he would not avoid the void any longer
like a cliff hanger he dangled at the abys
abysmal emotions told him to leap yet
for action he searched for a jump lead
when silent retreat bonded with Self
nothingness created a vacancy for life
abandoned beautiful child wandering like a lost leaf
all she can do is quiver as rain splinters fall like a river
her name was Clara and she has scary thoughts chimera
she has "tattered, tangled, tatty" hair with eyes aching
she is "hungry, hunched, hurt" a fragment in a chasm abysm
"dangerous, dark, daunting" doorways she seeks as a sleeping place
frail, gaunt, helpless her spirit is disconnected and broken_
in the morn' dead on the cement . . . ending her torment
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September 12, 2022
Poetry/Verse/FRAGMENT
Copyright Protected, ID 09-1486-757-12
All Rights Reserved, 2022, Constance La France
Written for the Standard contest, 'The A's Have It '
sponsor, Joseph May, Judged 10/02/2022
Fourth Place
We may even traverse a windblown ledge
together
pang to pang
through maelstroms of life
sometimes slipping into the abys
of wounded minds and unsure times
but within our faith and God's will
we'd come out the other side
battered
but with gifts of empathy- understanding
two blossoms shimmering
in the applause of each other's victories
and the pruning of our defeats-
Just one line of cocaine from sniffing the white powdered abys
She washes her poisonous laundry pegs the bottomless threads
Retrieves her dead tired credit card from a pocket of dissolute fear
06th June 2018
written for three liner contest with 17 syllables max per line
Syllables checked on howmanysyllables.com
Me, an infant of time,
every second my age, every minute
the further I fade,
Too many questions asked and none replied,
So many people past and mine implied
A distant star you see with but one eye
Will you answer or will you lie?
You are watching of that I believe,
Your hands on your back, you smile as I leave
Should I be expecting you
After all the feelings you had me pass through,
My soul and body are lost in fathomless abys
Would you come all the way to set it all free.
I wish to be justified
I want justification
I check all of the angles
Yet I lack inclination
I'm drawn to lesser things
The pleasured dark places
All of the brighter bits
vanish between spaces
Hurting and wanting
intense variable extremes
Tearing, ripping, shredding
through the fabric of my dreams
I pound desperately on mirrors
ten thousand shards of slivered glass
They lay on the floor like questions
and cut me deeply as I pass
Strange droplets of pleasure
as blood oozes from my feet
Smeared on reflective surfaces
the residual pain of a sad heart beat
The more I resist my truer nature
the further down to the abys I go
what seemed almost innocent in the beginning
has helped my inner conflict to grow
In the end I need a more potent blood
So I reach up towards a Loving pierced hand
It was never about having to change myself
What I tried to know I now understand
Blood of redemption a strange thing
The fabric of my life is restored
A price paid by a blameless soul
A price paid that I could never afford!
The stressors that exist are only an abyss.
As I walk through the ravine, I know staying is the penalty.
Abys, I will not suffer for being a buffoon.
Tears on the wind and emotions are no more.
The abuse that is writhed is not to be remembered.
The tears I have cried have soothed my soul.
Once I voided the love, I became whole.
Tears in the wind and no sentiments to give just a spirit attained.
Driving fast with my hair in the air, life flashes and a sigh is all that is given.
I am not to be gorged back into pain.
I am to pedestal because I have attained freedom from an abusive man.
Tears on the wind, tears in the rain, pain is knowing that I cannot overcome
an abusive man.
Joy is my sunshine again.
Thus, I am letting the world know I win!
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Penned on May 21, 2014!
My thought's wonder to a diffrent place an time,
to a diffrent state of mind.
I can't help but think about my past,
an all the things that didd'nt last.
What will be diffrent this time around.
Will I get my feet on solid ground,
or will I fall into that abys again.
Where i'm lost,and I can't stand.
I feel so confused,an dazed.
Will I go foward or just stand in place.