to the ground,
My life will be over, the words in my head will be left unsaid
I went to the emergency room yesterday chest pains getting worse
GTN nor aspirin could help my family curse
They said my ECG was still abnormal
Valves at fault, his genes at play, I am not immortal
Iv been so upset since the doctor told me my fate
That upset lead to sickness, I am in an awful state
But when they told me yesterday my valves are broken
I cried myself to x-ray & wished they both had spoken
In my 20's I partied a lot without a second thought
I did what every uni student does, I put my body through shock
But in reality that life was short lived
15 years ago that was, its a life I'm glad I lived
But whilst in the hospital I blamed my broken valves on that
I thought the partying I did will now give me a heart attack
But then I realised it wasn't my fault
And it should not be a personal assault
They told me I have unstable angina and that more needs to be done
Likely stents too, but when I think of that I want to run
They are treating me for genetic coronary disease
A gene he gave me id rather he would keep
I cried last night because I didn't want this pain
Angina and a heart attack will be my fate
When I take my GTN me and him are bonded
Knowing his health history is all I wanted
A life of forewarning was denied to me
But until I have all the facts neither of them will ever see
The pain I go though every day
All caused by his faulty genes he gave
I am going to have a heart attack the date is unknown
I will not make it if I am not found
Words that need to be said will die with me
They both would win, their satisfaction you will see
But until then I will keep doing
The things I need too to keep my heart ticking
I wish someone would call to say hello
Just so I can tell them this story of woe
Yesterday I thought my time was at the end
I said goodbye not knowing if Id see my husband again
this time at least no heart attack ended it
So for now their secrets and lies are kept somewhere secret
A locket I keep just for them
the trauma and lies locked and hidden within
I will open it when I can fight back
Until then, well, I need to stay alive
A heart attack is not needed, I need to fight
They will not win this terrible game
One i was entered into without my say
I will have a heart attack one day
I HAVE to win this game
Copyright © Gogster Dw | Year Posted 2024
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