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The Battle Between Body and Spirit

The battle between body and spirit

Housed as I am,
in this earthenware vessel
I witness,
the raging between body and spirit.
My mood- sullen and morose,
a telling sign-
a flashing indicator-
pointing to a weakness in my will,
a slow debilitating decline in my convictions-
indicating a buttressing of my resolve-
is urgently needed.
This paroxysm has been a body blow,
and my spirit is reeling.
I am cloistered, incarcerated now these three years,
having served a portion of my sentence.
What is my crime?
These four walls,
such contemptible, wretched creatures-
mock me, taunt me, deride me
as weak and worthless; 
but I know better!
I am shackled to the two evil twins-
misery and myalgia-
myrmidons- secret agents of the devil
serving at his pleasure.
Hell-bent they are on a wicked crusade
raping and pillaging the golden storehouses
of my treasured faith and hope.
Sacred vaults protect my integrity,
my zeal is still intact.
As I wrestle with my afflictions
I throw tantrums-like a feral beast
charging towards the drawn sword.
However, I succumb to the inevitable.
I sense the folly of the fight and submit,
although-unwillingly to this intransigent,
auto-immune disease.
How do you fight an enemy who is
entrenched in your marrow?
This enemy is coercing me on this death march
and it is unrelenting in it's insistence.
The gates of Sheol*  beckon to me to enter,
I resist the clarion call, although the gravity
draws me ever closer to my sealed fate.
I see visions of paradise, here on earth,
where pain is no more,
and all suffering is a distant memory
until eternity erases it from my mind.
Unfortunately, for me,
looks like I'll be taking the subway,
instead of the train to paradise.



December 17,2018

For Misery contest Edward Ibeh

*Sheol  Hebrew for the grave.
Not hell as a burning place of torment
as is commonly taught and believed.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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Ibeh Avatar
January 5, 2019 at 7:23 PM
Congratulations for finishing at the very top of my contest, John!:-) Very well-deserved!
Hamilton Avatar
January 6, 2019 at 8:12 AM
Thanks so much Edward, that means a lot to me!
Gauthier Avatar
January 5, 2019 at 7:08 PM
Congrats on your well deserved top win, John.
Hamilton Avatar
January 6, 2019 at 8:12 AM
Thanks Line!
Chan Avatar
January 3, 2019 at 8:33 PM
The courage and defiance give this poem a shining eloquence. Great write, John. All the best!
Hamilton Avatar
January 3, 2019 at 10:27 PM
Thanks Bernard I appreciate your positive comments!
Krutsinger Avatar
December 29, 2018 at 10:37 AM
You have prayers from Kansas today John. This is such a beautiful write. The frustration and fruitation of despair is loud and clear and it moved me deeply. You are such a wonderful word maestro! Wow! A fav for me. Straight to my Fav list. I was once in a wheelchair for a month, and on a walker for two, thinking I would never walk alone. My fear kept me from trying. The one thing I did not see here was fear. Lots of hope though. "Sacred vaults protect my integrity, my zeal is still intact."
Hamilton Avatar
December 29, 2018 at 3:12 PM
Thanks Caren for your encouraging comments!
Wolf Avatar
December 27, 2018 at 1:52 PM
John, heartfelt prayers are sent your way! (soupmail, please). Best always, Gershon
Hamilton Avatar
December 27, 2018 at 8:51 PM
Thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers, you are a special man!
Raven Avatar
December 20, 2018 at 10:47 AM
Hi John, I am so sorry to read about your situation. Your poem touches me deeply. It is so hard to read you are facing an illness that, as yet, has no diagnosis. Your Faith sustains you my friend. I pray that they shall find a cause for your ails. I do hate to think of you suffering pain. Your emotions flow deeply in this honest write John. Your friend....Mike,
Hamilton Avatar
December 20, 2018 at 11:55 AM
Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement, and for the visit!
Y. Avatar
December 19, 2018 at 6:15 PM
Hi John, I am sorry to hear that you have been battling an unknown illness for so long. Your faith is tested by the unknown. Keep the faith. I hope your find resolve soon. My prayers are with you:-) Alexis
Hamilton Avatar
December 19, 2018 at 9:18 PM
Thanks Alexis for your kind words and visit!
May Avatar
December 18, 2018 at 7:57 AM
A heartfelt write..So sorry to hear that you are fighting an illness yet to be diagnosed John, wishing you all the best ..soup mail
Hamilton Avatar
December 18, 2018 at 12:10 PM
Thanks Joseph for your kind visit and words of encouragement!
Lane Avatar
December 18, 2018 at 7:38 AM
"How do you fight an enemy who is entrenched in your marrow?"...and "I resist the clarion call..." Those lines are very poetic. What anguish you've been suffering on two fronts, John, but you know what lies ahead. Your body may be weak from ill health but your spirit and faith are strong. So take the subway, train, or that old slow boat; what matters is that we get there and then all suffering will be a distant memory or totally forgotten. Hang in there, my brother.
Hamilton Avatar
December 18, 2018 at 12:09 PM
Thanks Lin, I do feel better getting it out, everyone asks how are you doing, I don't want to burden anyone so I always say ok, but I did feel like it was the end a few days ago, wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy! Take care Lin and thanks for the kind words!
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December 17, 2018 at 5:11 PM
Deeply moving piece you wrote John. It feels so real and painful because it is..indeed you are fighting a dreadful enemy! But I hear your resolve in this courageous write and medical research can bring about miracles. My very best to you for such a miracle! Thank you for sharing.
Hamilton Avatar
December 17, 2018 at 7:45 PM
Thanks Vijay for your kind concern and comforting words. I do feel better after your encouragement.
Sands Avatar
December 17, 2018 at 5:06 PM
Oh my, I can relate to this John and I am so sorry to hear all this. So very hard. Well expressed ! Bless you! :)
Hamilton Avatar
December 17, 2018 at 7:48 PM
Thanks Heidi few understand chronic pain and fatigue, but I know you do. I'm changing cardiologists it's really getting to be too much.
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