Oh Life

Oh life! I was on a ride of life, going happily around the beautiful world! I had everything... but then this dark hooded figure, knocked on my door... I am not the same anymore because I now have everything but honestly nothing. I curled into a small ball, made a hard wall I feel numb Oh life, what have you done? lost my hobbies lost my gossip time lost my friends lost all the fun lost all my pretty smiles Oh life, are you happy now? I wanna scream so loud, I wanna yell, I wanna shout I wanna escape this pain away I do not deserve to feel it anyway, or do I? The salty tracks of the tears line up my face like the scars on my ankles I write the word "alone" but see it as "my home sweet home". People tell me to get up and that I need to fight and that it's all in my mind but I tell them, it's not as easy as they say because I am stuck on this bay. Oh life, you have won this race I am still lost in the maze I am in this prison saving my fragile sanity from shattering saving this soul from breaking I am suffocating gasping for air but nobody's there, gasping for air but nobody cares. A dark cloud hangs over my head Dark thoughts swirl in my head Oh life, you've made me into your Miss Negativity! Oh life, why have you taken my joy away? I was so happy before! but not anymore Oh time, I want yesterday once more I can't live this way anymore! When I was yearning for a big hug, I heard my mom call me crazy saying it's all disgusting She tells me to stop all this nonsense makes me believe, Is sadness a privilege? can't I cry? do I not deserve to feel it? Oh life I was one of your strongest soldiers, the happiest one- Why have you made me this weak now? Oh life, you are such a big bad thief You have stolen my precious childhood away told me to find my way Beautiful wind, take this pain away Show me away I am drowning in the dark sea, I am suffocating can't breathe Can't you see? I wanna break my heart into tiny pieces Throw them into the waves throw them away But we need to live We need to thrive We need to survive I need to get up I have to break my shell But I can't forget I fell. Oh life I have failed your test I tried my best Help me, somebody help me, Don't judge me, please I am not crazy just doomed in some misery Just help me, save me from this black hole And I'll find my way I'll try my best, Oh life! I haven't lost my will to win!