Open the Floodgates

What strange cascades course down my spine -
invisible, unnameable, and as of yet, undiagnosed.
I only can liken them to rain or wind.
Sometimes they are as a shower -
pitter-pattering lightly down my back.
Other times they make a squall.
Rushing and gushing -
whether the currents be of rain or of wind,
the torrent pours down -
engulfing the system of my nerves
with its constant inundation of discomfort.

From the sky of modern medicine,
which once I stood beneath -
umbrella-less in my gullibility -
I received the bitter taste of something
ever surging in my mouth’s saliva -
the first sign of more tides to come.
Later there occurred a cloudburst of my brain,
causing to flow through me
unnatural cataclysmic side effects.
Now the hellish deluge surges sometimes too
over all my body’s rivers. 

“Damned” up with some weird neurology - 
awash am I
with whatever in my brain allows this rain
to pound me with persistence
and prevents it too from winding its way
to the ocean of sweet relief  for which I long.
I pray for it all to be released.
Again and again, the deluge flows
as I continue to plead 
please, oh, please, God -
open the floodgates.

April 28, 2022
for Edward Ibeh's Pick-A-Title, Vol 30 - Poetry Contest
Title Chosen: #2: Open the Floodgates
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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Peck Avatar
May 30, 2022 at 8:13 AM
Oh, Andrea ~ I'm so sorry you're in terrible pain. My dear friend, Suzanne, is like that, too. I hope you can find relief somehow. You describe it beautifully in your poem. Congratulations on First Place!
Alex Avatar
May 30, 2022 at 7:12 AM
"awash am I with whatever in my brain allows" - One can feel your feelings. Beautiful. Congratulations!
George Avatar
May 29, 2022 at 9:48 PM
Back to to your wonderful poem with Congratulations Andrea, on your top win!
Poet Avatar
May 29, 2022 at 7:11 PM
Andrea, congratulation on taking first place with your remarkable poetry! You are more than deserving of it. Blessings
Ibeh Avatar
May 29, 2022 at 4:07 PM
Heartiest congratulations on your top win in my contest with this brilliant poem, Andrea:-) I'm sorry you're experiencing pain/discomfort. I hope you're feeling better now!
Kendrick Avatar
May 8, 2022 at 7:10 AM
Reads like a good contender for the contest. Way to go. I know that has to be hard on you to live with a malady that is so uncomfortable. I hope you stumble across the answer to the problem in your search for a cure. We both know the Great Physician but sometimes we end up with some physical suffering in this life. I hope that it goes away soon maybe in answer to prayer, a miracle. Thanks for the visit to my page. Sara
Dietrich Avatar
May 8, 2022 at 9:35 AM
thanks, Sara. bishop of our church says I can be healed, but I guess I am not praying hard enough.
Proxenos Avatar
May 2, 2022 at 6:49 AM
Andrea dear friend I am so terribly sorry to hear you are unwell and can only pray you find relief from pain the soonest. Often thought of dear Andrea. Hugs Blessings, Jennifer.
Dietrich Avatar
May 3, 2022 at 3:57 PM
as long as I am sitting down with something against my back, I feel not so bad really. What a good excuse for being lazy , huh?
George Avatar
May 1, 2022 at 9:38 PM
Amazing poetry Andrea ! I am carried away by the surge of emotions you have expressed . Hope the inundating tide of emotions when let out as if the flood gates are opened, will give you instant calm. This goes into my Fav.
Dietrich Avatar
May 3, 2022 at 3:56 PM
thanks, you are so sweet.
Daniel Avatar
May 1, 2022 at 4:04 AM
Sorry for what you are going through, Andrea, will pray for you! Many times even I have pain, which so far has been undiagnosed... As you say, all these medicines do have side effects which reveal themselves sometimes after years...
Dietrich Avatar
May 3, 2022 at 3:56 PM
sorry for your pain, Jo. Thanks for your kind words.
Sands Avatar
April 30, 2022 at 10:23 PM
I am so sorry you are going through this Andrea. You have written about it so well. I wish healing for you! Blessings :)
Legros Kelley Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 5:51 PM
Oh no Andrea, I'm so sorry. I pray you are able to find out what in the world is happening. We've had weird symptoms affect our family over the years, and I thank God for Google searches to help me piece together and research for myself to take my information to the doctor if we have to go. We love our naturopathic MD, he is open to the information we bring, as was our children's pediatrician. God bless you sweet lady, may the floodgates of healing wash over you soon.
Dietrich Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 7:53 PM
Thanks, BJ. My mouth was very affected, but then I remember the day I first felt the other changes. I was walking to my car and a feeling swept through me saying: You are not the same. And so it remains.
DiMino Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 10:49 AM
Hi Andrea; sorry to hear you are still suffering so.... Many unexplained illnesses in our modern society, probably things in our air and food that we are unaware of -- though government probably knows but chooses to remain silent. I pray with you. Blessings.
Dietrich Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 7:50 PM
I know what caused mine and now it's too late. I think my normal nervous system was ultimately destroyed. Ten doctors could not help me (traditional and natural both). I fear for all the people being harmed by today's toxins not just in drugs, but in food, air, water. it's all so sad.
Pandit Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 4:53 AM
My heart reaches out to you, Andrea. Your metaphoric descriptions elegantly convey the frustrations of undiagnosed suffering. An excellent write.
Dietrich Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 8:30 AM
thanks, Vijay. I appreciate that.
Buhagiar Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 2:29 AM
I know of your troubles. One can only hope God will take care of you. Alas these days doctors even in Malta, are full of corruption. Hugs.
Dietrich Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 8:30 AM
So sad all the corruption in the medical field.
Tor Avatar
April 28, 2022 at 10:04 PM
Creative and wishful. Good Luck in the Contest Andrea...
Dietrich Avatar
April 28, 2022 at 10:37 PM
Haven't talked to you in a while. I hope you found solutions with your health, Michael.
Maverick Avatar
April 28, 2022 at 2:14 PM
Dear Lord.. Touch Andrea if it's within your plan? For I know you can do all things.. Unless there Is a lesson or enrichment to find for her? Within this situation.? Only you know all things Only you can outrun daylight and shut darkness Into your quiver.. Lord God I ask this in Jesuses Name as an Unworthy human with no confidence in my own abilitys or Goodness.'
Dietrich Avatar
April 28, 2022 at 10:32 PM
Thank you. Joe. Many people have prayed for me for months and months now. I am just having to accept that it is my own little cross to bear. But maybe one day I will get a miracle. Some people have things a lot worse than me. I am so grateful for my blessings and for friends like you.
Leffanta Avatar
April 28, 2022 at 1:37 PM
Alas, healthcare in the USA is wholly profit oriented. No doctor is interested in curing patients as profit lies in prescriptions, follow-up visits, tests, and surgeries. Will floodgates wash away their sins? Enjoyed, Andrea! Aloha!
Leffanta Avatar
April 30, 2022 at 10:04 AM
American doctors care more about their tax-free "incentive" for prescribing Prolia than how it impacts your health and family life! Aloha!
Dietrich Avatar
April 28, 2022 at 10:34 PM
They are indeed sinful when they swear an oath to do no harm and yet continue to prescribe things that hurt people. Many women have been injured by Prolia and some died, but our damn FDA keeps it on the market. It is disgusting.
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