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My pen I will confess, For you will hear my every thought Without condemn When I’m alone, my head Is abundant with loud questions Of where I belong I sometimes find myself gazing Through nothingness without an end I find myself drifting Through this life without effect I wonder If I deserve this gift I’ve been given From a god I have forgotten I wonder If I’m worth what I’ve been blessed Eyes to see Ears to listen Hands to touch Mind to think Heart to love Life to live I swirl through days and night Searching for a definition For this life I’m living I often try hard, To analyze and guess, To investigate and ponder For things I don’t understand Somewhere deeper, there must be Some meaning to this life, Some way to make a difference, An ending for the puzzle of the mind ...It's undefined Is there some hidden meaning? Maybe in a dictionary I haven’t found A greater purpose awaits For care and desire It bothers and hurt me, to be always slightly out of sight; A vivid vision out of reach, Where darkness sheds the light I struggle to bring clarity For a vision that might give me an answer Yet, this perfect illusion Always fades before my glare. Just adds more questions, To my tired endless gaze Perhaps I'm trying too hard, To understand it all, For can we ever truly know Just what we have in this haunted soul? But will my searching bring to me The answers i cant define Or will it leave me shattered, And confused as I always am, While questions bring no relief To my wrinkled eyes still... undefined