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Right Now

I’m not happy nor healthy in my mind right now It’s clouded and bleak Not knowing which direction Not knowing what l seek Can’t sleep , forever tired No interest “to ever do” No motivation nor energy Turmoiled mind and soul ,feeling blue The flame that burns within me No longer burns bright Desperately struggling Just to stay alight I cannot see that light at the end of the tunnel Nor a lighthouse to guide my way I just want to close my eyes right now Until clarity, rationale and time rids my minds disarray

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Jim Slaughter

Date: 12/13/2023 10:51:00 AM

Well, Deb, this is a really bad time of year to have feelings such as these, and, although, I can't imagine what all you're going through, the last two lines, at least to me, indicate that perhaps you do "see that light at the end of the tunnel". Or that you haven't completely given up hope that there is/will be one.

Deb M
Date: 12/15/2023 12:50:00 PM

Hi Jim….these feelings and time in my life were very long ago when my mum passed away. I struggled and it was dark for a long time! Thanks Jim….Debx

Fading Star Silence

Date: 12/12/2023 9:25:00 PM

Ahhh..your words resonate so deeply with me..woven to perfection..I feel the emotions of this piece so deeply..truly touching my soul..I feel too this way and you have so flawlessly and mesmerically expressed it to perfection. Inhaling and exhaling this piece so deeply and unforgettably! Your mind, heart and soul run deep..

Deb M
Date: 12/15/2023 12:48:00 PM

Hi FSS….WOW what a beautiful comment! You are way too kind. I am so pleased you liked it…that makes me happy! Your lovely words encourage me and give me confidence… so l thank you and l am very grateful! Debx

David Fisher

Date: 12/12/2023 4:53:00 PM

Nice look into the depths of a tired soul. My first thoughts is filling out a Christmas wish list would do the trick.

Deb M
Date: 12/15/2023 12:43:00 PM

Hey David…l am all good….this a situation l went through my mum died….it took me a long time to come to terms with it! Thanks David….Debx

Charles Messina

Date: 12/12/2023 4:30:00 PM

Seems you've had us all worried, dear Deb. So happy to hear it was just you- expressing some passionate feelings. Thoughtful write, dear friend. Charliex

Deb M
Date: 12/15/2023 12:40:00 PM

Hey Charlie….I’m all good….this what how l felt when my mum died many years ago! I really struggled and thought l wouldn't be able to live in this world without her….so a very sad time for me. We were so close. Thankyou my friend! Debx

Gershon Wolf

Date: 12/11/2023 7:23:00 PM

NOW is the time --- for what, I'm not sure. You know yourself better than anyone. If rest is the prescription, by all means, pick up a few dozen hours at the nearest pharmacy. :) BB gw

Deb M
Date: 12/15/2023 12:37:00 PM

You my friend are nuts “in a good way” hehe!! I went to the pharmacy and they wouldn't sell me any!! Debx

Jerry Brotherton

Date: 12/11/2023 6:29:00 PM

I was worried about you for a bit. Then I read your reply to Sara and I'm happy that all is well with you, my friend. A powerful poem Deb.

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 6:59:00 PM

Oh thats very sweet of you Jerry to be concerned but l am honky dory my lovely friend! I feel for people who experience that darkness ongoing…its a scary and sad place to be ! Thanks Jerry….Debx

Sara Etgen-Baker

Date: 12/11/2023 5:16:00 PM

sorry to hear, Deb, that you're struggling a bit. I've been down that road....some folks really struggle emotionally this time of year. Sending you hugs and hope, Sara

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 6:06:00 PM

Hi Sara….no lm not struggling …thats how l felt when my mum passed away many years ago….it sent me to a dark place as l was devastated……l am all good Miss Sara…happy as Larry haha! Debx

Hilda Greenhough

Date: 12/11/2023 4:46:00 PM

Thank you for this poem. I also have these lost moments of time. It is similar to pulling one's way through cobwebs, at least for me. Best wishes for repaired mental balance.

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 6:14:00 PM

Hi Hilda….lm sorry to hear that….its not nice feeling that way. I am fine…that episode was over 10years ago. I hope you are ok……sending you cuddles and kindness sweet Hilda! Debx

Darlene De Beaulieu

Date: 12/11/2023 3:56:00 PM

Hello Deb, How long have you been depressed? A week? two weeks? What brought it on? I get deprewssed around New Year's Eve. It last a week then i am okay. Darlenex You need a hug. o/

Darlene De Beaulieu
Date: 12/12/2023 11:15:00 AM

Hello Deb, I am glad you are not depressed. I remembered how depressed i was when my mother died. so i know the feeling of sorrow was strong. Your welcome Deb. if you need to talk feel free to tell me./ Darlene/ x

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 6:10:00 PM

Hi Darlene….l am not depressed my friend….it was a long long time ago….after my mum died….l was struggling. It came and it went but l still remember how bad it felt. Thankyou for your concern sweet Darlene you are very kind. Im sending you a cuddle! Debx

Joe Dimino

Date: 12/11/2023 1:58:00 PM

Depression is a terrible thing...a frequent shadow visitor to artist types. Comes with the highs I guess. But you are not alone if knowing this helps somewhat. Blessings.

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 3:04:00 PM

Hey Joe…..this is how l felt when l lost my mum so many years ago….it took me a while to come to terms with her loss…l was devastated! Thanks my friend! Debx

Nancy Kaufman

Date: 12/11/2023 1:55:00 PM

Hi Deb, If this is written from a personal perspective, please turn off all external stressors (news, etc.) and try to sit and meditate on the light in your heart until it clears. Sounds like a bombardment and depletion of the writer's energy fields which need to be protected. God Bless..

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 3:01:00 PM

Hi Nancy….it happened to me when l lost my beautiful mum a long time ago….my world fell apart for time! Thankyou….Debx

Jay Narain

Date: 12/11/2023 10:48:00 AM

It happens once a while to all of us. Nice work.

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 2:59:00 PM

So true Jay! Lovely to see you….Debx

Silent One

Date: 12/11/2023 10:17:00 AM

I am sorry how this person feels... there is a lot of pain and angst.. many will feel like this.

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 2:58:00 PM

Hi SO….It was when my mum passed away so many years ago…l found her loss devastating! Debx

Tom Cunningham

Date: 12/11/2023 3:53:00 AM

Sadly you hear of that often Deb with some unable to cope and taking their own lives. Tom

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 2:59:00 PM

I know Tom….such sadness! Debx

Joseph May

Date: 12/10/2023 4:37:00 PM

Many suffer from these feelings of gloom, But soon the light off hope returns

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 2:58:00 PM

It does indeed Joseph! Thankyou….Debx

Karen Jones

Date: 12/10/2023 3:34:00 PM

Though it is fiction I had these feelings long ago. Poetry is a great asset to vent and discharge those blues into art. Well done!

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 2:55:00 PM

Hi karen….lovely to see you! Firstly, l just removed fiction from my poem. I wrote fiction as feeling like this isn't happening to me presently and hasn't in so many years . I didn't want to cause concern instead l caused confusion by writing fiction!! Haha! It is how l felt after my sweet mum died….an awful time….you understand having experiencing it yourself! Thanks Karen ….Debx

Jan Allison

Date: 12/10/2023 3:29:00 PM

I know its fictional piece Deb but its a scenario many can relate to especially at this time of the year with dull dark days and also Christmas looming which isnt a happy time for many, hugs jan xx

Deb M
Date: 12/11/2023 2:39:00 PM

Actually Jan l wrote fiction as its not happening now but l realise thats not actually right ….so removing fiction. It is how l felt after my mum died many many moons ago.lt was a terrible time! I know you understand that Jan…..Debx