Complicated

Encouragement, to stand strong; against the discouragement, of doing wrong. Trying to change, before its too late; deranged, cause I'm staring in the eyes of my fate. I thought, I finally had it; I fought, maybe its more than just a habit. Could it be me, that's so screwed up; not worried bout the enemy, but by the Lord don't want to get chewed up. Once again, it's time to make a crucial decision; D.T.R. with a close friend, refusal to lead to removal of this brutal incision. Complications, left and right; frustrations, day and night. My heart screaming your name, what if utters my brain; I'm older now this love thing isn't a game, yet situations repeating itself like stops on a train. Confusion, created by self; illusion, bad for my heart or my health? State of mind, half past crazy; point in time, all or nothing can't be shady. My mouth saying no, but actions not matching; i say whatever you want goes, however you throwing balls but I'm not catching. You say its up to me, regardless you'll be my friend; but truthfully, if I can't be with you I can't see u again... (Note: DTR= Determine The Relationship)