Monster Within Me

Her screams tore through the air like lightning.
The heavens heard in horror.
The air collapsed under the noise as if to clap.
My heart jumped.
The pain was destroying my interior.
I tried to collect my being,
for if I hadn't it might have been my last move.

The pain of anger ragged over me.
God heard my pleas but ignored.
I prayed what I hoped would be my last prayer.
Tears splashed off the atmosphere,
And flowed like I ragging river.

I sat in the darkness.
An Armageddon couldn't break the dead silence.
I prayed and focused for my heart to stop.
My heart and anger ragged like a fire from hell.
I hoped that I would combust.
My instinct was to scream in horror,
But my body wouldn't allow me.
My body lay so still as if to be a statue.
My brain dreamed of images of horrific scenes of death.

My blood ran hot with anger.
The devil seemed to posses me.
I begged the universe to destroy me or her.
I couldn't hold myself.
I blacked out from furiousness.

My heart ran cold for her being.
My brain wandered.
Possibilities became clear.
Something vital became immanent.
The real monster was myself.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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December 31, 2010 at 7:13 PM
Tayler, congrats on your featured poem of the week. Hope you are enjoying the new year. May you be blessed with a wonderful & joyful New Year! Take care*Luv~SKAT
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December 29, 2010 at 2:15 AM
Congratulations, this is a great poem. very well written, i can really feel the anger.
Brown Avatar
December 27, 2010 at 8:59 AM
Congratulations on your wonderful poetry being featured this week at PoetrySoup Tayler. Love, Carol
Mehta Avatar
December 5, 2010 at 5:43 AM
Congratulations on this well deserved win in the contest of Ryland, Tayler
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November 30, 2010 at 4:21 PM
Congratulations on your win in the contest..Sara
Brown Avatar
November 29, 2010 at 5:08 AM
Congratulations Tayler on your win in Ryland Matthew's "My Darkest Hour" contest. Love, Carol
Neels Avatar
November 28, 2010 at 12:10 AM
Tayler, congratulations on your awesome win in the contest ;-)
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November 27, 2010 at 12:04 PM
Tayler, Congratulations on this outstanding poem. Agape, Moses
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November 27, 2010 at 8:27 AM
Anyone who feels this much remorse is certainly not a monster, Tayler. The emotion in this poem is so strong. I pray you receive blessings of serenity to help you cope with these feelings. Congratulations on your win in Ryland's contest. Peace and blessings, Carolyn
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November 27, 2010 at 6:58 AM
Congrats Tayler on your big win in Ryland's contest with this rare beauty entry my friend.. so nice to see u on this winners list .. enjoy with luv and happy weekend too..
Mehta Avatar
November 27, 2010 at 6:10 AM
Accept my heartfelt congratulations on this win in the contest, Tayler
A   Avatar
November 16, 2010 at 6:13 PM
very cool write, good ending, enjoyed,..p.d.
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November 15, 2010 at 6:55 PM
That rage is a beast of a monster, I can feel in your work....Thanks for your comments and reading my work!
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