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It all started with a countdown from ten...
My own self-destruction shall begin
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired
From trying to get hired
To trying NOT to get fired
Jesus! I can't control all this rage
Should I let the beast out of his cage?
As I struggle in this maze
I'm forever in a daze
I've been struggling for thousands of days
Been hurt in thousands of ways...
I get to nine
I'm starving but refuse to dine
Thirsty but refuse to drink wine
It hurts but I never whine
I thought life was sweet but it's sour like lime
This mountain I can't climb
Add good plus good it equals bad all the time...
Now that I'm at eight
Im far from straight
More like crooked
I had infinite patience but something took it
Maybe trials and tribulations
Lead to my anger accumulation
Which causes my heart to harden
Oh! Has the devil smarten...
Seven
Before I self destruct will I reside in heaven?
Does my best outweigh my worst?
I have words for the Lord and Satan but who shall I speak to first...?
I get down to six
But I don't have that many picks
When I die on Earth I shall leave my wits
No I take it back, I'll need those
So in my casket dress me in comfortable clothes...
Halfway at five
I no longer feel alive
I strive
To quicken my pace to an even stride
I'm having a meltdown, is it really worth living?
I possess a gift, is it really worth giving?
Not at all because I never take
Have my cake and eat it too, but I refuse to bake
Speaking of bake, it's hot
Like 100 degrees fareinheit
Or should I say farein-hot?
Maybe not...
Now I'm at four
As my heart beats slowly in my chest
My spirit beats on Death's door
I shall struggle no more
The bloody battles
The gore
This scripture is my farewell lore...
Now the number is three
As my worries grow tall as Eden's tree
But my grave won't be in that garden
With Adam and Eve
I beg your pardon...
But that's two bodies
My magic number
I collapse on the floor
Drifting into a slumber
I close my eyes
My spirit rose to the skies...
I never made it to one
Meltdown is complete
Entity level is none...none...none..
at dusk I come upon my lake and sit beneath a shaded tree
with lifeless eyes I gaze at the setting sun, for it is the last one I will ever see
in my arms I cradle a shotgun, loaded with only one shell
the instrument that I shall use, to release me from my endless Hell
with utter calm I press the barrel beneath my chin, ready to see if there is truly a God
but then I am halted from my salvation, when from across the lake I hear a sob
my first thought is what has brought this Goddess such pain, tears streaming down her
cheeks
this creature is of such ethereal beauty, that I am rendered unable to speak
so deep is her despair that she doesn't even notice I am there
still unable to find my voice, all I can do is stare
cerulean eyes, raven tresses
thoughts of blissful cries, and lustful caresses
in those eyes I see a pain that rivals my own
on her wrists, the evidence is shown
but I can see that the scars are far more deep within her heart and mind
whoever has brought this angel such misery only deepens my loathing for mankind
I feel a strange sense of peace, looking at this creature in all her splendor
the embers of longing ignite within me for the first time I can remember
my heart clenches as her tears fall onto the water, the cold wind creating gentle waves
from the agony that radiates off of her, I know that she plans for the lake to be her grave
I wonder if I can save her, pull her from the abyss
a woman who has endured such suffering, deserves nothing other than bliss
as the last rays of the sun vanish, into the water she begins to descend
I stand up and run to her, the shotgun forgotten on the ground
as she disappears beneath the water, I grab her and pull her above the surface
like a comet streaking across my mind, I realize that saving her is my purpose
she looks into my eyes and gasps when she sees her pain reflected
a vestige of hope wells up within her, for she knows she has found a kindred soul
from the pleading desperation in her eyes, I know that I've been trapped
and I never want to escape
Like no one want's to get stuck in a valley:
A hollow or surface depression of the earth
Bounded by hills or mountains,the earth's bottompit,
So goes the story of my good friend struggling in:
THE VALLEY OF LIFE
He can't fail,he tells himself
Worn out but still spurred on
Determined to make his mark in life
He is expected not to go far at all
He still keeps his head above the water
Afraid to drown, cos he can't swim
Scuttling to dry land like a lost chick
Chickened out once, but not this time
Prepared to take on any adversity
Arms akimbo,ready for the strifes
A strong man he is , but inside he's a mess
Fighting a life long battle
Muscling his way out of this state
Fought battles,now he's faced with storms
Breaking down barriers has become a hobby
His headway keeps changing its position
Suddenly it strikes him real hard
At last his head and heart reach an accord
But alas,even his heart is divided
About right and wrong,on up and down
Drowning his last glass of liquor
Calls for more,but its all gone
He smiles and dejavou hits him
He sees his life in the situation at hand
At fourty-four and nothing to show
Used to best ,now refuses to come last
He wants to prove his mettle,leave the ghetto
A dream he has had for thirty years
Many have given up on him,though he still sees the light
Suddenly their is power outage,the power goes out
Now its darkness he sees,dejavou all over again
At the brink of success,disaster strikes
He stands up and walks out
He stretches his arms to the sky
He screams, "i've had enough","take me now lord"
Then power is restored,lights back again
He pockets his hands,shakes his head and walks away.
Silence
Hobbes
A hundred voices run through my head,
As I sit by and prey for them to stop.
I'm loosing my mind,
Loosing my sight,
Loosing control.
There's a monster within me fighting for release,
A monster I myself have created,
He will hurt me.
Hurt my friends,
Hurt everyone.
And all I ask is for silence.
My mind is clouded by darkness,
These things I am feeling hurt so much.
Sin of envy,
Sin of greed,
Sins I fear.
How do I stop something so deep inside?
The pain has taken root into my heart.
And now I fall,
And now I cry,
These salty tears.
And all I wish for is silence.
I've hurt those I love without thought,
And my friends try but I push them away.
It breaks my heart,
It breaks me down,
I'm broken up.
I wish you could see through my burning eyes,
To the truth that resides inside my core.
Inside my soul,
There hides the truth,
In tattered shards.
And all I prey for is silence.
My heart bleeds as I ask for Forgiveness,
For the atrocious sin I've committed against you.
Against a friend,
A friend so dear,
Dear to my heart.
And now I'm beating myself up
Over this friend who deserves no such fate.
You are so kind,
I am a fool,
And now I cry,
And all I beg for is silence.
I'm glad that you don't know my pain,
That you have been wrapped in love's sweet embrace.
I'm here for you,
To help you through,
For helping me.
The voices are quiet when I hear you speak,
And my heart finally seems to be at peace.
You mend my heart,
You heal my soul,
You're always there.
One voice amidst utter silence,
And I'm glad it's yours.
you start out cold and lonely,
then you meet this someone
new.
he tells you what you want to
hear,
your heart he will consume.
you think you are doing right,
by giving everything away,
he says that he will be yours,
forever from this day.
'you cant wear that',
'thats too tight',
all these things,
lead to numerous fights.
he has your heart,
you love him so,
but all these fights,
have got to go.
you spill your heart,
tell him how you feel,
he says you deserve better,
but his love is so real.
you dont want to accept it,
although in your heart you
know,
at the end of the day,
you think of letting go.
you still cant cope,
with the heart break,
so you think all the fights,
are worth the ache.
he consoles you,
when your days have gone bad,
then you do something wrong,
something that makes him
mad.
here we go,
fighting again,
at this point,
i need a friend.
none of them want to listen,
because you've pushed them
away,
you need them back,
this might be the day.
'im sorry baby',
'i need you',
you believe him,
so what do you do?
tell him its okay,
when really its not,
the fights dont get better,
they just get more hot.
i cant take this anymore,
its driving me insane,
'im sorry, sir,
but you cant put me through
this pain'
its over now,
you're back to point a,
you're feelings for him,
They start to fade away.
Tonight lightning strikes
They say it never strikes twice
But it does
When the lightning is your lies
After two years I still see your green eyes
I was broken by your lies
Yet I'm the one that I dispise
I didn't deserve this
But to me you are still perfect
I'll admit I'm worthless
Because I have to act heartless
In order to hide this
I'd give it all away
To have you for eternity
Because you're all that assures me
You're worth all that hurts me
Do you feel the rain
Its all the tears that I've cried
Since the day my happiness died
Do you hear the thunder
Thats the sound of my heart breaking
After two years I'm still aching
And all this time I've been faking
Do you feel the lightning
Its the pain you caused with all your lieing
Its hard to believe all the lies I was buying
You are still in my heart
But my heart is now this storm
Its cold, no longer warm
Tornados forming
Lightning striking
Relentless hailing
Thunder crackiling
Nonstop raining
And you are all its attacking
This is the storm you brewed
That my life barely withstood
Just take my hand
Give me the love you showed in the past
Like that night at the trackmeet
Remeber how we wanted that moment to last
And when we danced in the pouring rain
How everyone thought we were insane
Then everything went to hell
When your lies came
Damn lightning struck again
I can feel the electricity travel through my skin
Charging my hunger
I will love you forever
My ego is a crippled creature,
A monstrous malingering monger of misery,
Shriveled, decrepit, it sits hunched between my heart and stomach,
A squat grey toad with bulbous dispirited eyes
Ugly, riddled with the cankerous sores of self loathing
It governs me,
Assuming its dominion with a cruel unwavering ferocity,
Subtle, insidious, it sends out its tendrils of crushing contempt
Coiling them about my heart and mind until they can scarcely breathe
Cutting off the sunlight, cooling the blood that flows skittishly in my veins
Convincing me of my worthlessness,
Reminding me,
Over and over and over,
How ugly I am, how pathetic
It jeers at me with those wet dark eyes,
A gaping crimson slash of a mouth opening to spill poisonous cruelty
‘How dare you think you are worth anything?’
‘How dare you presume anyone could love you?’
‘How dare you impose yourself on those higher beings – your loved ones?’
Rebuffed, reproached, reviled, I heed the mocking hisses
And shrink away,
Imploding, collapsing into myself, like an unwanted building crumbling to the ground
In a cloud of dust and decay
I begin to walk with hunched shoulders,
To keep my eyes riveted on the ground beneath my feet,
To recoil from eye contact as if it could burn my fragile retinas,
And all the time my ungainly awkward footsteps beat a rhythmic tattoo –
‘You’re worthless, you’re worthless, you’re worthless…’
No, I'm not making that promise again nothing can change my mind, nothing at all. Cause
LOVE has a way of coming undone until I'm all alone with my Heart, the pain's all here to
stay.
"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed my Heart
since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I ALWAYS THOUGHT
I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".
Now there's no need to run to the phone, no need to hold your breath, hoping it's you, each
time I see someone we used to know, or go some place we used to go, it's not the same.
"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed my Heart
since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I ALWAYS THOUGHT
I'D SEE YOU AGAIN".
LOVE doesn't come when you need LOVE, it's not always there when you fall, try as you may
you've got nothing to say, nothing at all.
"I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", how it hurts everytime you've crossed my Heart
since then, gotta give it all it takes to hold what might have been, and "I ALWAYS THOUGHT
I'D SEE YOU AGAIN", I realize now that "I'M NOT ALWAYS GONNA SEE YOU AGAIN" THE END.
Her screams tore through the air like lightning.
The heavens heard in horror.
The air collapsed under the noise as if to clap.
My heart jumped.
The pain was destroying my interior.
I tried to collect my being,
for if I hadn't it might have been my last move.
The pain of anger ragged over me.
God heard my pleas but ignored.
I prayed what I hoped would be my last prayer.
Tears splashed off the atmosphere,
And flowed like I ragging river.
I sat in the darkness.
An Armageddon couldn't break the dead silence.
I prayed and focused for my heart to stop.
My heart and anger ragged like a fire from hell.
I hoped that I would combust.
My instinct was to scream in horror,
But my body wouldn't allow me.
My body lay so still as if to be a statue.
My brain dreamed of images of horrific scenes of death.
My blood ran hot with anger.
The devil seemed to posses me.
I begged the universe to destroy me or her.
I couldn't hold myself.
I blacked out from furiousness.
My heart ran cold for her being.
My brain wandered.
Possibilities became clear.
Something vital became immanent.
The real monster was myself.
i've chased dragons of destruction ever since i was conceived
perversion skewed my thoughts and turned the pure into obscene
the clean was made quite dirty and the good was made quite bad
while laughter was around me still the happy turned to sad
fear it filled my broken heart and hate came to the rescue
iniquity out of innocence...i rose like hannibal lector
haphazardly put together thin sticks turned into steel...a rabbits mind turned ravenous soon blood would have to spill
my heart got pierced with arrows...made of flesh now turned to stone
with wrath and vengeance in my soul i had to walk alone
way down in the valley this predator stalked its prey...while looking deep into their eyes they knew it was their final day
demons stayed behind me...i could hear their taunts and laughs
while i was chasing dragons destruction was my path
dragons of delusion and dragons of disease...the dragons of addiction were caught too easily
the hunter was the hunted and the master was the slave
i don't chase destructive dragons cause they're really chasing me
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