Best Hutchins Poems
If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
You fill my days, my nights, my dreams
You’re all that’s on my mind
Your laugh I’ll never hear again
Your smile I’ll never see
Memories now are all I have
Since loneliness found me
Time was never on your side
Your short life had to end
Now I'm left in pain without
My love and my best friend
The sadness, the emptiness
The pain I have to face
Will never leave my life
For you’re a loss I can’t replace
Even though the rain will fall
And the sun will still shine on
My life will just exist
Because my whole world now is gone
You are an Angel high above now
Watching over me
But someday I know once again
Together we will be
You’re my angel in the sky above
Holding all my broken love
And though I’m lost down here alone
I know one day you’ll lead me home
So I’ll wait for the day we meet again
Where goodbye won’t ever have to end
Till then I’ll carry you inside my soul
You were my heart… you made me whole..
For when my time on earth is done
You’ll come and take my hand
And guide us to eternal love
Together in God's land..
By Raina Hutchins
I know I haven't seen you
I know we’re miles apart
I know I cannot hold you
But I feel you in my heart
Is it wrong to think of you
And you to think of me
Trying not to want
What we know can never be
Wondering, should we start this
But it’s already begun
Unable to undo
Potential damage that’s been done
Torn between what’s right and wrong
And what I feel inside
Knowing what will be there
When I look into your eyes
Feeling so confused right now
I find it hard to sleep
I know I’m standing on the edge
Of something much too deep
If we fall, will we lose it all
Or find a love we can't deny
Just one touch could change it all
So tell me, do we run...or do we try
If this is fate, I don't want to fight
Even if forever isn't true
I want to feel you for just one night
So I can hold on to you
Destined for one night of love
One night that we will treasure
One night filled with ecstasy
Where we will come together
But when our night is done, I wonder
Will you set me free...
Will you let me go...
Will you remember me...
By Raina Hutchins
You're on my mind all of the time
In dreams when I’m asleep
I know I should be running, but
With you I'm in too deep
Why you came into my life
I guess I’ll never know
Why can’t I hold on to you
Instead of letting go
I never made you promises
I knew it wasn’t fair
For I’m not free to love you
I'm not free to care
“Keep it real” you always say
But you must try to see
That all this love you have inside
Just isn’t meant for me
Have you heard the saying
“Nothing good will last forever”
Just remember what we had
And what we shared together
My time with you was not enough
I knew I couldn’t stay
We’ll never have tomorrow
But we did have yesterday
You took me on journey
To a place I’ve never been
A feeling so insatiable
A night of lust and sin
For you I’ll always hunger
Our connection was insane
But while I hold the memory
Someone else will speak your name
Will you still remember me
When you’re with someone new
Will you still feel me
When I’m reaching out for you
If I’d had the chance to take
Possession of your soul
I would have made it smile
I would have made you whole
You and I can never be
Our worlds are far apart
But you I won’t forget
For you’re engraved here in my heart
Will you grant my last request
And stay for one more night
If it’s wrong to feel like this
I don’t want to be right
And when the dawn arises
You will dry the tears I cry
You’ll hold me one last time
Before we kiss and say goodbye...
By Raina Hutchins
Thinking back on you and I
It doesn’t seem that long
It’s hard for me believing how
The years have come and gone
Everything about you still
So fresh inside my mind
Precious memories locked away
But never left behind
I shared with you my daytimes
But my nights I spent alone
It tore my heart to know your nights
Were not spent on your own
I knew the risks involved
Because you wore a wedding ring
But I never knew the pain for me
That wedding band would bring
For years my heart was frozen
From a love that it once knew
But I knew my heart had melted
When I fell in love with you
With you and I together
So many things were shared
But most importantly
I never said how much I cared
I tried to hide this love from you
Afraid to let you see
Not knowing of the child we’d made
Growing inside of me
I knew I’d never be with you
I never could have stayed, because
We took away this tiny life
That you and I had made
There’s nothing else you could have done
On you I lay no blame
But now my life feels empty
Full of sadness, loss and shame
I would give my all to spend
Another night with you
For you to hold me in your arms
And say you love me too
But if this never happens
Then I want to tell you still
I loved you then, I love you now
I know I always will
And though we lost what might have been
Your ghost still lingers deep within
A love that time cannot undo
I always will come back to you
I loved you then, I love you now
Even if I don’t know how, to
Let you go or set you free...
You'll always be a part of me.....
By Raina Hutchins
My life is torn between two worlds
Of now and used to be
But all I ever wanted
Was the world of you and me
Memories of the only love
That I have ever known
It’s hard to hold them in my heart
But hard to let them go
At times I wonder who I am
Where did I go wrong
Why am I so lonely
In a life I don’t belong
I'm learning how to breath
Without your name
How to love myself
Through all this pain
If letting go
Is the only way I'm free
I need to say goodbye to you
And live again for me
I know my heart will never heal
While feeling so much pain
I’ll never find the sunshine
While I’m following the rain
Too late now for miracles
They wouldn’t change a thing
For someone else’s finger
Now wears your wedding ring
But though our song has ended
You still want us to dance
And though I’m still in love with you
My heart can't take the chance
Forever I will miss you
And forever I will cry, but
To find myself again
I know I have to say goodbye..
By Raina Hutchins
I feel my mind go wondering back
And let the years unfold
To when I first met you
When we were just eleven years old
So innocent and young we were
Just holding hands together
When we shared our first kiss
I thought you’d stay with me forever
But then as we grew up
I left behind my school girl days
It broke my heart to turn our backs
And go our separate ways
And as the years passed by
I tried to put you from my mind
For I had family ties now
Leaving memories far behind
But you and I had something
That forever would be there
A love that grew from innocence
That no one else could share
And though I tried forgetting
In my heart you did remain
For deep inside I knew one day
Our paths would cross again
We couldn’t hide our feelings
Though we both knew it was wrong
For we were man and woman now
The boy and girl had gone
But deep inside we’d always known
That 'we' could never be
While you were tied to someone else
I had my family
So once again you walk away
But never will you know
The sadness and the pain inside
The tears I'll never show
The heartache that will stay with me
Until the day I die
For you will always be the love I lost
Who said goodbye...
By Raina Hutchins
As daylight dawns my eyes close
On another sleepless night
So cold and all alone without
Your arms to hold me tight
I look out through the glass
And watch the sunrise in the sky
And still I find no answers
As again I’m asking why
My nights they seem so endless
Then I face another day
So full of pain and loneliness
Since God took you away
People say that time will heal
That I’ll get over you
That one day I will laugh again
That I’ll find someone new
I only wish they’d understand
Why that will never be
I’ll never love another
For you were my destiny
Take me back to when we were
I need you by my side
For every night I'll call your name
And in your love I'll always hide
And though I've tried to carry on
My fears I cannot hide
I just can’t face this world alone
Without you by my side
The tablet bottles empty now
And on our bed I lay
I put my hands together
Then I close my eyes and pray
"Please God will you send back down
My Angel from above
Then he will gently take my hand
And lead me back to love..
He’ll guide the way to Heaven
Where together we will be
Two Angel's who are blessed with love
For all eternity"...
By Raina Hutchins
I looked into your eyes and saw the window to my soul
And knew right then for me there’s only you
I knew this was forever, I surrendered to this love
I was lost every time I looked at you
I felt I had I been searching, trying every door
But every flame I lit too quickly died
Until the day I found you, just waiting there for me
I knew I’d always want you by my side
My love for you was easy, innocent and blind
There were no chains or walls around my heart
With you there was beginning, there’d never be an end
I never dreamed we’d ever be apart
Sometimes we lost touch with our feelings inside
We had our share ups and downs and fears
But mostly we were happy, so I guess I never dreamed
My happiness would be replaced with tears
On the day you left me, devastated, in despair
And emptiness invaded all my days
My fragile heart was shattered, broken beyond repair
With too much pain that time cannot erase
In love you’re always standing, you never learn to fall,
Or stop to think what life is all about
You never dream that one day there’s a chance you’ll be alone
You never dream this love you’ll be without
Your presence here still lingers...it won’t leave me alone
It haunts my days, my nights, my thoughts, my dreams
I don’t know how to do this and be here on my own
This loss is so much harder than it seems
I know I mustn’t let the past destroy what comes tomorrow
But without you I don’t know how to feel
Without you I’m broken, I’m lost and so alone
Without you I don’t know how to heal
I'd find you in the darkness, I'd call you through the pain
Through every shattered memory, I'd love you just the same
If time could turn around, I'd still choose you and me
Cause even when you're gone...you're everything I see
But even in my shattered world so shaken to its core
A second chance for you and I to be
I know I wouldn't hesitate; I know I’d take you back
For without you in life, there is no me...
By Raina Hutchins
If I stay will you hold me
And comfort me through my tears
If I go will you miss me
And live with regret through the years
If I stay will you kiss me
With the passion you used to show
If I go will you let me
Be someone you used to know
I’ve given you all of my fragile,
Every tear I tried to hide
But love shouldn’t feel like a battle
Just to stand here by your side.
If I stay will you promise
To always be faithful and true
If I go will you fetch me
And bring me back home to you
If I stay will you keep me
Tucked safely away in your heart
If I go will you find me
Or let us drift slowly apart
If I stay will you love me
Promise to not hurt me again
If I go will you stop me
And heal this crippling pain
So tell me - is this worth saving
Or am I just afraid to be alone
If I’m already breaking without you
Maybe I’m stronger on my own
The choice I make now is forever
But what to do...I don’t know
Forgive, forget and be happy
Stay with you...or just let go...
By Raina Hutchins
Tonight we will be lovers
Tomorrow we’ll be friends
With you there’s no beginning
With me there’ll be no end
For just one night I will be yours
And you’ll belong to me
Tonight we’ll set the fire alight
We’ll set our passions free
I need to feel your touch
I need to feel you deep inside
Fulfilling all my needs
Until the sun begins to rise
Tonight, feed every hunger
That’s ever gone unfed
Live out every fantasy
Hidden in your head
Work your magic on me baby
Take me from behind
I’ll drop down on my knees for you
And slowly blow your mind
We’ll lose ourselves between the sheets
Where whispered truths and heartbeats meet
No promises beyond tonight
Just you and me till morning light
With every kiss, with every touch,
With every sweet caress
My body you will own
My soul you will possess
As you make sweet love to me
My juices overflow
In every sense I’ll feel you...
You’ll feel me too, I know
As the dawn draws closer
In your eyes I’ll see
Everything your feeling
As you lay inside of me
And when the sun arises
You’ll whisper in my ear
The word I know you have to say
That I don’t want to hear
We both know "one night only"
Would be all we ever knew
But always I will treasure
Every moment spent with you
By Raina Hutchins
You live a thousand miles away
So far across the sea
Still I search the reason why
Fate brought you here to me
I never dreamed I’d feel this way
From just one night with you
And always I’ll be wondering
If you still feel it too
If I could turn the hands of time
Or change the rivers flow
You wouldn’t drift away from me
I wouldn’t let you go
I live a lie of happiness
So no one sees my pain
Because I fear forever more
I won’t see you again
Time will pass and tears will fall
But still I won’t forget
For you’re the one night in my life
I never will regret
Across the distance, I feel your touch,
A fleeting night that meant so much,
Though time will steal what we once knew,
My heart will always wait for you
Memories and dreams
Are all that’s left to hold on to
But while I hold the dream
Someone else is holding you
You were my “Once in a Lifetime”
The moment of truth in my lies
Never will I find again
What I found when I looked in your eyes
My dreams are what keep me going
And I can’t wait to turn out the light
In sleep is when I am with you
And I don’t want to miss you tonight
I'm now just a memory in your past
You'll think of once in a while
But somehow, I know each time you do
My memory will make you smile
I'll always be your Juliet
And you my Romeo
And always ail be waiting
Because you had me from hello...
By Raina Hutchins
I didn’t choose to leave you
For here I don’t belong
But Heaven is my home now
So please my love be strong
I know you cannot hear me
So I'm sending you this prayer
I need for you close your eyes
And feel that I'm still there
When no one’s there to hold you up
You don’t know what to do
When your legs will walk no more
I will carry you
When you stumble down and fall
Take my hand and rise
For when you cannot find your way
I will be your eyes
So lift your eyes when nights are long,
And whisper out my name,
For love like ours can’t fade away,
A love, not even death can change
Know that when you’re crying
I will wipe away your tears
When dreams are there to haunt you
I will fight away your fears
When loneliness surrounds you
And covers you with fear
Know I’m standing by your side
Know I'm always here
When you feel you can’t go on
When pain is just too real
Know I’ll never leave
Until your scars begin to heal
When dark descends upon you
And sleep no longer comes
I will lie beside you
Till you see the rising sun
I’m only just beyond the sky
Not very far from you
Though you can’t see or touch my hand
My love will pull you through
I know you’ll keep me in your heart
Even though I'm gone
For time cannot erase our love
In you, it will live on...
By Raina Hutchins
You were the reason for my smile
But it's been vacant for a while
You are the reason why I’m here
I’m nothing without you
You are the reason for my song
The tears I’m crying all night long
Where did you and I go wrong
I’m nothing without you
No one here to see me cry
When you tell me one more lie
No one here to watch me die
I’m nothing without you
My colourless existence
Fades to blue
Every dream that I dreamed
Slowly slips out of view
Every night feels so empty,
Every day feels so long
Since the moment you left me
All the light is gone
If love was our forever
Tell me what I should do
Cause I’m lost in this life
I’m nothing without you
Remember what we used to be
Now your shadow lives inside of me
You never hear me when I plea
I'm nothing without you
Now I’m lonely, sad and free
Fading in your memory
Your arms are where I need to be
I’m nothing without you
No more sunshine; only rain
No more laughter; only pain
Forever lonely I’ll remain
I’m nothing without you
I know my broken heart won't mend
I know I’ve lost my love, my friend
I know my life has reached its end
I’m nothing without you...
By Raina Hutchins
While you’re watching over all your children from above
Listening as they send to you a prayer
Please God will you take some time to listen to my child
And find a way to let her know you’re there
Through the years she suffered a very tragic loss
Her happy life was shattered; torn apart
She tries so hard to hide the lonely tears she cries at night
She tries so hard to hide her broken heart
Through the years she put aside her sadness and her pain
And found the strength to be both mum and dad
She never let them see the hurt, they only saw her smile
Although she’d lost the only love she had
She's struggled through the ups and downs that losing someone brings
She battled on and fears were cast aside
But every day I see the hurt and pain I know she feels
I see the unshed tears that fill her eyes
But now I see her worrying for someone else she loves
Her child...her precious life and soul
I watch the pain and sadness returning to her life
I watch the years of heartache take its toll
So please God will you take a while and listen to her prayers
Let her worries, and her burdens cease
Take away her pain and sorrow, dry her lonely tears
And help my daughter find a sense of peace
When the tears she hides so well are falling in the dark
When the world feels heavy from all the pain she's known
When the night feels long...and the road is hard to bear
Let her know she's never on her own
I need for her to know you’re there no matter what life brings
To guide her when I know she's lost her way
I need to know that once again a smile will reach her eyes
That happiness, she will find again someday...
By Raina Hutchins
Why did God create a life
That wasn’t meant to be
Why did He give eyes
If they were never meant to see
Why did He put breath in you
Then take that breath away
Why give you to me
If you were never meant to stay
Why show someone happiness
And how it feels to smile
And fill their hearts with hope
If it can only last a while
Why did God create the sun
When all it does is rain
How am I supposed to laugh
When all I feel is pain
I keep calling out your name
In the silence of the night
Praying somehow love like ours
Still exists beyond this life
Why let people dream
Knowing their dreams will not come true
Why should I find someone else
When all I want is you
Why say there’s a Heaven
When it doesn’t help to pray
Why is there tomorrow
When I long for yesterday
If Heaven holds you in its arms
Tell me somehow, it’s true
Because this broken heart keeps beating
Only just to be with you
What’s the point in searching
Knowing you’re not there to find
Why give someone life
If death is following behind
So why God when He took my love
Did He not take me too
For life is not worth living
If it means I don’t have you...
By Raina Hutchins