Best Confusionheart Poems
By Debbie Guzzi & Robin Gass
He was kind, he was my friend, think again.
As to a fathers open arms, we ran.
A child’s trust flows like sand, shatters like glass.
Thus, exposing the naked lust of man.
As to a fathers open arms, we ran.
This child’s heart knew only of the good.
Thus exposing the naked lust of man.
Confused, her trust lay splintered where she stood.
This child's heart knew only of the good.
Yet naked her friend’s father eyes meet hers.
Confused, her trust lay splintered where she stood.
an innocent destroyed, for she felt cursed.
Yet naked her friend’s father’s eyes meet hers.
Friendship slain by a fathers twisted deed
an innocent destroyed, for she felt cursed.
As in her mind now grows, this vile scene.
A **** at five, so shamed, so deflowered
A child’s trust flows like sand, shatters like glass.
No love or lovers now her soul devoured..
He was kind, he was my friend, think again.
The heart...
The mind...
Our emotions...
The three are ever so often in conflict of truth.
Yet surprisingly, the heart seeks truth through the mind,
With the emotions felt.
What I may be feeling inside,
May quite well not be what I am thinking,
And certainly not what I want to express or may be expressing.
Confused?
Think about it.
It is true that what is of the heart remains true.
What is of the mind seeks reassurance.
Our emotions...our emotions are ever changing.
I sit and write this poem with joy - Emotion.
In confusion - The Mind
In truthfulness - The Heart
Even more so, there is conflict.
Conflict in what this poem is really saying.
im shattered im torn
my heart skips a beat its worn
will it stop who knows
my love continues it grows
I hid my pain for so long
maybe this is where i went wrong
no longer am i strong cant go on
sitting in dispare these feelings aint fair
where did i go wrong
my heart played its love song
beating so strong inside
now receeding like the tide
in my poetry i confide
because theres nothing but heart ache outside
sitting in my room thinking is this love lost
about to seal my doom what a cost
like a tree in autum breaks it heart by shedding leaves
only to grow and bloom and show its love again
what a wonderful sight
but am i right
she feels the same today
but things said just wont go away
can you forgive if you cant forget
is this why im filled with regret
is lifes path allready set
like footprints in the sand
pretty patterns so grand
the tides strength they cant withstand
watch as they wash away
make there last stand
and become but a memory
the end
higgledy piggledy
like my head
hope someone enjoys this off the cuff rhyme
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Giving few chances and insight
One must show extreme devotion
To earn her trust, her respect, her heart
For her heart will never be easily broken
Or given, of her own free will
She cannot control her desires
She too, like many others
Desires to be desired
Wants to be wanted, held, cherished
Yet she goes about her emotions
In contrast to the average female
She portrays unattainability
Innocence, character, in the light of a damaged being
With grudges towards her former perpetrators
If one should take the notion
To venture into her soul
One would see a joyous woman
Dying to live her life
The way she imagines it
She's chosen not to see
How she is the source of her own destruction
She doesn’t let people in
For fear of loss, anguish, and heartache
She doesn’t see her actions being detrimental
But merely as a precaution, but precaution to what?
If she does not live with caution to the wind
She has nothing to be cautious of
She never lets herself feel, cry, mourn,
She has all the answers but none of the questions
She knows and learns through others
But cannot relate by experience
This cannot be blamed on her alone
She has a life ahead of her
Waiting, waiting
For her heart to grow
To break through the chains
She’s placed on herself
And conquer the dream
She’s never dared to dream
Form:
This hurt just never ends
This heart just never mends
I gave you everything I could
You knew I would
You've taken this heart that was once so complete
And corrupted it with your deceit
I should've known you lacked he capacity to love me
I should've known we couldn't be
But I went against my better judgment for you
And now this is what you put me through
A day I cannot go without the thought of ending it all
You've made me fall
I've fallen into a hole so deep
Because this love for you I will always keep.
How I wish I had turned the other way
Because then I might have been okay
To think this all fell apart after coming so far
You know who you are.
Form:
How can my heart hold
So much emotion?
It's soaking and soaking,
And there's no expulsion.
I need just that someone.
That friend to confide.
Or my heart will explode and reveal whats inside.
Form:
Encouragement, to stand strong;
against the discouragement, of
doing wrong.
Trying to change, before its too late;
deranged, cause I'm staring in the
eyes of my fate.
I thought, I finally had it; I fought,
maybe its more than just a habit.
Could it be me, that's so screwed
up; not worried bout the enemy,
but by the Lord don't want to get
chewed up.
Once again, it's time to make a
crucial decision; D.T.R. with a close
friend, refusal to lead to removal of
this brutal incision.
Complications, left and right;
frustrations, day and night.
My heart screaming your name,
what if utters my brain; I'm older
now this love thing isn't a game, yet
situations repeating itself like stops
on a train.
Confusion, created by self; illusion,
bad for my heart or my health?
State of mind, half past crazy; point
in time, all or nothing can't be
shady.
My mouth saying no, but actions not
matching; i say whatever you want
goes, however you throwing balls
but I'm not catching.
You say its up to me, regardless
you'll be my friend; but truthfully, if
I can't be with you I can't see u
again...
(Note: DTR= Determine The
Relationship)
they say time will heal a broken heart , time is all it takes.
but if your heart is very weck it could fall right out of place.
it will take some time too mend it back with alot of god's good grace.
too know you loved and lost again it's hard to really say.
it takes a peice of all you have from smileing and from hope it leave's
you lonely and broken inside that know one could take there place.
but the hurt that's inside you will someday make you strong and let you see how
strong you are that hurt's will finely be gone and you'll relize your the charming one
and life is good too live cause looking at the world out there ,there's so much love to give.
Form:
MY HEART FEELS LIKE A VULCANO,
THAT WANTS TO ERUPT.
GUSHING OUT BOILING BLACK TAR
IT WANTS TO SET MY EMOTIONS FREE,
‘CAUSE IT’S BEEN BOTTLED UP FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS
I KEEP MY HEART FROM ERUPTING, BECAUSE I DON’T LIKE THE CONSEQUENCES THAT IT CARRIES
IT MAKES ME FEEL WEAK, BUT YET AGAIN I GAIN CONTROLE
AND MY HEATR FEELS LIGHTER
ONCE IT ERUPTS THERE’S NO WAY STOPPING IT,
FOR MY HEART NEEDS TO EXPRESS ITS FEELINGS TO,
EVEN THOUGH IT MIGHT NOT AGREE WITH MY EXPECTATION
I ON THE OTHER HAND MUST GAIN CINTROLE AND TRY TO MAIN MY INSANITY, BEFORE IT TAKES
CONTROLE OF ME
Form:
People talk about it but you don’t really care
They can see right through the whole in your heart that you wear
You don’t stop for nothing, there is nothing worth stopping for
And if you turn around
You might be right back where you were
I want you to know that my heart is broken by you
Just find a way to fix it you can make it drip with glue
Soon I'll be wishing that I cared but I don't give a damn,
Soon enough I'll be finding out who I really am.
Form:
My heart is ice
My heart is cold
Impregnable
You cannot defeat me
I am final
ME!
No one else
Huh! If only someone else could be
If only someone… could defeat ME!
Maybe then, I wouldn’t be so alone
So haunted, so scared, and so feared!
So inspired
By nothingness
But the lives I destroy
To write in my own blood
I am destined to
It is in my veins
But how could that be!
Surely, this power is not of inheritance
Because I am better
Because I am me!
And me is final
My eye's stare blankly at this empty paper, contemplating just what I should write.
For all of my tears, are only for his delight. Why can't I stop all this dismall writing?
My mind wanting happy, yet my heart still fighting. Why can't I keep my thoughts
away from him? Beside's, looking back I see all we shared was sin. A fond embrace,
a long kiss to start, the look on his face, and I the damsal to play the part.
How long can I keep going on like this pathetic heart broken girl, when all I ever
wanted was for him to share my world. Dreams of dismay, nightmares of the sun,
wish I could say, all of it was fun.
The darkest hour of my darkest day, has lead me on the path this way. Why can't I
just bleed out the rest, move this mountain, complete the test.
All I have left is who I am, and honestly I don't know who that is anymore;
Except a broken down woman,
Who was beaten, and still sore.
Enter the holy city. The light upon the hill. Live faith. Reject pity. Eat no more than your fill. Learn from the misunderstood. Teach those, by words and deed. Holding to that which is good. Or rejecting good replaced by evil seed. The temptress. Lithia, the controling demon, now outcast. Roams to decieve, then molest. Tell me Lithia, are you rolling? Do you think it will last? Battle worn, now may I rest? Hair so light, ever shining. Lithia flows like a stream. Her eyes so bright. No silver lining. Tell me are you just a dream. Laugh like a jester. Steal my heart like a thief. A boil now to fester. Real, my heart ripped out by your teeth. Lithia, how you possess me? You enter my every thought.Lithia, why molest me? I, your beast of burdon. I have been bought. Bought and sold by Lithia.
It must of been me, I keep telling myself that when you left.
It must of been something I said or did.
I can't help but love you and if I was wrong to do so I need to know.
I gave you my heart and soul and it's hard for me to let go more now because I can't
understand why you left me when all I did was love you.
Tears roll down my face and I haven't slept in days.
For you took my love for you and ran with it to someone
else.
I sit here in this empty dark cold room and the only sound you can
hear is the beat of my heart fading slowly.
slipping sideways
cant think straight
blind date confiscated
see through side view
in the trees
the whispering breeze
thoughts slipping away this way
The morning the rooster screams us awake
cant speak my language
new wave gobblede gook
you will never see through
just hope you understand my hate has potential
also my love for you
the psychic wildfire we cannot see
i hate you too
differently than you hate me
set me free
from this blank and white conspiracy
its getting colder
seasons as weapons
its getting colder
a place no one goes
something to piece together
how is it no one knows
Music industry nothing more than disorganized thinking
what i said upstairs was what i said upstairs
here we find ourselves on middle ground
the porcupine and the rooster
the farmer forgot
mood kill
sleeping the wake
the surprise of the oh my goodness
if only i would have woke up
before the rooster crowed
my poor dog marbles has quills in his nose
its getting colder
cant say i know this
forget what you know
we are always the same
to be different this way
exhausted from the intricate ciecles
that cause my headache
and the music industry rediagnosed
disorganised thinking
conspiritual unfit king
song and dance
covered moons
and finances
broken legs
and hopefullls
i put my marble down for the night
look at it another way tomorrow
just another satisfied customer
conning his way to his money back guarantee
never this confused
the muse has schitsophrenia of the disorganised type
marble my spoons
and lets make pancakes
song and dance charade
king unfit of sex and diamonds
my heart on my sleeve
king of pain
and distract you from this rusty cage
break out again
one more day
yesterday came
top hat too heavy
and the joke is on me
or did you see this blessing coming?
unpredictable brigade with no champagne
spooning my sugar
too much coffee
my head aches
my heart is on my sleeve
digging your grave
a contract for the middle man
victomised by your propoganda
victomised by your government
i'll martyr myself
but this porcupine is tired of his puupet
and the rooster needs sleep