Unwanted Nightmare

Dream that plays as if from a horror flick; Images fly forward, Things hidden and not wanted; It plays through and I wonder, Is this what my heart wants, What it yearns for inside; It's too late, too impossible, It's only the past, Coming to haunt me, Torture me inside, With regrets; The time wasted together, the times I held, sacred, dear and ones that that lasts forever; I wish I could erase it, Pour bleach into my brain, Burn it out, wash it away, So I wouldn't look at him, and think of you; He's not you, Never will ever, And for that I'm grateful; What we had wasn't good, But it could've been better; And you ended it with her, Worse than me; But I know it's your life, Your choice and mistake; I can't say I love you, But I definitely can't say I don't; So just go away, Fade into the abyss, Like you were never here, Because it kills me inside; And I'll leave this alone, This unwanted nightmare