What To Search For Contest

I care, I search, this much is true I'm lost, I'm found, I misconstrue My mind is keen to self besmirch This much is true, I care, I search They're hard to sort, truth from lies When interspersed with alibis I've given it far too much thought Truth from lies, they're hard to sort I tell it straight, upset the system Follow my own messed up wisdom I'm totally genuine when I advocate Upset the system, I tell it straight