Priyanka Malhotra Poet Free verse

Unintended Beauty

 Unintended beauty

I was not meant to be beautiful
So when I cut my hair 
To sculpt my face perfectly
I forget...
When I slip-on that satin lingerie 
Or drape yards of chiffon around me
Ensuring the fabric hugs my body tightly
And flaunt my curves rightly
I forget...
When I slip into them heels and wear a hot pout
When I put on all this makeup to cover every inch of my doubt
I forget...

I forget. 
That this, was not, 
What I intended to be!
I am not beautiful and beauty is neither my destination,
Nor my destiny

I am not that beautiful satin robe
Nor the perfect beach waves worthy of a stare 
I am the late night clumsy PJs. 
My messy morning hair
I am the poems gushing from my veins
I am every inch of my despair
I am my fingertips restless on this typewriter 
And the broken heart they toil to repair

Then why must I cut myself thin,
Why shed the ugly from my skin
Why must I forget? 
That my bone structure
Is not an architectural marvel
For tourists to revel in its beauty
It’s a shelter of the soul
Sacred to people who call it home. 

I am too much of everything I am
I am my fierceness, my passion
But also the sweetest form of honey 
I am my hysterical laughter 
But also midnight rants 
I am a ray of hope
But I never leave darkness’s hands
I just leave claw marks on hearts
I am a marvelous contradiction
Subtly, too much of everything I am

How is it that I permit myself?
Why over and over I forget 
That I am not beauty 
And she is not me
Hell, she lacks the magnitude to be
For I am too much!
Too much for beauty to behold,
In her pretty, delicate arms.
And I am tired 
Of playing dress-up with her!

So I remind myself,
Every time I forget
To stop slipping into this ugly lie
that covers the beautiful truth I am. 
Yet I am forgetful,
That's why when I intend to be beautiful
I forget.
All the unintended beauty that I already am!

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Beata Agustin September 2, 2024 at 6:59 AM Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.

Rashi Soni June 9, 2020 at 4:52 AM Beautifully written. You do have a divine pen. Best wishes. Rashi Priyanka Malhotra June 10, 2020 at 10:06 AM Thank you so much :)

Mahtab Bangalee June 9, 2020 at 4:31 AM I am not beautiful and beauty is neither my destination, Nor my destiny.......excellently written; well done; nice to read Priyanka Malhotra June 10, 2020 at 10:06 AM Thank you dear :)